Okay it is here!! Chapter 5!! R&R!!

Chapter 5--Lies of love

BPOV

I ran. I don't know how far I ran or how long. I just ran. I listened to my heart beat pound in my ears as my mind flashed images of the ending of my happiness in my head. Over and over again.

I ran 'til I could no longer run. I fell to my knees and looked up at where my legs had taken me. Through tear filled eyes I gazed at the Cullen house, or was once so the Cullen house. I mentally kicked myself for bringing myself here because of all the good times I had here and knew I would never have again.

I curled up into a ball on the ground and let it all come back to me. I knew I couldn't hold it all in me any more. I knew it was stupid to try but that didn't stop me. But now I was here: curled up in a ball crying in front of my love's old home.

I don't know how long I was there crying in a little ball but it was dark before I heard Charlie's cruiser come up behind me.

"Bella!" Yelled a voice I knew wasn't Charlie's but I was to out of it to know.

"Bella!" Called another voice which I was almost sure was Charlie's. I heard the slamming of two doors and the sound of foot steps running up to me.

Some one was leaning over me stroking my hair, like Edward used to do to comfort me. I quickly batted the hand away as more tear fell from my eyes.

"Bella, sweetie, let's go home." Charlie whispered as he tried but failed to pick me up.

It took al of my will power to not say 'I am home' as I wished I could. But I knew I couldn't 'cause it wasn't true. It would never be my home as I wished it was.

"I'll get her-she's freezing go warm up the car." I realized this was Jacob as he put his warm arms around me.

"No!" I struggled to get out of Jacob's arms. He had been so kind to me the past week but what he did this morning had torn me apart.

"Let me go!" I growled as I jumped out of Jacob's arm only to fall on the wet ground. I heard Charlie approach us once again.

"Jake what's wrong?" He said as he helped me to my feet.

"She is angry about this morning." Jacob stated sadly, "Bella, I am very sorry for the things I said to you this morning. I shouldn't have teased you about talking in your sleep."

"You think I ran away because you teased me?" I felt the anger boil in me. How could he have been that stupid to think it was because of that?

"Bella let's just go home. Please just get in the car we can talk about this later." Charlie said dragging me to the car.

"Yeah, we'll talk about this later Jake." I said his name like a dirty word, my voice dripping with venom.

We arrived at home a few minutes later. I stormed in the house, still angry at Jacob. I was soon followed by Jacob and Charlie.

"Bella, something's happened down at the station I am going to spend the night there. You'll be fine by yourself right?" I knew nothing happened at the station but I knew Charlie wanted us to work this out so I figured it would be better to have this argument in private.

"Yeah, Dad, I'll be fine." He was out the door and driving away a few moments later.

"I'm really sorry I teased you." Jacob said breaking the silence that had stretched on for a few minutes.

"I am not pissed at you for teasing me Jacob! You can poke fun at me all you want!!" I screamed at him, my voice screeching.

"Then what's the matter?" He said dumb-founded. I had no idea Jacob was so dense. (AN: I have to poke my fun at Jacob some how. Keep reading)

"Jacob! You brought up him!!" I screeched, the tears burning in my eyes. I saw realization cross his face.

"Oh, God. Bella, I am so sorry. I didn't even think about what I was saying. Oh, Bella, please say you'll forgive me. I am really truly very sorry, please forgive me…" He rambled on about forgiveness. I knew I couldn't stay mad at him he had been so kind to me, but I let him continue for about five more minutes not wanting to interrupt. (AN: GROVEL YOU LITTLE MUTT GROVEL!! Lol I had to make him beg! . continue)

"I forgive you Jacob. Just please don't do it again." I whispered as I looked at my feet while we stood there in the kitchen now in silence.

"I promise never to do it again." He said walking over to me enveloping me in a gentle, warm hug.

"I'm sorry, Bells." He apologized again, kissing the top of my head with his warm lips.

"It's okay, Jake. I just really need some sleep now." I said breaking the hug and running up to my room, changing into my pj's before running back down the stairs. I lay on the couch, curled up in a ball in Jacob's lap. I slowly drifted to sleep listening to the sound of his breathing.

Jake and I have been hanging out all the time now. He has been a lot more careful around me now, never mentioning him. I now count on Jacob's company to keep myself from having an emotional break down every two seconds. He is like the glue that holds me together now.

I see him everyday now. I always drive down to La Push after school everyday to see him. I have grown so close to him he is like brother to me. I wouldn't be able to take it if he left me too. I had to keep him with me no matter what I had to do, I wouldn't lose him.

It was a Friday and that meant Charlie would find something to do at the station that would take him all night and most of Saturday so that I would be alone with Jacob for the night. Charlie wanted to see me and Jake's relationship escalate to make-out sessions on the couch and dates every night. Something I was no where near ready for but that didn't stop Charlie from leaving us alone every Friday night until he came home every Saturday evening.

These night usually went the same: 1) I would cook dinner for Jake and I, 2) go take a shower while Jake waits on the couch, 3) Change into my pj's and walk back down the stairs to fall asleep in Jake's lap while he watches the tv or talk until we are both tired and fall asleep. But tonight was different. Very different.

I finished washing the dishes from dinner with Jacob and turned around to see him smiling at me hugely.

"So what do you want to do tonight Jacob?" His smile got larger as he walked over to me. He picked me up and placed me on the counter.

"Bella, I need to tell you something." He said looking deeply into my eyes.

I smiled at him, he usually wasn't so serious. "What is it Jake?"

"Bella. I love you. I love you more than in a friendly way. I am deeply in love with you Bella. Do you...Do you love me Bella?" His eyes were filled with truth and lust. My heart stopped at his words. No., I thought to myself, not in the way he does. But I couldn't bring myself to say the words. To break his heart. I couldn't do it. What if he left me if I told him I didn't love him. I couldn't be alone again. But I didn't love him in that way so I did what I had to keep him here, with me.

"Yes." I said softly avoiding his eyes. It was the only thing in my mind that made sense. If I didn't want to be alone I had to tell him I loved him.

With in seconds of my words his mouth was on mine. His tongue grazed my bottom lip begging for entry. I allowed it parting my lips a small amount, I told him I loved him I couldn't deny him in any way now. He grabbed my legs and wrapped them around what must have been the lower half a his chest because of his size. Once my legs were secure he picked me up off the counter and carried me up the stairs into my bedroom. He pushed me down on my bed and laid on top of me. He continued kissing me and pushing things farther and farther until we were both had no clothes on and were wrapped up in my blankets. Jacob cuddling me to him. It was almost daylight which meant Jacob would have to leave soon and I could let the tears flow and let the emotional hole, that was now more than twice as big as it was when he left me, take over me. (AN: I really hope you didn't think I would let the 'bad thing' go into lots of detail cause that is something I would never ever ever do! People do not just get naked to sleep do they?! I ppl would know what I was trying to imply there!! Keep reading!!)

Jacob awoke from his slumber with a grumble.

"Morning, Bells," He said kissing the top of my head. I held back the tears and turned over and smiled at him.

"Good morning, Jake," I tried to sound as cheery as he had. He kissed my lips quickly before hopping up to put his clothes on. I layed in my bed while he got dressed.

"Hey, Jake, um I think Charlie might be coming home early today and I want to get caught up on cleaning so you don't have to stick around. How about you go work on the rabbit?" I said softly hoping he wouldn't catch my lie, hoping that I would have today to myself, to cry and let my emotions roam free.

"Yeah I really need to work on the rabbit some more anyways. I want to try and almost finish it today so I will go ahead and leave you to your cleaning." He said kissing the top of my head before heading out the door. (AN: Don't ask how he got home cause I don't really care he just got there! lol okie read!!)

Once I heard him slam the front door I let the tears pour. I walked over to my window and opened it as wide as it would go, as I had always did when I wanted Edward to come in my room, thought I knew it would do no good what so ever. I walked back to my bed and I curled up in a tiny ball and wept letting my mind drift to Edward and how this would have never happened with him but it didn't matter I knew I wasn't good enough for him and I knew he would never come back and stop it.

EPOV!!

I could no longer stand it!! I had to go see Bella! I had to check on her make sure she was alright! I had to make sure she was living her life to the fullest. I had to make sure Bella was still Bella...

I didn't bother to tell my family of my plans I was sure Alice had already saw me leave before I had even crawled out of my little worthless ball in the corner of my new room. I hopped out the window and ran as fast as I could. I had to see Bella as soon as possible.

Bella's house looked the same as always, nothing had changed. I hid in the forest next to her house and listened for thoughts of anyone in the house. There was a silence. I figured that Charlie was probably using his Saturday to go fishing and Bella must have been out with her friends. I saw no harm in going up to her window and looking into her room to see if she had changed it any. I climbed the tree in the front yard and saw Bella window was open. I thought about going in when I heard a soft whimpering and the sound of someone sniffling, it sounded as if someone was crying. I wondered, who would be in Bella's room crying? and then I realized Bella would be in her room crying. She was the reason I heard no thoughts, she was alone in her house crying.

I didn't even think about my next move it was pure instinct. I ran through Bella window and took her in my arms as if she was a child and cradled her. I hushed her and told her everything would be alright, as I would have if I never left. After a few moments I realized what I had done. I knew I could just leave now I had to stay and I had no problem with that anymore, I just wanted Bella.

I stared down at Bella as she realized that it was me who was holding here. She gazed up at me with her big brown tear filled eyes and whispered something to me softly though her tear.

"I love you, Edward." She sounded so sad. It almost broke my heart and put it back together at the same time.

AN: So here is the chapter 5!! I brought Edward in cause most people wanted it that way but I made this a really really long chapter so I sort of waited a while I just put all the waiting in one chapter!! lol OK so I will put Bella's POV of Edward's great return at the beginning of the next chapter!! I wanted to write some more but I wanted to leave Edward's response desired! even though everyone knows what it is going to be! But I had to leave something to start back up on!! PLEASE REVIEW!! Tell me what you think of it!! and don't worry I will punish Jacob for his sins later!! lol ok THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE READ AND FAVORITED AND REVIEWED AND PUT ALERTS ON THIS STORY!! JUST TO LET YOU KNOW YOU ROCK!! btw sorry for such a long wait! I got distracted with to most awesome guy ever!! But anyways I am ignoring him right now so I could finish this chapter!! SO LOVE IT!! OKAY THIS IS A BXE STORY GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEADS!!

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