Once Broken, Considered sold-4

chapter 4- Lost

Hey guys, thanks for reviewing and reading this story! You're awesome and I hope we all live through the hiatus:) I know I haven't updated in along time, so I hope the length of this story makes up for it;P

Alright. So i understand that alot of you are very confused at the sudden PoV changes and characters popping up. So I decided to add in a question and answer session in this chapter. For people who are completely okay with the story, you are permitted to skip this part. For the rest, LISTEN UP, this will only be said once, unless you write me more questions... :D

1. Who is Sean?

Sean is the coffee shop guy/new boyfriend mentioned in the first chapter. I forgot to put his name in. Sorry:P

2. Why was Kate with Alex Conrad?

Ahahaha. That hasnt been explained yet. Their pasts will all be explained via flashbacks that will be slowly spread out within the chapters. So until then, I can't reveal anything yet.

3. Was what happened with Kate and Conrad, Rick's fault?

Huh? Where did you get that idea? No. It isn't his fault. That's why everyone was pissed at Kate... More explanations coming up!

4. Did Kate tell Rick about Conrad?

Yes. She did.

If you have anymore questions, please feel free to ask me:DD

here's the next chapter!

Sean's PoV

No way. No freaking way. He had been used by the one girl that had meant something to him. The one thing he actually cared about. She had called in the middle of the day, to say that they were over, and that she had been using him. He had never thought that she would break his heart like this. Katherine Beckett. His one and only. Had been stolen from him. But he had already expected it... She was never his to begin with. Somehow, he had always known that she would never be fully his, without her heart being tied up in a memory.

All his life, he had been flirting with nearly every girl he met. Bouncing off one girl for another after not more than two dates. Marriage and dating weren't really his type. He was a 'one night stand' kind of guy.

Until one night at the Old Haunt. He had seen a really hot girl sitting by herself, glancing every now and then to a picture on the wall. Her eyes were haunting, but filled with deep sorrow, and he wanted to kiss it away. She brushed away a tear and sipped her alcohol slowly, staring into space, seemingly lost until her gaze flitted back to the photo, and then her eyes seem to brighten with the memory of something even he could not understand. And ever so often, the tiniest trace of a smile graced her lips. The photo was of a young guy, smiling cheerfully. 'He must be very special to her.' Sean thought.

He had thought of her as his ultimate achievement in women, and set his target to woo her. It wasn't easy, even though she was pretty drunk already. He slid into the seat next to her and offered to buy her a drink. And he had been nearly handcuffed to the table. "I'm a cop. don't try anything." she whispered softly. Sean couldn't remember what line he used on her, but it resulted in her laughing at him.

It took them about three weeks, to get to know each other, and by then, Sean had fallen for her and never wanted to let her go. But there was always a slight reluctance and resistance, every time they kissed. Like she didn't really want him.

He should have known. She should have said something when they first met. Now, he had a broken heart, and nothing was going to be able to fix it.

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Kate's PoV

She had expected the sadness. She had expected the denial and arguement. She hadn't expected the guilt of breaking someone else's heart like how Rick had broke hers. It didn't seem fair to keep leading him on, even though she had done the same thing to Rick for a long time. She blinked at the thought of him, and left the house silently after leaving a note of thanks.

So she was running again. But at least this time, she was running towards something, or someone. Her cheeks were wet, and it wasn't because she was sweating. Instead, it was because of the cold tears dripping down her face. She was panting, but she didn't stop until she reached the building.

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She gave a weak smile to Lanie when she opened the door and patiently waited for her after Lanie went back inside. Kate heard Lanie tell Esposito to get out for a while, before ushering her in, and him, out.

"Girl, what the heck is wrong with you? Are you crazy? Running here in the middle of the day when you're running a fever? You're just looking to get hospitalized, arent you?" Kate's head shot up when Lanie mentioned the word 'hospitalized', ad she shot her a pleading look. "Hmmph. It's not THAT serious yet. But it will be, if you keep this up." Lanie sent her a pointed glare.

Kate averted her eyes and pouted. "Oh no. Don't you try that on me. It won't work, and you know it." Lanie responded and walked away unaffected.

She came back a few minutes later with a cup of hot soup. "Drink. You need the fluids. Plus, if you don't, I'll really take you to the hospital." so Kate sat on the couch and obediently drank the warm liquid that warmed every part of her body except her heart. She spilled everything out to her best friend for the next few hours. How she so badly wanted to see him, and yet was so afraid of him. She knew he was avoiding her, but she couldnt bring herself to admit that she wanted him back.

After listening to Kate ramble for a while, she finally ran out of gas to defend herself and just sobbed quietly. When Kate took a long needed breath of oxygen, Lanie took her magazine and hit her hard on the head, causing her to yelp in pain. "LANIE! Did you have to add to my physical pain?" she groaned as she rubbed her head in frustration and confusion.

"NOPE. but I did it to wake your mentally pained self up! It's so obvious you want him Kate, and who knows? Maybe he wants you too."

"I don't think so Lanie."

"What makes you so sure about that?" Lanie gave her a look, and as if on cue, the doorbell rang. "Lanie," Kate almost growled at her. " If that's him, I swear I will-"

"Thank me? You do whatever you want girl, but I have nothing to do with that." Almost instantly, an image of the past incident where Castle went to get the door, and found a dead body, came into her mind. Following the past events of that case, she realized how much they actually relied on each other.

She let out a quiet groan of frustration when she remembered that she wasn't supposed to think about him. Instead, she focused on taking her gun out and inching towards the door. Just when she slammed the door open and was about to pull the trigger, she realized who it was. Esposito. Lanie looked half scared and half pissed, as she glared at her boyfriend for not waiting for her call before returning.

"Sorry Esposito. I-I didn't know that-"

"It's okay Kate. Javier's the one who should appologise." Lanie put her arm around her best friend's shoulders and gave Esposito the evil eye.

"Y-Yeah. I'm sorry for not letting you guys know I was coming back..." Esposito said sincerely.

"I'd better get going... It's okay Lanie, I should get back to my own apartment and check on my mail." She said after seeing Lanie's sad look. "I'll catch you later, Lanie.

It seemed like she couldn't find anywhere for her to be at peace. So Kate walked out of the district alone, feeling slightly dizzy, not knowing that Lanie had called someone while watching her leave by the window.

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Richard was sitting alone on his couch. At times, he found that it still had a little of her scent left, and it was the thing keeping him from going insane for the past few weeks. He stared blankly at the ceiling and was feeling very lost.

Kate had disappeared that day after leaving a hastily written note. He was seriously confused, he was supposed to have forgotten her so that when she left, he wouldn't feel as if she had ripped his heart into pieces again.

~~~FlashBack~~~

Kate Beckett had been sobbing against his doorstep, waiting for him to come home. He had wondered why didn't she open the door and go in, since she had her own set of keys. Before he could even ask, she had gotten up and flung her arms around his body and pressed her crying face into his shoulder.

"Kate, what happened?" he asked as he gently stroked her hair, trying to calm her down. She couldn't speak coherently as of then, so her only reply was to sob even harder as she gripped his shirt even tighter.

"Hey! You're finally back, eh? That girl's been sitting there crying for the past half an hour waiting for you." Joe, his neighbor down the hall called out to him, as he collected his newspaper and went back inside.

"Let's go inside." He told her as he quickly unlocked the door and let his girlfriend into his house. It was early in the morning, and she hadn't returned his calls the night before. He thought that it was due to her being exhausted because of the recent case and that she had turned in early, but when he went over that morning, she hadn't been home.

Something obviously had happened, but she seemed in no state to tell him at that point, so he figured that the best thing he could do was to let her relax and stop crying.

The case that they had closed recently consisted of a gruesome double murder, two siblings. One was only a few years older than Alexis. But because of the strange time sequence that had occurred, Alex Conrad, his protégé, had come to observe them and show Rick his new chapter. The whole team had went out to drinks for a celebratory win, but the mood wasn't as high as usual. The killer turned out to be one of the victim's best friend. The two had hatched a plan to kill the other sibling, until he pulled out, and therefore, both were killed. In fact, there WAS someone who had asked him out in that duration of the case, but he declined politely. Still, she gave him her number, just in case, she said. 'Her name was...Anna? Audrey? Or something like that.' he had thought.

Anyway, Rick had been on edge during that case, and decided to head home early, leaving Kate with the others. He simply just wanted to hug his daughter goodnight and perhaps it will make him feel better the next morning, and he would be less gloomy.

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He didn't want to remember past that moment, knowing what came next. It would only make his heart ache once again. It took him so long to finally let her go, she didn't get to suddenly squeeze her way back into his heart and his mind. She didn't deserve that. No-HE didn't deserve that kind of treatment.

There was only one other way, other than drinking, to make him forget the experience. He picked up his phone from the glass table, and dialed.

"Hey, Adrianna? I was thinking, maybe I could take you out one of these days after all..."

Sorry guys, I had to stop there for the time being, since I haven't updated in a while. Don't worry! Caskett will happen, EVENTUALLY. Haha. And don't kill Adrianna please! She is an OC, but she wont cause too much of problems for our favourite couple. In fact, I DO have a plan for her, but you'll just have to read to find out:)

Today is teacher's day holiday so I can post this, but for those reading RRR, I WILL UPDATE THAT SOON:) and if you aren't, go and take a look:) who knows? you may like it^^.

I'll try to update this as soon as possible, please leave me a review on your way out;) you know, it brightens up every writer's day, And with HAPPY and INSPIRED writers, readers get better and longer chapters:) teehee!

Have a good week guys! Enjoy the short break before exams come xP

Until next time,

~Lianna