Once Broken, Considered Sold-9

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Chapter 9 Heartbreak

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It could have been fate, guilt, pure thankfulness, or just her own stupid conscience, but whatever it was, it made Kate Beckett pull herself together, and head over to Castle's house. It was still very early in the morning, and she knew that he would probably still be asleep because it was a Saturday. Therefore, she had time to drink her coffee and contemplate her decision.

She was so nervous that she actually measured her temperature to make sure that she was not sick, for it could compromise the validity of her decision, not to mention her sanity.

Upon finally reaching her destination, as well as pacing back and forth outside her car and trying to decide if she should go through with her plan, Kate Beckett took a deep breath and knocked on his door. The hollow sound of it reflected exactly what she was feeling inside. She waited for anyone to open the door, her heart beat getting faster every minute.

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Richard Castle was on the verge of collapse from exhaustion. He had barely gotten a few hours of sleep when he returned from his night escapade, when he had been rudely awakened by the sound of the consistent knocking against his front door. His first guess was one of those irritating salesmen, that kept on knocking until you buy something.

He had hoped that Alexis would be up and out by then, and she could answer the door, but he had no such luck. She had a late night too; as he knew when he went to check on her the night before, that she had waited up for him. She definitely would not be able to get up and open the door.

Martha had probably gone out for the day, once she figured that both her son and her granddaughter were probably going to be knocked out until at least lunchtime. If he was lucky, she might order take out for him for dinner.

After a while, the knocking subsided. He assumed that whoever it was, had given up and left, and it made him heave a sigh of relief and turn over to go back to sleep.

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After her dad had come home the night before, or should she say, earlier this morning, Alexis had trouble going to sleep. She knew she would not be able to wake up at her usual early time the next day, which made her relieved to know that it was a Saturday, and she did not have any classes to run to. She was glad that she was on break.

She did, however, have a strange dream in which she was dancing in a night club, and there was this heavy beat of drums that pounded in her ear. She felt like she had been dancing for hours, and her head was spinning, but she couldn't stop herself though, and she just kept moving until she felt like collapsing from exhaustion.

It was then that she woke herself up to splash some water on her face. She thought she was going crazy and hallucinating when she realized that the pounding had not subsided. So, she decided to check the door after getting herself together. By the time she had, the knocking had subsided, and she was too tired to open it, so she decided that she had 'woken herself up' and that was why the pounding stopped.

She rolled over on the bed and decided to let herself sleep for just a few minutes longer. After all, she had to get up and meet her friends soon.

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Kate couldn't believe her bad luck. Was fate that set out to toy with her? First, she gets drunkenly into bed with the wrong guy, and loses the guy she loves. Next, she just happens to run into Alexis and Rick when she was finally on a date after so long. Then, just when she wants to try and make up, Rick starts dating again. After that, she gets sick and Lanie reveals something to Rick to make him come over while she was knocked out. To top it off, when she finally got the courage to go over there and talk to him, no one was at home.

She slid herself onto the floor, leaning her back against the door and buried her head into her knees and muffled her scream of frustration. She checked her watch and silently waited for the ground to open up and swallow her any moment.

She didn't know how long she sat there, but after a while, the door suddenly moved and she fell backwards. She opened her eyes and found herself looking at an upside down Alexis, who was obviously startled to find someone sitting outside their door. She regained her sense after a second, and immediately apologized and pulled her up.

"Kate! I'm so so sorry! I didn't know anyone was still here! I actually heard you knocking but then I thought you left or that I was imagining things so I went back to sleep! I am SO sorry!" The young girl was babbling and pacing the floor and Kate quickly placed her hand on her shoulder to stop her.

"Alexis. It's okay. I found it rather funny, actually." She reassured her, and offered a smile after seeing the young girl's guilt and embarrassment. She didn't notice that the commotion had woken Castle up, and he had come out and now stood behind her.

She only noticed after Alexis excused herself to leave the house, and mumbled something about giving her some 'alone time', that she turned around to see Castle looking at her strangely.

"I want to ask what you are doing here, but I'm afraid I'm not going to want to know the answer." He said quietly. His tone betraying his suspicions of her uncalled appearance.

"Hello Rick."

"It's nice to see you, Beckett." She nearly flinched at his formality. He was distancing himself from her, even though she used his first name. It was obvious that he didn't really want to see or talk to her.

"I uh, wanted to thank you for what you did last night. I would have had to go to bed without food if you didn't come when you did." She tried. It wasn't a great conversation starter, but it was all she could come up with at the time.

"It wasn't a problem. Are you feeling better, detective?" He seemed to relax slightly when he sensed that she wasn't here to grill him about going over uninvited the other night. Kate was glad he did, because it was hard enough to confess her feelings when he was his normal happy self, so encountering him while he was guarded, would be just icing on her cake.

"Yes. Thanks for asking." She replied.

Castle walked over to the living room and motioned for her to take a seat as he went to get some coffee for both of them.

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"Okay Rick, I don't know how I'm ever going to say this, but, I'm going to try. I still have feelings for you and I want to give us another go." She started. Her voice trembled at first, but she regained her composure and pulled herself together.

"What if I say no?" He asked.

"Then, I'll walk right out that door, and you'll never see me again." She got out. This time, she was surprised at how stable her voice was. When on tbe inside, she was silently begging him not to let her go.

Rick didn't respond to that. He put his coffee mug on the table and looked deep in thought for a while, seriously thinking it through. She had put him through a lot of heartbreak and pain, but whether he still had feelings for her, that is another thing. He seemed to have made up his mind, and got up slowly. He walked over to the front door, opened it, and left the house.

Kate felt like her heart had just been ripped open and trampled on. She had just bared her soul and he had just shut the door, literally, on her. This time, she didn't bother trying to stop herself from crying. He had just left her without even saying anything. Did he not care about her anymore?

She couldn't bring herself to keep her promise to walk out of the house just yet. It was too soon for her to move. She would probably end up getting into an accident if she left now, and considering her state of mind, that might not be such a bad idea. Still, she simply remained on the couch, half sobbing, and half wondering if her heart would ever be able to be repaired again. She heavily doubted so.

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Not much more chapters to go:) this could be the second last, or maybe the next chapter is the second last. I don't know. I haven't wrote it yet:) You should know that I am writing this on a Saturday, when I could be catching up on my sleep. Zzz. I'm sleepy :) haha.

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~Lianna