Chapter 11: Let Me Put My Love Into You Babe
"Don't you struggle
Don't you fight
Don't you worry
'Cause it's your turn tonight." –AC/DC
It had taken about fifteen minutes for the reality of Damon's words to fully hit Elena and about twenty minutes after that for everyone to pile back into their cars and return to the darkness of the highway. There was no point in trying to sleep after a bomb like that had been dropped on them and frankly sleeping was just a waste of precious time. What was important now was getting to Florida and getting there fast.
Elena sat silently in the passenger seat of Damon's Mustang and stared out the window quietly watching the quick passing trees. Her mind took her back to four months before when Stefan had first disappeared. She remembered the feeling of loss that she had experienced when she had realized he'd left with Klaus willingly, but the feeling of hope that soon replaced it when she had found out that he had done it to save his brother's life. She remembered the determination she had felt for month's after as they searched for him knowing that if they could just find him and break the compulsion that everything would eventually be alright again. She remembered the night that Stefan returned to her, the softness in his touch, but the distance in his eyes. Elena closed her eyes, the last month had been a lie, she had known it then, she just couldn't admit it to herself and now everything was falling apart.
Elena felt like an idiot. She had known that something was different about Stefan when he had returned, but she just kept telling herself it was just him adjusting back to his old life. In reality it wasn't him adjusting at all, it was him hiding the new life that he had adapted. He might have left Klaus physically, but obviously he'd never left him completely and even though he had been acting different she knew he wasn't under compulsion this time. She had looked into his eyes and even though she had felt only emptiness, she still had seen his humanity, she had seen the conflict, but she had been wrong about what he had been truly fighting. She thought deep down he had just been struggling to be himself again, when in reality he was simply struggling with pretending to be something that he wasn't. This was Stefan. He had been a ripper before Klaus had ever come into their lives and even though he had been able to suppress it, he had never been able to make it truly go away. Stefan had tried to withhold who he truly was all these years, and as she turned and looked at Damon she realized, he wasn't the only one.
"I think we need to talk, Damon." Elena said softly as she shifted in her seat and raised her eyes to his face. Damon didn't turn, he just shook his head.
"No, Elena we don't. Right now I am far too preoccupied with how many bodies I am going to have to burn to cover my brother's trail to think about whatever it is we have going on here." He said coldly as he gripped the steering wheel tighter. Elena looked down for a moment, she had hurt him and he was pissed. She definitely understood why. He had done nothing but give her every little piece of him the past week and all she had done was give him small pieces of hope and then in the morning run back into the arms of his brother, she was a bitch and even she knew it.
"Well we have a few hours until we get to Miami, so I don't see why we can't talk about this now?" She asked as she finally looked back up at him. Damon gritted his teeth and hit his hands against the steering wheel.
"Because I don't want to talk about it Elena. I don't want to talk about the fact that I am finding it increasingly difficult to be in the same room with you without either wanting to slap the stupidity out of you or fuck you completely senseless. I wonder which one would knock sense into you the fastest, because obviously whatever I am doing right now isn't working." He said quickly in a sharp tone. Elena swallowed and fought back the urge to scream back at him, he had a right to be angry; she just needed to remind herself of that.
"I know I've been stupid Damon, I don't need you to tell me that. Up until the past few days I really thought that everything I was doing was right. I thought that holding onto Stefan and waiting for him to return to me was the best thing that I could do. Never give up; I knew that if I just never gave up, everything would be fine. Well, I was wrong. I never gave up and now I am holding onto a man that doesn't exist anymore. I'm holding onto who he was, not who he is." She said softly as she looked down at her lap. Damon didn't move, he just sighed as he looked out over the open road.
"I know how you feel Elena, trust me I do. I thought I was in love with Katherine for one hundred and forty-five years. I had an image of her in my head that I held onto that made everything I did, no matter how stupid or horrific, seem justified. Then finally I woke up one morning and realized it had all been a lie, she had been a lie and everything I thought we had, had been a lie. The difference between Stefan and Katherine though is that he didn't lie to you Elena, he really did try, I saw it. Maybe if we can just get to him, we can bring him back again. I just can't make you the promise we can though this time, I don't know if he's still in there anymore. But, I can promise you I'll try." Damon said as he dropped his eyes and emotion flooded his voice. Elena stared at him and even though she knew that he had fought his brother for almost their entire existence, she saw the love he still had for him deep in his eyes.
"I don't need you to bring him back to me this time Damon. Yes, I want to go find him and I want to make sure he is safe and hopefully get him to finally win the battle he has been fighting for pretty much ever, but you don't need to bring him back to me anymore. Things are never going to be the same; I can't lie to myself anymore." She said softly as she stared into the distance. She felt Damon's eyes move to her suddenly.
"So you are letting him go?" He asked in a surprised tone. Elena shook her head.
"No, I'm letting us go. There is someone else I need to hold on to, someone that I care about too much to lose now." She whispered as she looked up at him. Damon stared at her in disbelief.
"I owe you an apology Damon." Elena said as she turned closer to him in her seat. Damon stared at her, but quickly moved his eyes back to the road. She knew he still didn't trust that she was being sincere or not just moving from one brother to the other since one apparently was now busy feasting on the sunbathers of the Florida shore.
"Elena, you don't owe me anything." He said quickly as his jaw tightened. Elena nodded as she leaned closer to him.
"Yes I do Damon. I am sorry that I asked you to do what I did when I knew deep down that there was something between us. I knew that everything changed this summer, I felt it. I felt how different it was when you touched me, I felt the tension in the air when we were too close to each other, I knew that I should never have asked you something like that and expected that things wouldn't change. But, I did it anyway because I was being selfish and I was lying to myself and I was lying to you." She said quickly as passion filled her voice. Damon faked a smile and she could tell he was choking down any emotions that he was feeling.
"Elena, I am not as fragile as you think I am. I can handle having sex without getting attached. You forget I have a switch. I can flip that baby off and just enjoy the ride." He said with a sarcastic tone and Elena knew in that moment that all his defenses were up. She could have probably professed her love for him right then and there and he wouldn't have believed her. He was angry at his brother, he was angry at her and deep down she knew he was angry with himself. If she was going to prove to him that she felt something for him she knew she had to approach this in a different way, a Damon way.
"So you flipped your switch?" Elena asked as she undid her seatbelt and moved closer to him. Damon looked at her from the corner of his eye, but didn't move.
"Does it matter, Elena?" He asked through gritted teeth. Elena nodded and slid her hand over his smooth dark button up shirt.
"Yes Damon, it does." She whispered and even she realized her voice had dropped quite a bit lower than earlier in their conversation. Damon swallowed.
"Why do you care? Even if I had flipped the switch, you still came every time I got my hands on you. No harm no foul." He said in a slightly husky voice that still had an edge. Elena nodded as she slid her hand up the side of Damon's neck and leaned her lips against the smooth skin of his ear.
"I care because I want you to feel when you are with me Damon. I want to feel you shake under my hands just like I did under yours…every single time." She whispered against his skin. Damon let out a ragged breath.
"Elena, what are you doing?" He asked softly as he felt her hand begin to slide back down the center of his chest. Elena smiled, moved closer to the side of his face and ran her teeth over the side of his jaw.
"Apologizing." She whispered and then turned her head slightly and crashed her lips against Damon's.
It took Elena a moment, but after a second she realized that Damon wasn't kissing her back. His jaw remained locked and even though she felt him shiver slightly, he remained still and his eyes drifted between her and the road.
"No kiss?" She asked with a pout. Damon smiled as he looked back at the road.
"I remember telling you I wouldn't touch you like that until you asked me too. I am sticking with that sweetheart." He said sarcastically. Elena smiled as she moved closer to him and began to trace the outline of his jaw with her fingertips.
"Damon…" She purred against his ear. Damon smirked, but she could tell she was getting under his skin.
"Yes?" He purred right back to her.
"Please kiss me, touch me and God let me touch you." She begged against his ear in a breathy voice. Elena could hear the control in Damon snap as she felt his mouth crush against hers.
Damon's mouth was hard and hungry against Elena's. The romantic tenderness of the last night they had shared together was gone and suddenly replaced with a burning need that scorched her lips as she fought every urge of climbing onto his lap. Slowly, Elena pulled away and ran her lips down the smooth skin of Damon's chin and then the tender hallow of his throat.
"If you don't stop, I'm going to have to pull this car over." Damon said breathlessly as he felt Elena move down and begin to undo the buttons of his shirt and leave burning kisses over his cool skin.
"Just drive Damon, put all that self-control you have to good use, for once." She said with a smile as she ran her hand down the tightness of his stomach and to the top of his jeans. Damon swallowed as he looked down at her.
"Elena…" He started as he felt her hand slip over the tightness of his pants that was not doing a good job of hiding his painful erection. Elena shook her head and put her finger gently to his lips.
"Eyes on the road, we won't want any accidents, do we?" She asked in a seductive tone as she stared into his icy blue eyes. Damon licked his lips as he nodded to her and then slowly raised his eyes back to the road. Elena smiled and felt excitement rush through her veins as she felt her desire for Damon and the control she felt move through her like pure adrenaline.
Damon tried to keep his eyes on the dark highway in front of him as he focused on Caroline's tail lights in the distance. His efforts were completely derailed; however, as he felt Elena's hand reach into his pants and wrap her long delicate fingers around the part of him that had been aching for her since he stepped out of the shower.
"Elena…" He groaned as he felt her release him from his pants and run her hands over his hard shaft.
"Do you forgive me yet?" She asked softly as she lowered herself even further down his lap. Damon stared into her brown eyes that brimmed with lust just below him.
"No." He whispered in a hoarse voice. Elena smiled and nodded and then he felt her warm mouth wrap tightly around him.
"Fuck, Elena!" Damon groaned as he slammed one of his hands on the steering wheel. Elena moaned as she slid her mouth further down onto him and ran her tongue over his skin painfully slow. Damon shuddered as she began to move her mouth over him and he bit down on his lip as the sensations flooded over him intensely with her every painfully delicious move.
"Mmm…you taste so good Damon." Elena purred as she pulled back for a moment and bit down on her bottom lip. Damon looked down at her and watched as her eyes locked with his and she ran her tongue just over the tip of his painfully hard erection once again.
"Don't be a tease." He said roughly as he stared down at her. Elena smiled and licked her lips.
"I am definitely not a tease Damon." She said softly and then dropped her head once again and took him deep in her mouth.
"God Damnit Elena." Damon moaned as her mouth began to work faster over him. He felt his vision begin to blur slightly as he continued to focus on the road in front of him and not on the brunette torturing him slowly with her beautifully wet mouth.
Elena's mouth began to work faster as she felt Damon's fingers begin to slid down and tangle in her hair. Her body rushed as he tugged at her hair roughly and her heart pounded against her chest as the taste of his skin flooded her senses. She moved faster and took him deeper as her need for him grew increasingly greater.
"God you look good doing that baby." Damon moaned breathlessly as his hand began to shake on the steering wheel. Elena moaned and the vibrations that moved from her mouth and into him sent a chill up his spine.
Elena started to move her hands over Damon as she felt the need in him rise. She moved her tongue over him slowly and took him deeper into her mouth. She licked over his skin and took in every delicious taste of him. She had missed the taste of him for days and now that she had her mouth on him she never wanted to stop. She felt Damon's fingers twisting painfully hard in her hair, but the pain only made her want it more, want him more.
"Fuck me, Elena you gotta stop." Damon said quickly and she felt his hand begin to slip in her hair. That was a new one; she had never heard those words while in this position. She slowly brought her head back and stared up at him breathlessly.
"Why, what's wrong?" She asked in a gasp. Damon smiled as he licked his lips and tried to regain his composure.
"Blondie is pulling off to a rest stop." He said huskily. Elena shook her head.
"Then I'd better hurry." She said quickly and before Damon could argue, her head dropped again.
It was in that moment that Damon was thankful that he was a vampire and had better vision than most. The minute that Elena's hungry lips dropped back to his aching shaft he felt his world tip upside down. Her mouth met his skin with a need that he had never felt from her before. She moved quickly, but not hastily over his skin. She moaned as she took in every inch of him and ran her tongue in painfully slow strokes over his hard length. He felt his hands begin to shake once again as his release built and he tried to focus on the fact he was now pulling off the highway and in about two minutes would be parked in a public rest stop.
"Elena, fuck!" Damon moaned as he knotted his fingers in her hair. Elena felt his release beginning to wash over him so as she moaned softly she slowly slid his length down her throat and ran her tongue over his skin. Damon felt his mind begin to spin as his body began to burn and dug his fingers into the back of Elena's neck as he felt his orgasm rip through him and begin to spill down her tight waiting throat. Elena moaned and drank him in until she felt the car stop and quickly pulled back and moved into her seat. Damon's eyes slowly began to focus again as he turned in his seat and stared at her. Elena ran her tongue over her lips as she ran her fingers through her hair. She smiled at Damon as he zipped up his pants and went for his door.
"Get out of the car." He said sharply. Elena stared at him for a moment and at first thought he was angry with her.
"What?" She asked softly.
"Get out of the fucking car, Elena." He said breathlessly and she finally heard the desire in his voice that she had originally mistaken for anger. She nodded and quickly pushed open her door as adrenaline surged through her body. She quickly got out of the car and before she could run inside, she felt her body collide with another soft body before she could even close her door.
"Elena, are you alright?" Bonnie asked as she studied Elena's flushed face. Elena swallowed and nodded as she stepped slightly back and steadied her footing.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I just…" She started as she stared into Bonnie's concerned yet questioning eyes. She tried to think of a good excuse for her behavior, but before she had the chance, she felt a strong hand wrap around her arm.
"Elena isn't feeling well. I think she's car sick or something. I am going to take her inside and make sure she's alright." Damon said quickly as he began pulling Elena beside him and up the sidewalk. Bonnie followed them quickly.
"I can take her, I was going in anyway." Bonnie said as she studied the expression on Elena's face that didn't look sick at all. Damon turned around and glared at Bonnie, she knew that look.
"Witchy, go to the bathroom. I will make sure Elena is alright and then we will hit the road again. If she is sick, we wouldn't want you catching anything now would we?" He asked sarcastically. Bonnie stared between them and then slowed her pace.
"OK, well Elena we'll wait for you guys. If you need anything yell OK?" She asked as she watched her friend practically running from her. Elena nodded and Damon smiled as he opened the door to the rest area.
"Oh, she'll yell, don't worry." He said and then in an instant they disappeared.
"What was all that about?" Caroline asked as she finally joined Bonnie on the sidewalk. Bonnie crossed her arms over her chest and shook her head.
"I don't know, but whatever it was, it's not good. Not at all." Bonnie said as she stared still at the closed door between her and her friend. Caroline tried to fight the smile that twisted across her lips as she remembered the conversation that she had with Elena only a few days before at the Café. She gripped her purse and then put her free hand through Bonnie's arm and started to pull her down the sidewalk.
"Come on, let's go get some coffee. It may take Elena a while to…feel better. We'll get something to drink and then meet them back here." She said quickly as she began dragging Bonnie toward the other side of the building. Bonnie nodded slowly, but couldn't fight the feeling her friend was in a danger that even she might not be able to help her out of.
Pleeaaase read and review! I know some of you were unhappy with my lack of naughtiness in the shower during the last chapter, did I make up for it in this one? Please let me know what you think and click the button below and review. Thank you for reading, will try to get another chapter up tonight! Nikki