Chapter 14: Mirrors

POV: Marta

I sped into Teller Morrow drive way but the gate was closed. I honked the horn and got one of the hang arounds to let me in. Stopping short of the clubhouse entrance, I ran out leaving the keys in the ignition. I couldn't wait to get to him. I needed him, not just because I loved him but to save Shelby. I walked with so much confidence, fear, and longing. As I walked in the Club, Tig smiled and started clapping. He ordered a Prospect to get him some popcorn. Wierdo! He pointed to the right side of the club and I found him.

I felt like I was shot in the chest. He was practically fucking the skank who took me shopping. I ran up and pulled her by her hair off. He stared at me with hate in his eyes.

"What are you doing here, Mayan whore?" There it was another shot. I shook my head and I could feel the tears coming out. He knew. He wasn't going to forgive. I tried to explain but he started walking away with the slut happily gripping his hand.

"Juan Carlos, stop! I tried to tell you before you wouldn't let me tell you. But I'm here for you. I left my family for you! Please just look at me!" I tugged on his free hand.

"Juice! My name is Juice. And I don't fucking care. You got what you wanted, right? Get the fuck out! As you can see I'm busy." He grabbed the red headed whore and kissed her. She turned to me and told me to fuck off. I pulled out Tito's gun I had gotten from the glove compartment and bashed it into her face."

"Let see how you breathe and suck his dick now, bitch!" I could hear Tig laughing and clapping. Juice looked at me angrily. He curled his hands into fists. I didn't know if he would deck me but if it meant he would hear me I would take it. He didn't. I started to beg and tried to touch him but he pulled away. Everyone was just watching now.

"Juice, Papi, I love you. You have no idea what I had to do to come back to you. Please, I had to leave Shelby behind. She's in danger. God damn it! Look at me! Look at my face! Does it look like I was working you. If I was why do I have new bruises? My uncle is furious! I didn't care about anything he said! I just want you! You said nothing would make you leave me!"

"Yeah, nothing short of death. You just killed me! Get out!" He reached down and was helping the bitch up." It was like I wasn't there. I was frozen. He turned around, faced me, and pushed me into Tig. "Here you go, Tig! You like Latin bitches so much." Tig tried to grab my breast and I kicked him in the groin and punched him.

"You fucking bastard!" I ran out crying. I stopped at the car when I heard him calling out for me to wait. He ran up, placed his hand gently on my face, and lowered it to my neck. He yanked off his mom's chain.

"I trusted you and you killed me! Did you tell Alvarez? Did you? Answer me!" His hands were around my throat and he kept pushing me into the car. "You fucking killed me! You fucking killed me! " Chibs pried him off. I bent over coughing and holding my neck. He almost killed me. Chibs told me to get out and gripped the car handle nervously. I drove off. My hands were trembling. I had lost him and now possibly Shelby. I could hear Juice creaming as I took off. I looked out the rear view mirror and saw him struggling with Chibs and the hang around that opened the gate for me. I couldn't stand the image so I punched out the mirror. The pain in my hand did not subdue the pain in my heart. I had no home. My only chance to save Shelby was gone. I would have no family. Happy hadn't been there but if sweet boyish Juan Carlos had almost killed me. I could only fear what Happy would do to her.

POV: Juice

How could she stand there and tell me she loved me? I wanted her to feel what I felt when I put my hands around her neck. I wanted her to feel her life leaving her just like mine was. It was only a matter of time before Alvarez would use her knowledge of Miles. The Club will find out. I will lose my family. I may even lose my life. If I live, Tig will be ecstatic at burning my patch off my arm. He never liked me. He would relish it.

I could hear Tig laughing in the doorway again. Chibs knocked me down and climbed on me. He held my neck tight and I stopped fighting. I wanted it all to go away.

"Juicy boy, relax. She took a good licking before she even got here. If she was using you, she would have never come back. Think, boy! Don't be stupid. She didn't fight you when you choked her. You need to calm down and bring her back." He loosened his grip. I got up and shaking my head. I walked back to the Clubhouse and tore the whiskey out of Tig's hand. I locked myself in my dorm room. I cried again. I wanted her back but I couldn't . I was too scared I'd kill her and then this would be just like Romeo and Juliet. Chibs kicked the door in and sat on the love seat. He yelled something about not letting me be alone. Eventually, I drank enough to fall asleep on the bed.

POV: Happy

Ope and Bobby kept trying to ride alongside me. The morons even tried cutting me off. I kicked my leg out to Ope trying to make him loose his balance. No one was going to in my way. She was going to pay for this betrayal. I reached Alvarez' house and pulled out my gun. I walked up to the guard outside and knocked him unconscious. I heard the guys coming behind me beckoning to wait on them. I couldn't hesitate because I was starting to have second thoughts. I walked in the house and pointed the gun at the Prospect.

"Where is she? Don't pretend you don't know cause I will kill you. He pointed to upstairs and I shot him in the stomach. Ope came up and tried to pull me off the stair case but I just slammed him into the wall. "I don't care. Get the fuck out and save your own skin." I yelled at her name and she answered back. The door was locked so I shot off the door knob.

She ran to me. I breathed her in and I saw the picture of Alvarez on the wall -his family, his wife, baby, the girls, and Esai, his son. The rage came back and I pushed her away.

"Lying bitch! "

"Happy, wait! I can explain. Baby, please." I held my hands up and tried to plead with him. He had a similar look on him when the Niners shot at us, but this was deeper, more intense, deadlier.

"What did I tell you, bitch? You endangered my family and my Club! Don't you fucking shake your head at me!" He pointed his gun at me. I backed into the wall. "You thought you were going to make an ass out of me. Was that it? You whored yourself for information, to get in? You fucking rat?" He ripped the rosary off his neck and pushed the gun between my legs while his free hand gripped my throat.

"Hap! We gotta get the fuck out! Bastards called the Mayans are on the move! Let's go!" Bobby yelled as he peered through the door. He looked sympathetic towards me. But this was the price I was going to pay, I wouldn't exist in either worlds. As far as my uncle was considered I was tainted goods and now Happy was going to kill me.

"The next time I see you bitch, you'll be facing the barrel of my gun!" He walked out reluctantly as Bobby pulled on his sleeve. I fell to the floor and cried. I hadn't cried like this since my mom died. The rage inside me started to take over. I started to slam everything in the room to pieces as the motors of the bikes died down and new ones emerged minutes later. I saw myself in the mirror and I didn't recognize myself. I was broken beyond repair. Everyone was against us. I smashed the mirror to erase the woman that was staring back at me. She was a pathetic weakling. I promised myself she would never come back. I heard Tio Marcos yelling about the Prospect being shot and he came up. He looked disgusted at the shamble of a woman that was before him.

"What did I tell you? You're lucky he didn't kill you the way he killed Esai!" The earth beneath me moved and I fell to the floor. I couldn't take this. "It was him! He's killing this family!" Uncle Chino and Rafa came in. Rafa murmured "stupid bitch" at me and I pulled a broken glass off the floor and slashed him. Tio Marcos knocked me down to the floor. Rafa got up and leaned over me as Uncle Chino held me down.

"I'm glad he finally sees you for what you are. You're going to wish you never survived the attack at the gas station. I'm on top now, prima." As he got up he spit and me and kicked me in the stomach.

Tito came in the room and pulled me up. He bound my hands and put me in the van. I was defeated. Now I know for sure they were in on it. I will kill them if it's the last thing I do. It had to be them who sent the pictures to Tio Marcos. I didn't know where I was going. Gordo climbed in the back of the van. He shook his head and hugged me. He whispered, "I'm sorry, nena." I'd grown up with Gordo. I was dead and he was saying goodbye.

"They set me up, Gordo. " He wiped the blood off my face with a bandana.

"Can you prove it?"

"No, but I'll die trying." He shoved a 9 millimeter in my boot and gave me a blessing then left the van. Thank La Virgen for him. He saw through the lies but Gordo wasn't much of a killer or a leader. At the end of the day, he would save his own ass just like every other man. It was time to think.

POV: Happy

I couldn't do it. I wanted to kill her but I couldn't. She had broken me. I could anyone. She looked straight in my eyes. I fucking love the lying bitch. It would take time for me to pull the trigger. I was risking my brother for her. I couldn't let Bobby or Ope pay for my own personal vengeance. I'll come back for her one day. Shooting the Prospect brought me some release but not enough. We rode out in time with the Bastards watching our backs.

I finally got to Charming and I notices the rosary was entangled on my wallet chain. I wanted to toss it but I couldn't I stood over the garbage can for a while debating. I finally wrapped it around wrist and tied it. This would remind me never to let anyone else in. I will get the broken rosary tattooed to my wrist as a permanent reminder. If she was stupid enough, she would find me and I will be ready to take her out.

I overheard Jax fill in Ope about what happened while I was gone. That other bitch had balls coming here. I wanted to check on Juice but I couldn't look at him now. He would just remind me how I felt inside. Juice couldn't keep it in like me. I asked one of the croweaters instead. She told me he was snoring in his room and Chibs, his guard, was just the same. I helped the Prospect inside fortify the Club in case the Mayans came for pay back.

POV: Marta

I pulled over the side of the rode by the diner where we had our first date in. I ran out and threw up on the ground. I stood there leaning over my own vomit as the tears continued to pour. I took out the picture of Juice and me. I held it close to my chest. I walked back to the car and took a swig of water to wash out my mouth. It made things worse and I was back throwing up. The picture was still in my hand. I dropped it as the black hood and wire went over my head. It tightened and I saw my life flash before me before I lost the struggle to break free.