May 11th Lyrics

Maybe circumstances make it easier to quit

Maybe in our circle, square pieces never fit

But I want you to know

I've never walked away from the things I've wanted

I've never walked away, but I think I'm going to this time

- Maybe, The Clarks

Drabble 3 Part 4

The next morning came and went. Nell had awoken mid-morning, taken a shower, made a hangover remedy from the recipe that Renko had given her months ago, and swallowed the vile creation. A day and night had past and she had yet to call anyone or answer her phone. She had several unread texts, missed calls, and voicemails from Deeks, two each from her mother, Kensi, Eric, and Sam; and one from Callen. Callen had called thirty minutes ago and she had not moved from her position on the couch since she had seen the words NCIS G. Callen cell on her phone.

She was scared. She cared about him so much and was afraid to lose their friendship and that whatever she felt would negatively affect their work environment. This was as close to her being in love, she had ever gotten, and that terrified her. She had to fall in love with a man she couldn't have. She believed Deeks when he had said that Callen cared, but after talking herself out of not calling him yesterday, she now had doubts about how Callen cared. Did he care about her as a friend? Coworker? Or worse a little sister? She choked on her last thought and hoped that no matter how he cared, she would be able to handle it, but if he were ever to say he thought of her as a sister, she just might die of humiliation.

She froze in terror as she heard a boom on her front door. She lived in a high security apartment complex that required all visitors to be buzzed in. Her neighbors and she had never interacted and there would be no reason for them to start.

"Damn it, Nell." Callen swore as he continued to knock. He placed his forehead on the door as he considered what he wanted to say.

For a single moment, she was not sure if she should feel relieved that it was not a criminal who had figured a way through the security system, or more terrified that it had been Callen who had gotten through it. After that moment she realized that she was foolish for feeling as if she would be comfortable facing a criminal than her friend, her unrequited love.

"I understand why you didn't call me or answer my call, but you should've answered everyone else. They are, I am, worried sick about you. Are you okay?"

As she listened to him, she started to feel bad. Quickly she opened her text messages. Every text message went from questioning to worrying. The last one from Deeks had been an hour ago. "Sweetheart, answer your phone or I'm calling Callen. Whatever happens, happens. Love Marty."

"Look, I'm not doing this in the hallway. Open the door. Do I really need to tell you that I know how to pick a freaking lock? Open the damn door; stop running from what's happening. We have something to discuss."

She opened the door.

Coming Soon To Drabbles of Nallen

Drabble 3 Part 5: Nell stops running and hiding from what is happening between her and Callen.

Drabble 3 Part 6: Kensi finds the text message that Deeks sent. Deeks must explain why he called Nell sweetheart, and why he signed the text 'Love Marty.'

Drabble 3 Part 7 (Last part of Drabble 3): Monday morning, Sam and Eric wonder what happened over the weekend between Nell, Callen, Kensi, and Deeks.