This is not the dream I dreamed - Rachel faces up to the fact that her Broadway career could be over before it had chance to begin.
Rating - T
Character -Rachel (Also features her fathers, Finn, Will, Shelby, Beth and others)
A/N - Reviews/concrit are loved, and if there's anything you'd like to see happen the let me know and I'll try my best to work it in somehow.I'm from the UK, so if anything American is not quite right, please let me know and I'll fix it.
Only a short update, but it seemed like a good place to end. I've got most of the next part already written, so if you're lucky I might be able to update in the next couple of days.
"How about Ayden and Mackenna for the duet?" Rachel suggested as she sat in Will's office after glee practice, trying to help him come up with a short list of songs for the upcoming regional's contest.
"Really?" Will raised an eyebrow, "I was thinking Tyler and Abbie"
Rachel shook her head, "I think Ayden and Mackenna would sound great together, maybe not a traditional ballad though" she began to rummage through the sheet music spread across Will's desk. "Katy Perry" Rachel exclaimed, pulling out the music for 'if we ever met again' by Timbaland and Katy Perry, "She's perfect for Mackenna". Rachel then pulled 'fascination' by Alphabeat from the array of papers, "and this would be a great group number, it's so upbeat, the audience won't be able to stay in their seats, and for the solo, how about going against the grain, have a boy do the solo, Ryan could do Michael Buble" she once again began to dig though the papers.
"Rach" Will grabbed her wrist to stop her, "we've got plenty of time, we'll speak to the kids next week, see if they've got any ideas too. I want them to have some input"
"Yeah" Rachel smiled letting go of the papers she was holding, "I guess you're right".
"I can't believe how big she's getting" Will gestured to Lyla as she slept in her car seat on the end of his desk.
Rachel smiled, unable to resist talking about her daughter, "She's pretty good at holding her head up now, and she's almost mastered sitting up, but obviously we put cushions around her just incase she looses her balance. And she rolls over too, but she's not managed a full 360 roll, she usually rolls from her back to her stomach and then cries for someone to turn her over. I know that she should be doing a lot more by now, but I have to keep teminding myself that while she's nearly eight months old, she really should only be four and a half, five months old, so in that respect I think she's doing pretty well".
"Yeah" Will agreed, "but you're her momma, what else would you expect?" he joked as Lyla whimpered slightly and shifted in her sleep before settling herself. "My mom once told me that I slept with one eye open until I was about three" he laughed.
Rachel smiled, "She does that too sometimes, I always wondered where she got it from."It was only as Will's face fell that Rachel realised what she'd said, clamping her hands to her mouth she shook her head. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean. . ."
"Rachel" Will said sternly, "please tell me she's not. . .you said. . . oh God Rachel"
"I, erm, we should go" Rachel grabbed Lyla and bag before she did the only thing she could think of, she ran.
"Please, Please just go in" Rachel was crying so hard she couldn't clip Lyla's car seat into the base in the car.
"Rachel?" she broke down at the kindness in the older woman's voice, "Rachel, is everything okay?"
She put Lyla on the seat beside the base and slid to the floor, her body shaking as she sobbed.
"Rachel" Will yelled her name as he left the building. "Rachel wait"
"I need to go" Rachel once again began trying to secure Lyla's seat.
"Rachel, come inside, we can talk about whatever it is that's upsetting you, you can't drive like this."
Rachel nodded "okay" she watched as Emma lifted Lyla's car seat from the car, before taking her keys and locking the car, guiding Rachel past Will and back towards her office.
"What's gotten you so worked up?" Emma asked, "is everything okay with the little one?"
Rachel nodded, "it's not Lyla" she paused for a moment, "it's, it's her father." Emma said nothing, allowing Rachel to tell her in her own time. Rachel shook her head, "it doesn't matter"
"Rachel" Emma spoke softly, "I know you're not a student here anymore, but the rules still apply, unless I think you or someone else is in danger, or you tell me someone has committed a serious criminal act then nothing you say will leave these four walls."
Rachel nodded, "I know." Emma said nothing and Rachel took a deep breath, chewing on her lip for a moment before admitting her daughter's paternity for the first time, "she erm, she's Will's"