Chapter 18: A Confused Feeling (Mia)

Zayn, I...,"I say but trail off. First he kisses me and then just walks off?"

I shook my head and continue to walk home .

Maybe he's dating someone?"I think. Maybe he just needs time to think about our mad relationship,"

I walk up the front, the familiar steps I used to run up and down and ring the doorbell.

Mia?"Ava screams happily. Oh girlie, How I've missed you,"

I've missed you too,"I tell her.

So how's college life?"Ava asks with a mischievous smile.

Its good. Parties every night, , running naked across campus, skinny-dipping in the dark,"I tell her and she laughs.

I miss them good old times at college,"Ava says wistfully. How's your programme going?"

Its awesome, Ava. I love it so much. I put every inch of effort I have into whatever I do there,"I tell her. It feels so good to be there,"

How's Liv?"she asks. Liv had gotten into Columbia University and we were renting a room together nearby college. Our apartment wasn't nothing fancy but it was big enough and a haven for me and Liv.

So are you dating anyone?"Ava asks.

Not really. A couple of flings here and there, that's about it, I guess,"I tell her with a laugh. Ava rolls her eyes.

I don't really want to get into a relationship just yet, Ava,"I tell her. I guess I like things being about me and just me, you know?"

Yeah I know. Don't get into a relationship unless you're really ready,"she says. Speaking of which did you get me anything?"

Course I did,"I tell her. I get my bag out and unzip it. I pull out the fall Prada clutch Ava had wanted so much with a flourish.

Ta-Dah,"I tell her.

Oh Mia,"Ava gasps. I love you so much,"

No problem,"I tell her. Its to make up for a year worth of birthdays, Christmas and more,"I tell her and let her grab the clutch from me.

We head to bed after a while. But I couldn't really sleep. Not when thoughts of Zayn running through my head. I'll talk to him tommorow,"I tell myself.

(Zayn)

Bye Mum, Dad, Don, Waliyha, Safaa,"I tell them. I was going to take a cab to the Train Station and then fly to London. It was really early and I was actually running late.

Be Safe, Zayn,"Mum says tearfully.

Aw, Mum,"I tell her and hug her again. She grips me tightly.

I love you, Zayn,"She says.

I love you too mum,"I tell her. Dad helps me throw my bags into the cab and he hugs me one more time.

I'm so proud of you, son,"He says proudly. We love you so much,"

I get into the cab and unwind the window and wave.

Love you, guys,"I saw as they become smaller and smaller. Here goes anything,"I think nervously.

(Mia)

What do you mean Zayn left for his tour today, Don?"I ask. She's invited me in and she pours me a cup of green tea.

You mean he never told you he's leaving for his tour today?"Don asks suprised.

No,"I say, frowning. But how could he have not told me something like this?"

I know. I don't get it too,"Don says, frowning as well. Did you guys fight or anything last night?"

I blush deeply and shook my head. Don cocks her head to one side and smiles.

Yeah and that's convincing. Come on tell,"She urges.

He kissed me,"I tell her and she smiles.

And?"She says.

And then he just left like that. He said he had to think and he just walked away like that,"I tell her.

He didn't,"Don says shocked.

He did,"I tell her. So when will he come back?"

I dunno. Around four or five months, near summer break, after their U.K tour and then back again for another tour at the States,"

That long?"I ask wearily. She nods.

Well I gotta go Don,"I say and stand up. Thanks for the tea."

No problem Mia,"she says.

Here I got you a little something from New York,"I tell her and hand her the box with a necklace in it. I had gotten everyone a little something and I got one for Don as well.

Thanks Mia, its gorgeous,"she says holding up the necklace.

Its no problem really,"I tell her. I head home and then try to call Zayn.

Vas Happenin? I'm sorry I can't take your call but leave a message I'll call back," Zayn's voice rings through the phone. I smile and decide to call him later. The whole week was okay, I mostly stayed at home, slept, went out with Ava and tried to contact Zayn. I emailed him, Called him and tweeted him and everything else but he never and I mean never replied back.

And of course I felt hurt that he wasn't talking to me or replying me back. It felt like I had wasted time and money coming back here for week when I just came back for Zayn. I left a week later for New York and went I went back there were posters and newspaper ads for One Directions concert in Chicago. I kept emaiing Zayn and the rest of the boys but none of them replied. For a while I honestly felt like Bella Swan from Twilight when that stupid Edward had left her and ignored her emails and calls and more.

But it was stupid and I had a busy schedule and wasn't going to let this break my focus so I stopped trying to contact Zayn in all ways.

If he was going to ignore me for something I didn't do then I would too," I say angrily to myself.