Heart of Darkness

A/N: Hello again. I'm sorry I wanted to get this out sooner but I things happen and I have no real excuse to provide except that I'm a horrible person blah, blah, blah. Anywho it may be too early for Vanitas POV chapter but it felt right and it's only part one of his little POV so you may be hearing from him again next chapter or you may not be. I made Vanitas a somewhat angry teenager typre character because when I look at his life I feel like wow I would be cussing all the time not that I don't already do that in my head all the time in my head. I imagined he would be the type to want control but never to actually have it so I feel as though out of all the characters he's the most like an actual teenager.

Warning: Sexy BL scenes, tons of cursing, an old crusty pedophile, and angst in this chapter.

So PLEASE COMMMENT AND ENJOY! Oh and don't be afraid to tell me what wrong I NEED TO KNOW WHAT'S WRONG or it will keep me up at night wondering what is off. I know the divider is a bit awkward and it mostly because I did not want to go through that scene again because then it's just a rewrite of chapter 1 and that's boring so I did my best to make scenes already explored through Terra seem new through Vanitas.

I was origionally was going to do another Terra POV chapter but then I started to think about Vanitas and it just took off like a cannon. I enjoyed writing this chapter so I hope you enjoy reading it! ^.^

Chapter 3: From the Shadows Part 1

Towns, whenever I find myself in one I notice all the people with their cheerful smiles, interacting with one another, laughing together, and walking passed me without even bothering to look at me. The sun is up and the sky is blue and I hate it all, how about you?

I don't like people in general, I don't like the sun, and hate the sky, so you're probably wondering why I bothered to even to go into a town with all three of these dreadful things in the first place. Well it's my day off of… whatever the hell I usually do, standing, following my master, raping people, making unversed, boring shit. Anyway, today was my day off so I thought why not see what the other half of my heart is doing.

Ventus, the light, me Vanitas, the dark, and we were once one and the same but now I have my own body all to myself. I absolutely hate him, why, because he's the reason I'm stuck following an old pedophile's orders, my emotions turn into monsters, I have no life of my own, oh, and my life completely sucks. Everyone just loooooves Ventus, he's such a good little boy he'd rather die than give into the darkness. Fuck Ventus I'm better than him, at least I... at least I have power and that's all I need…

His light sickens me, it should I mean I'm pure darkness, but holy shit he takes being a pussy to whole new level. How was it he, a complete and utter weakling, was able to suppress me for so long I will never know. He has a family, friends, a home, and me I have Xehanort, a rapist old pedophile by the way, and a bunch of emotions that can attack people. Sure it's awesome but it gets annoying, whenever I don't play it cool one accidently appears out of nowhere just when I don't want one to.

His life is just hunky dory and mine's in the shitters. It's not fair, just because he's the light and I'm the dark that automatically makes me the bad guy. Sure I'm not nice to most people or to anyone actually, but at the very least I want to find, happiness I guess. Isn't that what everyone wants, happiness?

Even though we're apart I can still tell where he is, what he's doing, what he's thinking, and on occasion what he's feeling. When he's with his friend I sense that Ventus changes, it's like a light turns on in his heart, and when I get just the side effects I can tell his life is just fucking amazing.

It's because of that feeling that I'm here now. I want to take it from him. I want to meet this friend of his and experience "happiness" for myself. That is if I can feel happiness, not so sure I can, but it doesn't hurt to try this shit out.

It didn't take me long to find my other half, I have a fucking homing signal on him for fuck's sake. Hell I'd be surprised if I couldn't find him bound, gagged, and blinded at an anime convention. I've been to one there are a lot of scary people just everywhere. Anyway, the point is I found the dumb blonde, he was just sitting at some café, smiling like the moron that he is. I took a seat at the Italian restaurant across the street so that I wouldn't look like a brainless whore just standing there in the street waiting to get laid.

I settled down and tuned into his thoughts, closing my eyes for better concentration. It's was much easier at this close a range but I was also at the risk of letting him be aware of my presence, it's a two way street you know, but thankfully the dumbass was too weak to pick up my signal. After a few seconds his thoughts came in loud and clear.

'Today has been so much fun! I rarely get to leave the castle so it's nice when Master let's me out for a while. I wonder what we should get for his birthday. I saw a nice pair of shoes, I think he needs new shoes, but Aqua said that wasn't such a great idea.'

So their Master is having a birthday? Maybe I should get him a gag gift and say it's from Ventus and the little runt will get punished for it. That would be hilarious.

'Oh, he's back with my orange soda. I love orange things, orange soda, Terra's aura, cheese…'

What the fuck? Cheese, why does he always think about the god damn cheese! Wait Terra? Master told me about him. He's strong and has good intentions but he has darkness inside him. That Eraqus views him as a son and that has caused him to fear for his future. The old coot doesn't realize it's probably his overprotective bearings that created that darkness in the first place, which is now fueled by a desire for power. Well that's all Master told me.

I opened my eyes and looked at the other people at the pussy's table. There was a girl with blue hair, blue eyes, and a nice rack, boring. Then there was a taller boy with long dark hair but all I could see was his back. He had nicely toned muscles and that café chair gave me a nice view of his ass, and what a sexy ass it was.

He turned his head to look at Ventus and then I saw it, his perfect deep blue eyes, that nice strong chin, and his smile was just delicious with those luscious lips and adorable dimples. They made me just want to tear off his clothes, lock him in my basement and throw away the key!

"Sir, what would like to order?" a deep voice asked from behind me.

I snapped out of my erotic fantasy and turned to look at the bald man wearing sunglasses and a suit. He was like the young and not creepy version of my master, ick. "I don't eat," I hissed for him to go away. It was true, I don't eat. I'm practically a heart with legs, eyes, a nose, and a mouth.

"Sir if you're not going to order anything I'm going to have to ask you to leave," he said unfazed by my obvious hatred. Smug bastard, he thinks just because he has a beard, a tiny vigina shaped beard might I add, he thinks he can boss me around. Whatever, I didn't come there to make a scene like a bitch on PMS.

I sighed and ripped the menu from where it lied in front of me. I quickly scanned it while mumbling about horrible service before throwing the pointless piece of shit at him, which he caught, and growling, "Bring me the three cheese ravioli you ugly bald fuck!"

"Very well," he calmly walked away and I returned my gaze to across the street. He was probably going to spit in my food I really didn't give a shit because I wasn't going to eat it anyway.

I closed my eyes and tuned into Ventus's thoughts again only this time I could hear what he heard and see what he saw. That was new, I could never do that before, I always liked TV better than radio, but hot damn my powers get better every damn day. My life still sucks though don't get me wrong.

"Cheese is amazing. Don't you agree Terra?" there he was again with the damn cheese.

"I'm sure Terra will agree with me, he's a nice guy, that's why I like him. I wonder if he'll notice if I do this…"

He leaned over placing his hands on the thigh of the handsome piece of sexy eye candy, who I now knew to be Terra. The taller boy clenched his teeth at me, I mean Ventus, and it was all that it took for me to see it. He is fucking in love with Ven! Damn it what's so great about VENTUS? He's a fucking cowardly whore! Why does he always get the good stuff and I'm stuck with shit!

Then I heard that gentle, manly, sexy voice coming from Terra's mouth and I couldn't help but feel the hate suddenly drip away, "Yeah, cheese is very amazing. I could eat it all day every day."

'Ven's lips are amazing. I could eat him all day every day. If only he were mine. It's so hard to resist the temptation so why don't I just take him? But I can't he doesn't belong to me…'

I heard the darkness in Terra's heart fighting to be set free. It wants to be free like I did and it wants something it can't have like I did… no like I do, I'm still not free and I can't have what I want. I felt my chest ache and I opened my eyes. For some reason I was crying, that wasn't right, I thought it wasn't possible for me to cry. Yet my heart ached for Terra, it sympathized with his, it wanted to help his, it wanted to have his heart, his darkness. I wanted Terra.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

"Would you like anything to drink?" the waiter was back but I ignored him. "Wait are you crying?"

I wanted Terra and so did Ventus from the thoughts and emotions I've gathered the past few months. Then Terra wanted Ventus, I could use that to my advantage. That blonde little goody two shoes gets everything but not this time, he took everything away from me and now I'll take everything away from him. I'll have Terra bent over like a bitch begging for me and only me and then maybe I can be happy and Venny boy will be the one with a terrible life.

My lips curled into a smile and I began to shake as laughter crept from my chest. The very thought of it all, of getting my revenge, of having Terra, of having something my light didn't, it made me happy. God damn it felt good too.

I'm sure the waiter got creeped out and left because when I looked up again he was gone, but my ravioli had arrived. I quickly devoured the meal for the hell of it and glanced back across the street just as the threesome was just getting ready to leave. To my pleasure Ventus and the blue haired girl were off in a different direction than Terra. Perfect, I should take this chance to test him, it's not like I get breaks that often, and I just couldn't wait to see him up close and personal. Damn the thoughts that ran through my mind would make most men cry and many girls squeal.

As he walked through the crowd I rose from my chair and followed him at a distance of at least a good fifteen to twenty feet back. He entered the very first store to his left that wasn't a restaurant or café, and holy shit there were a lot of them. Why do they even put them all in the same place? It would be better to spread them out. Anyway, I leaned against the wall opposite to the shop and watched as his eyes lit up at the sight of an old sword. There's nothing all that great about old things, they don't work right, they don't look all that nice, and they smell bad like cheese which is just old moldy milk.

It was in pretty good condition for a piece of shit from what I could tell. It seemed to make Terra happy but it was probably for that old fuck he apprentices under. I remember Xehanort once told me he raped the homophobe and now he's a paranoid freak that thinks every shadow is after some ass or anything after some ass is evil. Dumbass, everyone knows the best sex is done with the lights on.

Terra started talking to the owner of the shop, who just so happened to be a duck with clothes and it looked like he was talking too. It was pretty fucking weird but damn I've seen stranger, like Yen Sid's apprentice is like a giant rat high on helium that wears gloves, and according to master he's a king too which is pretty fucked up if you ask me. I could roast the talking food over a fire and then I could be king, but that's not gonna happen knowing my luck and how shitty it is.

Now the hottie was leaving the smelly shop with a proud grin on his face. Damn was he sexy. He looked around before sprinting down the street. Shit, I was going to lose him if I didn't think fast, but then the idea struck me. He's looking for blonde right? So I'll give him blonde, it's a trick I just learned recently and I've been meaning to slip away and try it out anyway.

I slipped into the nearest alley and willed my very being to change. Within mere seconds I looked exactly like Ventus not that much needed to be changed, our faces aren't that different and the hair styles weren't exactly the same, but we were practically identical too start with. Then there was my eye and hair color, those changed, but by far the hardest part was the clothes. The midget wore too many damn layers and it was so fucking difficult to remember them all. Once my transformation was complete I took a quick glance in a shop window and saw a perfect copy of Ventus. I didn't forget the voice or expression either, so I made a few poses and said a few verses.

When I was satisfied I quickly used a dark corridor to catch up to Terra. He actually made it rather far, but now it looked like he was out of breath and he was looking around, searching the crowds. I stealthily slipped through the crowd behind him and just as I reached him he turned and ran smack right into me.

"Ven?"

I nodded and did my best to copy my light's humorous smile, "That is my name, Terra." Oh boy did his name feel sexy rolling off my tongue. It took a lot of effort to not lick my lips in anticipation. TER-RA holy shit it's like a fucking orgasm. Instead of saying god when fucking people should say Terra because damn is it's sexy.

"Ven, where'd Aqua go? I've been looking everywhere for you two. I found the perfect gift for his Elderness."

I giggled, his Elderness, I should try that with my old fart. I decided I should get him somewhere alone. "Terra, you're funny. Here let me take you to where I left her, she's probably wondering where I went." What'd he say her name was? Aqua? Maybe I can mess with her later…

I laced my finger through his larger tanned digits and I could feel his finger muscles were just as toned as his arm muscles. I pulled him through the crowd and spotted a family restroom inside one of the cafés. Perfect, I could do all kinds of tests on him in there.

"Where's Aqua?" he asked after we were halfway through the café. He's pretty damn slow but none the less adorable.

I simply squeezed his hand and towed him to my target. Once I reached that restroom I swung open the door and forced him deep inside the room so he couldn't make a quick dash for the door. He caught himself on the sink, which was good I didn't want him dead or anything.

"Ven what are you-" I locked the door and gave a real grin for the first time since I took Ventus's form. He looked a bit frightened, how cute, I always liked topping anyway. His shaking seemed uncharacteristic of such a manly piece of meat but I guess he just didn't expect to see his sweet little Ven suddenly turn into a predator, if I was lucky he would be put off the blond and be more available to me.

"Ven?" I made my way towards the taller boy his voice was much sexier in person even if he was shaking in his boots.

As I moved closer he slid across the wall farther away until I cornered him against it. I took the nicely shaped face into my hands and stood on my toes. I examined his lean lips which begged me to seize them, so I did, and damn was he delicious. I eagerly attacked his mouth as he tried to pull away and escape my on slot but I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck and pulled the hunk down to my height, closer to me. Now that I was no longer putting all my weight on my poor little toes I boldly parted his lips and with ease slid my tongue into his mouth. He was so juicy and all I could think about was devouring him.

The darkness in him sung out of pleasure along with my own and made everything all the more erotic. He gave into it as well as he pulled me to him and held my head closer. I could sense his desire that had been forcefully caged for so long pouring out of him with every action. To put it simply he was horny, and so was I.

'Oh Ven, I've wanted you for so long. I wanted to taste those lips, I wanted to hold you close, I wanted to make you mine, but most of all I wanted to be inside you and soon I will be. I'm never going to let go of you because you belong to me because only I can protect you, love you, and cherish you for all you're worth. I've fantasized of this and of more but never could the fantasy compare to the real thing. I want to save you and I want you to belong only to me.'

Wow Terra, you're heart is so… adorable, it's loving yet controlling, I love it.

I traced his sinfully sexy muscular chest before I reached for his manhood. He yelped and pushed me away, grabbing me by the shoulders, his cheeks blushed furiously. He looked suspiciously at me with heavy breathing, "What do you think you're doing?"

I couldn't help but lick the saliva from my lips, he tasted so good. I kept up my acting, "What's wrong Terra? I thought you wanted this. I thought you wanted me."

"You're not Ven," he said raking me with a suspicious gaze.

I quickly used an expression my counterpart would use when he wasn't getting his way. I didn't want the game to end just yet so I also used my will to strengthen his darkness just a tad bit. I barely brushed my fingers against his cheek and used a voice I so very much loathed, "I want you Terra. I want your heart to belong only to me. I am Ventus." I don't know why I said the last part, maybe it was to remind myself I wasn't me at the moment but him.

His hostility faded and he loosened up, but I could still sense his doubt. I carefully broke the small amount of distance between us and kissed him slowly, and not lustfully, as I would imagine the dumb blond would do it. It was so hard to slow down, I was so used to speeding through it all and being aggressive since such actions enticed the darkness to grow in people which was usually the goal. However this time I simply wanted to see how I could play with him.

He weaved his arms across my back and drawing me closer to him as he ran his hands across my back. Damn was he sexy, those abs rubbing up against me made me so hot for him making it very difficult to control myself. He initiated making out this time and I could tell he was hungry from the way his tongue raced through my mouth causing saliva to spill from the sides. We caught each others eyes as I ran my finger through his surprisingly soft hair, for some reason I was half expecting it to be drenched in hair spray or hair gel not that my hair doesn't defy gravity most of the time or anything.

I broke away from his lips just so I could says his name erotically, making his heart skip, and then it was back to drinking one another's saliva. Terra cupped my butt and I had to think quickly to react like Ventus. "Terra!" I gasped with the embarrassed look and everything, I wish I could see myself, it'd be so fucking hilarious. Anyway we began grinding and Terra licked off the saliva from the side of my mouth, not that adding saliva to clean saliva was much help but it was more of sexual gesture than anything else. His tongue went from my jaw all the way to my ear where he began to nibble like a freaking expert, I gasped as a tingling sensation radiated from the spot and travelled to my cock. I gripped his head to encourage his assault with his mouth. Terra kissed my neck every few centimeters and pulled at my shirt to reach more unexplored flesh. I love that word, flesh, it's so kinky.

After he finished with my neck he suddenly pulled away and grabbed my shoulder, reversing our spots so that I was against the wall. It was just adorable how he thought he was on top and in control, even after he pinned my arms above my head I was still in control. The thought that he wanted me made me somewhat warm and fuzzy inside, it was similar to being horny only it gathered in my chest and not in my dick, which was a strange sensation.

After I pulled out of lala land I noticed Terra was giving me that damned suspicious look again and I glanced into the mirror and saw my eyes were yellow which I quickly changed back to blue. I played dumb, not that I wasn't doing that before since Ventus is such a wimpy moron, and asked him innocently, "Is something wrong Terra?" I squirmed as my body struggled to not rape his mighty fine ass and I manipulated his darkness again just to be sure. Before I knew it we were back to making out and he was stripping me like there was no tomorrow, I was surprised at the speed of which he got me down to a bare chest with all the crap Ven wears. He massaged my nipples with his tongue and I couldn't help but let a few groans escape, he was just so damn sexy and very skillful for a virgin. As he ran his tongue over my stomach I decided to start stripping him, he wouldn't remain a virgin much longer if I had anything to say about it. He paused and looked at me with doubt again, god damn it I wanted to rape him so badly it was killing me.

"Is something wrong? You keep hesitating, and it's driving me crazy." I grinned still somewhat high off of being horny and fuzzy. He stood and took a few steps back.

He looked at me with rage I was almost intimidated, almost. "Who are you?" he demanded.

The charade was over, damn, and I really wanted to hear him scream, so I pouted. "I'm Ventus," you know the dumb blond you love so much that it took you like ten minutes of making out to realize I wasn't him, that guy.

"You're lying!" he yelled like a beast, it actually made me jump I wasn't expecting hunky to be so mean.

I decided it was time to take my form somewhat I just changed my eye and hair color back to normal. I proudly introduced myself, "I'm Vanitas."

"Why do you look like Ven?" he asked. That was his first, well second, question? Why not ask why did you just try to fuck me in a family bathroom or why did you trick me into making out with you or just a simple why are you doing this, those where what normal questions people would ask first, second, whatever.

"I may look like that weakling but I'm better than him in everyway. Why don't you give up on him? I am all you need and more." I took a step closer he was so much fun to mess with.

"Chya right, what makes you think I'd actually agree to that?"

A reasonable point, one I was expecting, so I gave my own point. "We were making out only two minutes ago. You can't deny that you liked it that you wanted to go all the way. Besides, I understand you Terra."

"I-" he hesitated, I knew what he was thinking, that I had tricked him into thinking I was Ventus, but in all truth though I hate to admit it I am him. "You don't understand me. How can a trickster like you possibly understand love?"

Ouch, not that it mattered I wasn't talking about love anyway, love and hate are simply words most people use to describe strong emotions, which I have all the time I mean come on they turn into monsters, and I… what I was talking about was something else entirely. I was talking about… understanding and lust I think, maybe not too sure, I've never been good at figuring these sorts of things out. I giggled, "I understand because the darkness in your heart calls out to me. It's hard to resist since its screams are so loud. In the end I guess you can say I desire to tame those screams so that they belong to me. The darkness in your heart makes such beautiful sounds that I can't resist the temptation." I think that's how I should put it at least.

I could feel the anger and hatred seeping from the darkness in his heart, he wanted me dead, but why I didn't hurt him or anything. He clenched his fists and I got ready to run away I didn't want him to punch me or anything, it could cause unversed to pop up just when I don't need them again. "Shut up you fake! I can't believe I was so easily fooled. You don't know anything about me so don't even try that bullshit on me! I love Ventus. Every part of my heart belongs to him. If I ever see you again I'll kill you!" I felt cold as he literally growled at me before storming off. I was somewhat speechless, no one not even master had ever shown me so much aggression. I knew he genuinely hated me, most people did, but this time it hurt as I heard his heart loud and clear.

'I swear to rip you limb from limb as you scream for mercy if you ever hurt Ventus or me. I can't believe he tricked me and played me for a fool. I HATE YOU VANITAS!'

There was heavy breathing filling my ears and it took me a while to realize it was me. Why was I reacting like this? I'd had many men and women run out on me before saying they hated me and he was just like the rest of them, but somehow I felt different this time. Foreign tears crept down my cheeks and I quickly wiped them away out of frustration. None of this made sense to me, I don't cry especially over such trivial things as rejection, Ventus would, I know he would, but I'm not supposed to. An unversed appeared, it was one of the flood, the basic types, very cute, and it was quick to come to my side. It was kind of pathetic that my own emotions are the only things willing to stand beside me. It climbed onto my shoulder and licked my face like a cat though I'm not sure what creature it would truly most resemble probably a fox or a rabbit because of those stupidly huge antenna like ears. Not that it mattered but somehow I found it amusing and I began to laugh at how useless it was to understand myself. I was one of a kind, I have never met anyone with just half a heart of darkness before so it's not like I could look it up, hey here's a book about emotions that turn into monsters just what I need.

Fuck it, I returned the unversed to my heart and used the darkness to locate Ventus and Terra who were now together with that blue girl, her name was something like Mist or whatever. They were laughing and having a good time, it made me sick. So I decided my fun wasn't over, I came here to mess with Ven so I would. I took the dark corridor to an alley near there location and returned to my Ventus form. I listened in on his thoughts.

"Aqua said she liked Terra earlier but she also said Terra didn't like her back. I don't know they do get along rather well and he's known her longer than me. I know he likes me but maybe it's like Aqua said just now, we're like brothers. I like what we have now but I want to be with Terra as more than that. If I ask him maybe he'll feel the same way."

I waited and watched patiently for my opportunity and then I called to him, "Ven."

The blonde turned his head and looked straight at me with a confused expression. Then I sent him another message, "Do you honestly think you have a chance with him. Your master will never allow it, he detests you already, and if you were ever to soil his precious Terra he would probably kill you. You can only ever be the little brother."

"You're lying," he thought back.

"Oh, if you think so then why don't you ask him yourself, unless you're too scared? You don't have to ask him directly just see how he answers," I smiled and then disappeared before his eyes onto the roof of a nearby building where I could watch everything. "And before I forget if you want to talk to me afterward just say you have to go to the bathroom or something stupid like that."

He continued to stare at where I was before Terra noticed him and snapped him into reality. I knew it would take a while for him to get his answers so I laid back on the tiles, closed my eyes, and did what I knew best, waited.

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"Hello?" I was interrupted mid-thought by a particularly annoying voice, or should I say thought, does it matter, it was that damn Ventus. He was calling out to me through our link whether he knew it or not.

"So you asked?" I replied still on the roof the sun was lower in the sky now, good riddance.

"Well I asked him if he loved someone and he said yes." He told me, I could have told him that.

"Is that all?"

"I asked him how much he loved them… He said he loved them a lot. So I asked him if he thought the person I love would feel the same and he replied he was sure they couldn't choose anyone else. I don't think he thought about possibility of me liking him, he is pretty dense." I'll be damned the blond isn't as stupid as I thought, even he noticed it.

"I agree with you there. Anything else?" I asked.

"I don't think he's gay. You were right I don't have a chance." He sounded sad, which was good. Terra is as straight as my Master who's pretty damn gay. I mean he raped that Eraqus back when they were kids. Damn that story always made me laugh, it was fucking hilarious.

"And there you have it, but just because you're giving up doesn't mean I am," I slipped in there.

"Wait what?"

"Silly light, you can't win when you're going up against yourself. Darkness always wins. I'll take Terra away from you and you can't do a thing about it as long as you have that homophobe old fart watching your every step. He knows what you are even if you don't and Terra may not be gay but I've already gotten him hot and hard for me. You don't stand a chance against me Ventus," I could sense him go cold.

"What do you mean?" he asked but I didn't reply. I began to search for Terra and it wasn't long before his darkness led me straight to him.

I found myself on a new roof watching him and water girl in the garden, it wasn't long before Ventus had rejoined them. A grin popped up on my lips, I couldn't help it. I knew my words shook him up. With what I said playing in the back of his head he will probably avoid Terra and not make anymore moves on him. I love screwing with people, literally and figuratively.

I flattened to a shadow in the ground and slipped down behind a row of flowers. I listened in with a smile on my face lying low so that they wouldn't see me. "I'm fine," I heard my counterpart reply while pushing at Terra's arms. Good, he was trying to stay away so that he wouldn't get hurt which is what I wanted.

The blue girl handed Terra the box which I assumed had to be the sword since that was all it could be and say, "Here tough guy, it's your turn since you really want to carry something so badly."

Terra groaned but took it anyway.

'Bitch,' I heard his heart mutter.

"So Ven, feeling any better?" The girl asked. She really did have a nice set of tits, maybe I'll go threw with messing with her if I remember her name anytime soon.

"I'm fine Aqua, there was nothing wrong to begin with." Ven gave me her name unintentionally. Ok Aqua, water, why did I have problems with remembering that? I always had problems with remember the names of the girls I slept with too. "Oh, wow, they're beautiful!" I heard the idiot exclaim and run toward the fucking flowers. Did I forget to mention they were in the gardens? Oops sorry, slipped my mind.

The flowers were nice now that I noticed them just above my shadow spot. The orange ones really caught my eye and I slid closer to them to get a whiff. The first thing that came to mind was Terra, the scent was powerful, intoxicating, and earthy. Where I live there are zero plants so these flowers were nice, but the orange ones just made my brain explode. Why did they make me think of Terra? He's just the guy I want to fuck and steal from blonde and blend hearts with… Did I just think that? I think being around Ventus had made his cheesy lovey dovey thoughts rub off on me and damn if you could hear them then you would know what I'm talking about.

I spotted Ventus running back to Terra with a handful of blue flowers with a huge smile. That wasn't the expression of hopelessness and unfulfilled love I wanted to see. "Hey Terra!" No, no, no stop!

"I don't think you're allowed to pick the flowers Ven." Listen to, fuck I forgot her name again, and put those god damn flowers down!

I thought he could hear my silent screams because he just smiled and held out the flowers as if to mock me. "These are for you for earlier. Thank you."

Terra blushed, but it wasn't like before when we were making out and I don't know why but I wanted him to smile and blush like that for me and not him. Fuck you Ventus! Fuck you and that damn smile! Fuck you and the rest of the fucking world! FUCK YOU TERRA FOR LOVING HIM!

The taller boy took the bundle, and sniffed it, "They smell nice thank you." They began to leave the garden together.

'They smell like you Ven. I love this scent, I love you." Stop fucking thinking that! STOP! STOP! STOP!

He looked back as if he heard me but then continued walking away. I pulled out of the shadows and wasn't surprised to see the tears falling this time. My whole being was shaking with hatred, anger, and sadness. I felt betrayed for some reason, Terra wasn't mine, not yet, but maybe I was beginning to doubt I could win, that I could ever win again Ventus. Once again the light triumphs over the darkness and everyone is happy except for me…

I began tearing out the floors by their roots from the flower beds I hated them just like everything else because that's all I'm good for. Unversed began to pop up and they started their rampage as well, destroying things. I was about to rip out some more when I heard that scratchy voice I knew all too well.

"Vanitas, control yourself!" he commanded.

I turned glaring, fists clenched, breaths heavy, tears still flowing, but I willed the Unversed to stand still but I didn't have enough control to put them away yet. I didn't want to see Xehanort of all people right then and there. He was old and his golden eyes were bright, it was only then that I noticed that the sun had set a while ago and that it was nighttime.

He looked at me with those piercing eyes, I could never read him, he was the only person more skilled at controlling the darkness than me that I knew, and unfortunately that included controlling me. "Now Van you know I always support strengthening your darkness in your spare time but the time for the Unversed to wreak havoc has yet to arrive. What made you like this boy?"

I could feel him pull me into a state of calm and the Unversed dematerialized as well as the darkness I was unaware of that had gathered around me. I took a deep breath, should I tell the old geezer the truth or have him extract the information by force? I always found it better to tell the truth. "I was spying on Ventus."

"Oh, I thought you might. Has he gotten any stronger?" he asked changing the subject to my delight.

"He is still as weak as ever," I couldn't help but smile, I was always stronger. Yet then I frowned, if I was stronger why was it his life was so much better than my piss poor one?

"That will change soon, very soon, and then the χ-blade will be all mine," he chuckled, he didn't even fucking care I was standing there, I was only a piece of a weapon to him, a tool. I hated him and he knew that, hell I think he even took pleasure from it. He knew my hatred would make me stronger, the Unversed stronger and in turn easier for him to control. It's a fucked up cycle but there was nothing I could do to change it. If you think my life is better than Ven's at this point you must be a heartless asshole or you must live under a fucking rock.

"Vanitas," he pulled me out of my train of thought as he grabbed my chin and forced me to look him straight in the eyes. I always hated those eyes because they were the one's the ruled my life, watched my every move, chained me to him, and worst of all I had the exact same goddamn eyes. His voice was rough like sandpaper, a sign of his old age, as he grinned at me, violating me with his gaze, "And what do you think of Terra?"

I flinched, my eyes bulged, and my heart began to race. If he knew about the way I felt about Terra, not that I really know how I feel about him myself, he would destroy any chances I could have at… happiness? Love? Whatever it was I was looking for in that guy and that was that last thing I wanted. "What do you mean master?"

He let go of my face, folded one arm behind his back and began to gesture with the other like it was a fucking musical, something he always did, "Well, I'm sure you noticed it. He has darkness deep inside him as I told you before."

Yeah I noticed, "What about it? Many people do." I didn't know where he was going with this shit. If he wasn't talking about the undoubtedly uncontrollable Unversed summoning feelings I had for the sexy piece of ass I didn't really care what this old fuck had to say.

He chuckled like a wheezy cough, "I'm sure you've noticed I'm growing old." Yeah, I would have to be fucking blind and deaf not to notice, but I still didn't see what that had to do with Terra. Seeing that I didn't understand Xehanort continued pacing and talking, "When the time comes for you and Ventus to become one I will take on a new body. This body will require a heart filled with darkness and power…" Oh no, I knew where this was going now. He was going to make Terra his vessel, bastard, I should have guessed it as soon as he mentioned the darkness. Shit! Fuck! "And Terra has the potential to fit those very requirements."

"You can't do that you mother fucker!" before I realized my mouth was even moving I shouted, but as soon as I was done I bit my lip to stop myself from saying anything that would end in an unpleasant night. Shit, I already said too much!

He turned to me still as smug as ever and came up close before calmly whispering, "And why is that Vanitas?"

I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't think of a single fucking excuse, damn my emotions, always there to ruin everything. "I-I… Terra doesn't have enough darkness to uh do that and-"

"That's bullshit and you fucking know it boy, that's not even a good excuse. Now tell me the truth before I mind rape you," oh hell no not that ever again!

"Uh, um… I actually don't know," which was true, but I wasn't sure that crusty old faggot would buy it.

Xehanort smiled and caused ice to crawl down my spine, it was so fucking creepy. He raised his gloved hand to my face and began to stroke my cheek like the pedophile he was. I couldn't read his thoughts but I'm sure they were along the lines of reminiscing of the times he had violated so many others like me, including me though it disgusts me to admit it. He only ever did it as punishment and it quickly changed the way I behaved around him. Follow orders or be scarred for life, I fucking hate it I really do, but I choose to follow orders.

After a few moments he moved his thumb from my cheek to my lips, sliding it over them a few times before stopping at the center and dragging the bottom lip down a bit, then returning his thumb to my cheek. "You've been naughty haven't you Vanitas." It wasn't a question so much as a statement so it wasn't my place to speak. "I wonder, could you have maybe taken a liking to Terra or could you be after him only to hurt Ventus? I wonder indeed."

"I…" I wasn't sure, except the way I felt about Terra was different. "He is undeniably sexy," lust is a good excuse especially when it's so damn true.

"Oh, yes a perk I will enjoy," the thought of the old man and Terra sharing a body made me sick. Maybe it wasn't just his body that made me feel like this…

"His heart is… overwhelming," and so fucking loud.

"Is that all?" the old man dipped his head down and licked my ear but I barely noticed, I was too busy thinking about Terra.

"His thoughts are simply adorable and I want to fuck him so badly. I want all of it so you can't have any of it," I pushed Xehanort away, a smile was still planted on his face, and I looked through the flowers I had destroyed all because I was jealous that Ventus was so much closer to having Terra than I was. I had a fucking tantrum like a damn five year old. But then a saw a hand full of flowers that weren't destroyed, a few of the orange ones from earlier that reminded me of Terra.

"I can help you with that. Remember the story I told you about how I raped Eraqus?" he cooed.

I turned to look at him suspiciously. He never gave up on something without a reason, if he was giving up at all. "Yeah, so what your Elderness?"

"Come with me boy and I'll teach you a few tricks of mine," he held out his hand and a portal of darkness appeared behind him, ignoring the nickname I borrowed from Terra. I eyed the hand wearily and glanced back at the flowers once more before taking his hand and following him into the darkness.

If he was willing to provide I needed all the help I could get even if it was from the shadows.