He stares blankly at the computer screen, and wishes he could
He feels guilty about what happened to Blaine. Blaine has never been anything but a decent guy, even when he was drunk. Frankly, Blaine was one of the only guys he could stand to be around. He doesn't whine. He doesn't gossip. He remembers to shower. He can sing. He can dance. He has a quirky sense of humor. He looks really hot in pink sunglasses…
He thinks about calling Blaine to apologize. He gets up the courage and unlocks his phone.
He scrolls through the names, down to Blaine's.
Once, he even gets so far that the phone encourages him to enjoy the ring back tone while his party is being reached.
He hangs up before the phone can actually ring or he can hear if Blaine has changed his tone from the creepy stalker song.
His guilt is genuine. He honestly had never intended to hurt anyone. He, or Andrew, were supposed to drink a salty slushie. A reminder that snark, rather than violence, was a better tatic. Instead, the violence escalated.
Santana Lopez, although maybe she should be called Satan, might have been his equal in the duel. She might have taken a slushie to the face with grace. But, she and the Wheelchair kid has shown him up when they did their Michael number and the Warblers practically ran on stage.
It was lonely, being the only person sitting in the audience with a cool look on his face. His self control and his pride would not let him leap up onto the stage.
His "brothers" have not been kind the past few weeks.
He knew the gossiped about him in the halls before classes and during lunch. He's taken to eating quickly, and spending the rest of his free time in the library or running alone.
It's not bullying exactly. No one has been unkind. But, they don't have to be. He as violated their trust. He's not sure he can ever win a place back in the brotherhood.
He blinks, and focuses back the computer screen. His pump chirps and he silences it. He takes a sip of coke, and turns back to his chemistry problem set. Between balancing equations and the calc and history he has yet to do, it will be a long night.