How I miss Sambuca Kelly! Doesn't get mentioned enough.
It's been a year since Sambuca's death.
Denzil-
Sam, it's been a year. 12 months, I can't believe how different my life is without you. When I wake up in the morning, it feels wrong. I can't hear your loud girlish music blaring from your bedroom. I have none to argue with over the cereal, it might sound dumb but I miss arguing with you. I never meant any of the things I said, you were the best sister I could ever had wished for. It feels empty at home and school without you. I shall be standing in front of your gravestone later. Holding a fresh bunch of sunflowers, as they were your favourite... Mum makes out she's doing OK without you, it's just me her and Prince. She misses you so much, she tries not to make it out as she doesn't want to upset me but I can tell when words that reminds her off you are said her face sinks. I wish you could have been stood alongside the football pitch a week ago yelling my name and cheering when I scored the winning goal. I wish you could have seen the look on Budgen's face when we found his money and spent it. I wish you could be here, telling me 'not to do that' or that 'I'll hurt myself' Just like any good sister would. But you can't your no longer here, the day I have children I will sit down with them and spend hours telling them all about you. It'll be a shame that they won't have there aunty. Rest in peace, Sambuca Kelly.
Rose-
Just your silly mum here, writing this down on a crumpled piece of paper. I miss you baby girl, you had so much potential your were a beautiful blossoming girl. How it shouldn't have been you. If only I could hold you in my arms once more, 12 months today. Still cannot believe you did a runner from that restaurant in Blackpool! You're so my daughter I was so proud of you, you got me through the toughest parts of my life. I wish I could have seen you grow up, have your own children watch me wrinkle and become old. My only daughter, I shall never forget you Sam. Never in all my life.
Lauren-
Sambuca Kelly! It's been a year now; I still miss you more than ever. I still remember a few years a go when we first met the talent show. Boy, could we shake our booty! I was wrong when it came to not trusting you with the drugs. You were being a good friend unlike me. School's never the same without you, were loosing at netball big time! Not long till I finish school, I decided to stay on. I said I wanted to be a nurse at the career day and I've stayed true to that I want to help people. I will never forget you Sam. Stay true, will forever be my best friend no matter what happens.
Finn-
Sam, I'm so sorry that I fell in love again. I have a feeling you would be happy for me and Trudi and you are such a kind and caring girl. It's not been the same without you. We all miss you everyday. I miss your laugh and smile and trust me I would happily fall off a bridge for you again. You still are my cinderfella despite whatever happens I do still love you Sam.
Tom-
It's been a year; you caused me so much stress Sambuca Kelly! Everyone misses you. I miss you; you were like a daughter to me. I felt so proud, seeing you, Denzil and Prince growing up. I wish I could have been your real dad.