A/N: Sorry, RL seems to get in the way sometimes. Forgive me? Ready for some drama? Not beta'd.

BPOV

We laughed and ran around in the fields all night, chasing each other with fireworks and drinking some more.

Seeing his eyes light up and the smile on his face calmed everything within me that was threatening to boil over before.

I need to tell him about the dreams, explain everything to him, and tell him everything.

But for one night, I let go and immerse myself in just him.

The next morning, I wake up before him and can't help but stare at him.

Thinking about how thankful I am to have found him.

How do you explain to someone that in just a couple of weeks, they have become your entire world?

I hate that I reacted the way I did yesterday, but memories of Jake just came rushing back and I couldn't help it.

But instead of Jake dying, I had envisioned Edward in his place.

And I just can't.

I close my eyes and sigh lightly, becoming anxious again.

I quietly slip out of bed and pad my way to the bathroom, closing the door lightly behind me.

Turning around, I look at myself in the mirror and frown.

My eyes are wide and I can feel my pulse begin to quicken.

Jesus.

I brace my hands against the counter and lean forward, taking a deep breath and letting it out slowly.

What was that pill Edward gave me last night?

I open his medicine cabinet quickly and I'm shocked at how many pills bottles I see.

There are seven large prescription bottles, varying contents in each sitting there on the shelf.

I furrow my brow.

What is he doing with so many?

Does he take all of these?

I sigh and shake my head, my need for that carefree feeling from last night overpowering my thoughts for now.

My hands tremble as I reach up and take one out at a time, reading each label, hoping to remember what it is he gave me.

Vicodin…no.

Oxycontin…no.

Morphine…no.

Flexeril…no.

Adderall…no.

Ambien…no.

Xanax…yes.

I remember Edward telling me it was xanax.

I smile in relief and pop open the top, shaking the bottle until one falls into the palm of my hand.

Placing it on my tongue, I turn on the faucet and drink some water, helping the pill slide easily down my throat.

I sigh and stand back up, looking over at the collection of pills he has.

Definitely going to be asking about that…

I turn around and remove my shirt and panties, turning on the shower and letting it warm up for a moment.

Taking deep breaths, I feel my heart beat begin to even out and relax.

After putting all the pill bottles back into the medicine cabinet, I step into the shower.

The hot water feels amazing on my neck and back, soothing away the tenseness in my muscles.

Standing there letting the water run over me, I hear the bathroom door open and smile to myself.

I turn my head slightly and watch through clear glass as he shuts the door behind him.

He looks at me and he grins.

"Mind if I join you?" he asks, already removing his boxers as he walks towards the shower.

I pull the glass door to the side and smile, moving further under the hot water to make room for him.

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xoxo

Laura

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