A/N: OK, lots of confusion! :) I promise everything will work itself out. Trust me. This chapter is a shorter one and a little different, but it will lead us right where I want us to be. Stick with me, please. Thanks for all the love! It truly means EVERYTHING to me right now. Oh, and Jake and Jacob are NOT the same person. I felt like there were two different Jacobs that Bella had witnessed thru the saga- Jake-the nice, awesome, always there for you, fun guy. and Jacob-the pushy, demanding asshole. So...that's how this idea started. Just stick with me, I promise it will make sense...sorta. ;)
BPOV
I play his words over and over in my head.
"Never, ever."
I'm trying to make myself believe.
But then I picture Jake, and the thought of ever losing Edward like that.
Oh God…
I thought I had been able to let go of it, let go of Jake.
Jacob had masked it for so long and then being with Edward, he made it all disappear.
But today, in the car…
No.
I can't lose Edward like I lost Jake.
I can't…
EPOV
She's starting to scare me, her whole frame is quivering and her breaths are coming out all choppy.
I'm trying my best to soothe her but I can't seem to get through to her.
"Bella, baby. Please, you need to calm down."
I put my forehead to hers, breathing in each breath that she takes as she struggles to relax.
"Breathe with me. Feel me, Bella. I'm here."
I pull back from her and quickly reach into my pocket.
Hesitating for just a moment, I decide she needs it and pull out the little blue pill.
"This will help calm you down, okay baby?" I show her the pill before pushing it in between her lips.
"You promise?" she asks quietly before swallowing roughly at the bitter taste. "What is it?"
"Xanax, it'll calm you down sweetheart. Just breathe for me."
I continue to rub her back, kissing her hair and breathing her in.
She snuggles into me and lets out a shuddering breath, her body sagging heavily into mine as her breaths begin to even out.
Remember the first chapter? ;)
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xoxo Laura