Why am I here, why are they doing these things to me?
Now sixteen years old River had been asking herself these questions for the past two years, that was how long she had been at the academy.
At least she thought it was two years by now her mind was so frayed she sometimes didn't realize if it was night or day.
If I had known that the treatments would be so.. horrible I would of never agreed to them River thought sadly.
She was in her room, laying on her bed thinking about this among other things.
When she wasn't being subjected to Dr. Matias's treatments.
River was with her movement trainers.
Although she really couldn't call what they did training.
It was more like torture.
Everyday River was taken to a dark blue room.
It had a large holo screen protected on the far right hand wall.
The trainers were piped into the screen and they would teach River a new set of fighting movements.
Then they would constantly make her perform it.
Over and over again.
Each day it was a new set.
When she missed a step or fell from exhaustion a orderly who was in the room at all times would inject her with a powerful sedative .
Then after a few seconds the orderly would give her a another shot which would wake her up and she would have to do the whole set over again.
It was extremely painful every bone and muscle in her body ached.
Yet by sheer force of will River was able to complete each new set every day.
For the past two years she had been "trained" like this.
It was tearing her mind apart, she sometimes couldn't tell weather or not she was awake.
When she wasn't with the trainers or Dr. Mathias River was confined to her room.
This was were she was her happiest. When she was in her room River constantly wrote her brother Simon letters and thought of him all the time.
Suddenly her door swung open a orderly wearing a sickly green mask that covered his whole bottom of his face appeared.
River could tell all of the orderlies apart simply by reading their minds.
She took a deep breath and opened her mind to his.
Wonder what I can do to this one? da bien, I can't do nothing she's "special" oh well perhaps my next one will be different.
River quickly closed her mind off to the orderly's.
She also sensed that he had acted on these thoughts many times with at least twenty former patients.
He had a wheelchair with him and River kept herself on high alert, making herself ready for anything.
The orderlies eyes emitted a feeling of crazed joy as he said softly "Come Subject Tam it is time for your treatments."
All the students at the Academy were called subject only their last names.
Their identities were stripped away as soon as they walked into the academy.
River slid off of her bed agilely and sat on the wheelchair, then like always so she wouldn't get too excited the orderly injected her with a serum to calm her.
Still she maintained her alertness, for not letting anyone on River had become immune to this serum a month ago, yet played clam so as not to rouse any suspicion.
The treatments that Dr. Mathias and his team did took place in a large stunningly white room.
The only thing in it was a large white chair which was in middle of the vast windowless chamber, it smelled strongly of a combination of disinfectants and blood.
Fear, dread, unimaginable pain, torture.
That is what committed in this room. Torture.
I can still hear the screaming of the ones who have gone before me. River thought terrified.
No matter how many times River entered the room and how many times she felt these emotions it still didn't make them any less shocking to her.
She sat in the chair and was immediately restrained, so used to the restraints she didn't even bother to fight back as she had in the past.
Dr. Mathias and his team then began the long treatments by sticking wires and needles into her brain.
Even through she had had this procedure done hundreds of times before, when each needle and wire was stuck in her brain pain shot through her mind like a thousand bolts of lightening.
Dr. Mathais's voice broke into River's foggy thoughts he said angrily "River perform the task I have given you!"
She cleared her throat and choked out painfully "It hurts...I can't... focus."
Dr. Mathias was annoyed by her refusal he barked "River do as you are told, you know the penalty for failure!"
She tried to do as what was asked of her. River was told to read one of the nurses thoughts but she couldn't her mind was in too much agony.
River replied desperately "The pain is too severe.. I can't!"
Dr. Mathias said angrily " River, you know the consequences for your failure."
River replied urgently "No, please just give me a few seconds to relax I will accomplish the objective!"
Dr. Mathias replied cruelly "That is no longer a option I have given you many chances to complete this task, you will now face the consequences of your inability!"
River started to breathe sharply horrified at what she knew was about to happen.
Dr. Mathias turned to one of the nurses and said coldly "Nurse start the delcuim drip!"
River yelled pleadingly "No, please, don't make me sleep!"
In the next second her world went black.
This was how her days were spent since she had agreed to the treatments proposed by Dr. Mathias.
She couldn't believe her life had become so tormented and filled with such horrors.
Pain that is how my days are spent now in utter pain. Simon where are you? I miss you. Please come find me soon. River thought miserably.
After her session in the white room she was escorted back to her own room by a different masked orderly.
River felt this one's mind and began to read it.
From what I've read of this one's chart she is expectational she will no doubt serve the Alliance well.
She shuddered internally and quickly shut her mind off to the orderly's wanting to hear no more of her thoughts.
River was incredibly drained form the treatments and fell asleep on the ride to her room.
As soon as she laid on her bed she rested for a few minutes.
When River next awoke she closed her eyes and focused on Simon.
She tried her hardest to feel her brother's mind, to see were he was what he was thinking, if he was thinking of her.
After ten minutes of trying she stopped realizing she was still too weak from the treatments.
I still can't feel or hear him. Simon where are you? Please come soon. River thought desperately.
Mandarin Translations
Da Bien- shit