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Chapter Six

"I love you" he whispered against my lips

I felt at peace with myself and then before my eyes I remembered him with Tasha it was her cell I blocked the rest of the memory. I'd long ago learnt to block the painful memories and even the bond. My head was my own again, yet it was slowly unravelling. I looked into his eyes and they were confused

"Roza?" he asked his voice concerned

I pushed him back as the feeling bubbled up inside me like a storm, he went to hug me but I slapped his hand away

"No Dimitri I can't do this you hurt me, you slept with that whore Tasha before she was put to death, I didn't care what you two said to each other but that crossed the line Belikov, you may as well have put a stake in my heart"

Dimitri couldn't look at me, I knew he'd remembered that night; I'd long ago refused to relive it

"Dimitri, you can waltz in here all you like and say you love me, I can trust you with my life but my heart doesn't belong to you anymore, you lost that right, you brought my world to its knees and this what you see now is what you've created no one else could have turned me into what I am now and in a way I have to thank you"

Dimitri stood with his head hung and his shoulders sagging. His head snapped up and he looked a little angry

"Rose what you've become is a monster. You haven't got the faintest clue as to what you've done to me or any of us for that matter. I know I've messed up big time but I want to at least try to fix things"

I felt the tears slide down my face; I wasn't hurt by his words I was getting angry

"Well great it's always about how you all feel, well guess what I don't care anymore, I'll be honest, you may have cared about how I felt but they never, not once have they thanked me for what I do, I risk my life time and time again, all I get is a dumb tattoo and a pat on the back, I'm not asking for a parade or some grand ceremony but that don't matter anymore, I'm just another dhampire born and raised to protect spoilt little brats that won't use their magic to help in a war that is never going to end, now excuse me if that's turned me cold and bitter"

Dimitri's face was blank I knew this was hitting home but he would not show it not here in public, a few of the royal moroi started whispering to each other

"I am not some Dhampire, I am Rose Mazur Hathaway and so help me god I will bring the strigoi to their knees but it will be done my way"

I was full on crying now I've waited too long to get this all out, I was meant to feel better after I let all this out but in some way I was angry, this fire kept me going and I was not about to let it go. Dimitri was staring off behind me; on his face was a slight hint of fear.

I turned to look at what he was and I saw my father

"How much did you hear? I asked him

"Enough" he growled glaring at Dimitri

My father took a step to Dimitri and punched him. My dad grabbed Dimitri and kept hitting him again and again.

"Nobody breaks my daughter's heart and gets away with it" he growled

My dad punched Dimitri again and this time his nose burst, my father had a wicked grin on his face and it was scary

"Baba enough" I yelled

My father stopped. He threw Dimitri away; he stumbled back but never fell. Dimitri's gaze locked onto mine and he looked sad and defeated. It should have broken my already broken heart but it didn't.

I walked away half dragging my father with me. When I felt he was a good distance from Dimitri I let him go

"There was no need for that dad and you know it" I snapped

My dad just put his arms around me and hugged me close

"Kız I'm sorry but it needed done" my father muttered.

We parted and he walked away laughing to himself.

The was a small noise behind me

"Go away" I hissed I didn't even look to see who it was.

"Rose can we talk?" it was Lissa, and she was upset

Facing her I was right she was upset

"No you can't have a job to do"

I walked away leaving my best friend in tears and I really didn't care

In my room I jumped in the shower the hot water taking some of the stress away. I finally got out the shower and changed into my pyjamas and crawled into bed, the moment my head hit the pillow I was asleep but I wasn't alone.

Dream:

I was sitting on a bench and the sun was shining, Adrian appeared from around a tree

"Hello little dhampire" he purred

I looked down at myself and I was dressed in an outfit I haven't worn in a long time. Dark blue jeans, a red ¾ sleeved t-shirt and a pair of black sneakers

"Adrian what's the meaning of this?"

Adrian looked sad but he came and sat next to me.

"Little Dhampire, your aura is saying you've lost yourself, lost yourself is blood and battle and it's killing me, I just want the old Rose back. This new one is scaring the hell out of everyone in ways the old you could never do. Look you can kick and scream all you like but I know that the old Rose is there just under the surface and she wants out"

"Adrian That Rose is locked away and she's not getting out, now get lost"

Adrian growled clearly not liking my answer the edges of the dream were starting to fade

"You're waking up" he muttered as he too faded

I woke up with someone banging on my door, I threw open the door and there was a very annoyed looking mother standing there

"Guardian Hathaway, there's someone at the gate wanting to see you" she said

"Yeah thanks I'll be right out" I closed the door and put some clothes on, black leather trousers, my black shirt and my black combat boots. As I was heading out the door I grabbed my two handguns and made my way to the gate.

As I was walking to the front gates of court Dimitri was walking alongside me I had no idea he was even near my place. I clicked both safeties off the handguns making it very clear he's not to speak to me. At the gate the guardian on duty was looking very pissed

"Guardian Hathaway we've asked these people to take their helmets off but they refused to do so until they spoke to you"

I nodded to the riders and the one closest to me took the helmet off

"What you doing here?" I asked they shouldn't be here not now it's too soon

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