CPOV

"What do I do baby girl?" I say softly as I pick up one of my daughters stuffed teddy bears.

I know how I am acting is irresponsible and I am trying to get myself sane again but I cant seem to do that. She always seemed to know how to calm me down when I was mad or just not myself… but now she cant and I feel lost without her. She was the only thing on my life that kept me happy after my wife left me. But my wife didn't just leave me, she left her too. There is a tug at my heart. I close my eyes for a moment and picture her talking to me one last time. Her voice was so small at the time. I cant help the sob that escapes me. I know that if she saw her daddy like this she would give me a three hour lecture on how to treat a woman. There is a part of me that kills myself every time I hit Bella and I try to make it go away but it wont. I'm kind of glad the it isn't going away because, that part of me that is nagging me to stop, it is her. Its her voice that I hear in my mind. I think… that… that's the reason that I keep hurting Bella. Because, I hear her voice. I put her bear back down where she had it before she had left me.

As I look down at her bed I remember how much she loved her pink and green blanket. She would always tell me how she loved it and would always take it everywhere we went if she could. When she would have a bad dream and would come to my room she would always take it with her. I smile a little. There's a soft knock at her door and I turn around slowly.

"What?" I say.

"Bella refuses to come back in," Says Jasper.

I sigh a little. Bella has been out back since after lunch.

"Just leave her alone then. Its fine," I tell him.

"Boss?" He says but I don't respond.

BPOV

I have been walking around this garden for hours now and wonder why the dickhead chose me. Or why he couldn't just come up to me like any normal person would. I think that that would have helped his case a lot more. I keep wondering what is in that room at the end of the hall that made him…. Sad. I didn't know that sadness is an emotion that he got. Hours pass by and before I know it Jasper is coming out to get me.

"Dinners done, Bella," He tells me.

Jasper tried to get me in earlier but I refused. I sigh.

"Coming," I tell him.

Instead of walking back in, he waits for me.

"You do know that you can go in. I cant leave from the back," I say to him.

"Yes. But that's not why I wait for you."

"Then why do you?"

We start walking in.

"I like talking to you."

I scoff a little. "Sure you do."

"Hope you like pasta," He tells me as we make our way to the dinning room.

I don't say anything as I go sit down in my seat and look down at the plate of food.

"Carlisle wont be joining you… he's…. busy."

I shrug him off and pick up my fork then mix up the sauce with the noodles. Jaspers footsteps come closer to me and I look up at him.

"What?" I ask him.

He frowns slightly and pulls out the chair next to me and sits down.

"Thought I'd give you some company," Jasper tells me.

I shake my head a little and look back down at the food.

"So tell me something about yourself," He says.

CPOV

I go take a hot shower. The heat feels good on my skin. I hear the bedroom door open and close so I shut the water off and get out then dry off quickly then put my clothes on. I see Bella laying on the bed with her arm draped over her face. All I can really do is just stare at her. I take a step to her and she hears. Bella uncovers her face and looks at me. We say nothing to each other. She stands up and walks past me. I open my mouth to say something but then close it again just as fast. Bella seems to notice and stops walking.

"C-can we talk?" I ask her.

I most likely sound ridiculous stuttering like I did, but I cant help it. She seems to be shocked that I have asked this and I can tell it just by her face expression.

"Does us talking involve yelling, pushing, or hitting?" She asks after a few seconds of silence.

I shake my head instantly and hope to God that she will agree… well I'd make her listen even if she doesn't want to talk to me. I have to explain myself.

I look at her mouth as she bites her bottom lip.

"Let me get changed," She says softly.

"My sister dropped some clothes off…"

"I know… I saw," Bella holds up what looks like baby blue night shorts and a white tank top.

I nod slightly. "I'll uh… wait for you out here…"

Bella doesn't say anything as she turns around and head for the bathroom. Sighing, I go over to my side of the bed and sit down. Ok Carlisle, get a hold of yourself! Its not like your telling her that you love her…. Yet… Bella comes out of the bathroom and all I can do is stare at her milky long legs.

"Well?" She says.

"Huh? Oh. Uh, sit down," I tell her.

Bella gets a look on her face but I ignore it the best I can as she sits down.

"I would like to talk to you about…"

"I know. Get to the point," She snaps.

"I don't exactly… know what to say…"

"How about why you couldn't just come up to me and say 'hi' or something around those lines?"

I open my mouth and suddenly everything seems to come out. Not everything but the need to know, nothing about my once upon a time family obviously, but the things I needed to say.

A/N: Ok! Well I hope you guys liked it… I am soo sorry for not updating for so long. I guess I just haven't been up to typing up chapters. I've been mostly reading or just not on here. Some of that is because, I went to Florida for Spring Break but… anyways REVIEW! :D