Without a Sound
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Thanks so much for the reviews everyone! And I also want to say that I was really unsure about whether or not I could… umm… strengthen… Leon and Sora's relationship a little, but luckily about five of you guys reviewed and told me they wanted their relationship to grow… in that direction… if you know what I mean. So here it is. DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
Chapter 17
When I noticed that I had fallen asleep I jolted upwards. This swift movement effectively knocked the book Leon was reading out of his hands.
I quickly moved from my spot on his lap and picked up the fallen book with a blush on my face. I made a small bow in apology.
Leon shook his head and took the book from me. I looked around for my notepad. When I found it I wrote:
Sorry I fell asleep! How long was I out?
'It's fine, you slept for about a half an hour. It's eight fifteen.' Leon said looking over to the clock on the wall.
I nodded and returned to the sofa. I wrote:
Was I in the way?
Leon shook his head. 'If you were in the way, I would have pushed you off my lap.' I watched him say.
I smiled and looked at him:
Are you finished with your work then?
'Yes, is there something you wanted to do? I won't let you stay up past midnight. You have school tomorrow.' I saw his lips form.
I smirked:
Well, what I really want is for you to teach me how to drive that awesome motorcycle!
'No.'
I let out a huff and scooted closer. Please!
'No.'
I snuggled my face in his arm. Please! Please, pleeease!
'The day I learn to have conversations with you in sign language is the day I'll start teaching you to ride my bike. And I need your parents' permission.' I watched him saw.
My jaw dropped. I wrote:
Really? Well, then let the sign language lessons begin!
I managed to catch a hint of a smile on Leon's face.
Sign language is very simple. You don't have verb conjugations or tenses or anything. But let's start with letters and numbers.
Leon nodded.
I held up a fist, my thumb at the side of my index finger: This is A.
Leon copied.
I opened my hand and put my thumb over my palm: This is B.
Leon copied.
The lesson went on this way until he managed to do the entire alphabet and count to fifty in less than ten minutes.
I smiled at him and without thinking and wrapped my arms around him in a bear hug. I was so happy that he was interested in learning to talk to me properly. I couldn't help but feel like he was the greatest person in the entire world.
'Hey, HEY! Sora, get off! It's just the alphabet, it's not like I can talk to you with that or any thing!' Leon said pushing me away a little.
I smiled again and wrote:
It doesn't matter! I'm just so proud of you and I'm so happy!
'I'm glad Sora.' I watched Leon say.
I brought my face closer to his. I tentatively touched my lips with his. I relaxed a little after he returned the kiss.
Leon pulled me closer and I put a hand in his hair. When I felt a vibration rumble under his skin I pulled away.
I blushed and ducked my head, thinking that I had aggravated him somehow. Sorry.
Leon gave me a strange look before pulling me onto his lap to initiate a kiss. I gasped and fidgeted a little.
Leon was really kissing me right now… and we didn't have to worry about anyone walking in on us or anything… is that why?
I flinched when I felt a hand on my hip, my bare hip.
I pulled away… I shook my head. Please, don't do that. I don't like it.
Leon nodded and pulled his hand away from my skin. He stood and I slid off of his lap. He gave me a strange look. I couldn't place the look in his eyes.
He put a hand on either side of my face before kissing my nose and then kissing my forehead softly.
After that, he walked out of the room.
I was confused… did I… upset him? I didn't mean to… W-well I…
I just didn't want him to touch my skin… I don't like it… and everything was going so fast… I wasn't sure what was happening.
I'm sorry… I felt terrible. I don't understand… why would he touch there anyway… it's not like my skin is smooth or nice to touch.
I don't get it. Should I go look for him?
I stood and walked towards the small hallway and I knocked twice on the bathroom and opened the door.
No one was in there.
I turned to the bedroom door and walked over to it. I knocked twice and tried the doorknob.
It was locked.
I waited at the door… hoping that Leon would open the door so we could communicate.
But it was no use… He wasn't opening the door… I couldn't speak through it… and I couldn't hear what he was saying, if he was saying anything at all.
With a small gasp, I plopped onto the carpeted floor and cried.
-Without a Sound-
Leon's POV
I locked myself in my bedroom… I needed to be contained before I did anything stupid.
In fact, I had already done something stupid. What was I thinking? I can't just touch his body like that!
Just because he's my boyfriend doesn't mean I can force myself on the poor kid… he looked so frightened, as if I was going to hurt him or something.
I felt terrible… that poor boy was probably traumatized by my once dormant libido.
I turned swiftly when I heard two knocks on the door and the twisting of the doorknob.
"Sora… I'm sorry. I can't open the door." I said, knowing it was useless.
I sat and waited. I hoped that Sora would have gotten tired and moved to sleep on the sofa.
When it was 1:30 in the morning I decided that Sora would be asleep by now. I opened the door quietly and moved towards the living room.
As I got closer to the living room, my ears locked onto a strange noise. I walked into the living room and listened again.
It was a very quiet noise, but it sounded like… choking.
I moved quickly to the other side of the sofa to see if anyone was on it.
And there was Sora, his form trembling and jerking in a nightmare. I moved swiftly to the light switch and turned it on.
Sora's face looked pained as his hands gripped the sides of the sofa and he gasped for breath.
I ran back to Sora and gently took his shoulder. He squirmed under my touch.
I took a breath to calm myself. But I won't lie and say that I wasn't panicking.
I slapped his cheeks softly in an attempt to wake him. "Sora. SORA!" I raised my voice, forgetting that he couldn't hear.
He let out a couple of dry coughs as he continued to choke.
In a stroke of desperation and fear, I scooped him up and ran to the bathroom where I placed him in the tub and turned on the shower with cold water.
Sora jolted with a gasp followed by a series of dry coughs. His hands moved up to his neck and he rubbed the area.
I turned off the water and pulled him out swiftly. I held him as tight as I could without hurting him. I felt the sting of tears at my eyes but I blinked them away.
What the fuck had just happened?
Sora was soaking wet and trembling in the cold.
I pulled away to get a look at his face. I made sure his eyes were focused on me before speaking.
"Sora… what happened? You were choking on air! I didn't know what to do! Are you okay? Are you hurt? Do I need to take you to the hospital?" I asked.
Sora shook his head. I scooped him up again and brought him to my bedroom where I sat him on my desk chair and I handed him a pencil and a sheet of paper.
His hands shook as he wrote:
I have night terrors sometimes… I'm sorry you had to see it…
I shook my head. "No! It's okay… it just… it frightened me. I'm sorry for throwing you in the shower like that. I'll find you a pair of clothes to wear." I said and moved to my closet.
I shifted through the hangers looking for something small. But I paused when I cold, trembling hand grabbed hold of the back of my shirt followed by a damp head of hair.
I turned and looked at Sora. He looked so helpless. I pulled him into a hug again and he grabbed onto me tightly. His form now jerking mildly with sobs.
I continued to search through my closet with one hand gently combing through Sora's wet hair.
I pulled out one of my larger buttoned shirts and a pair of boxers.
I grabbed Sora's attention and spoke gently. "Why don't you go change in the bathroom. I'll dry your wet clothes after you've taken them off."
Sora wiped his eyes and walked back into the bathroom and closed the door. I sighed and raked a hand through my hair. I sat on the bed and waited for Sora to come out of the bathroom.
When he finally came out, I noticed that he had dried his hair with one of the towels in the bathroom. He looked at me.
"You wanna tell me what happened in that dream of yours?" I asked.
Sora moved to the desk and wrote. I walked over to read:
It was one about the old lady again… When I was eight, my brother caught a bad case of pneumonia and had to be rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night. Instead of waking me up to bring me along, my parents called our next door neighbor to watch me while they were out. The old lady's name was Ms. Johnson. I remember waking in the middle of the night sensing that something was off. I remember walking into our living room seeing her drinking a cup of coffee. I had asked her why she was there and she said that my parents were bringing my brother to the hospital because he was sick. I remember the way she chuckled and said 'That's not the only child that's sick.' I didn't realize it was directed at me until I had asked her what she meant. She beckoned me over and I sat next to her on the sofa. The next thing I know, she's holding my arms over my head with one hand and holding a sofa pillow to my face.
I watched as he continued to write… his tears starting to stain the paper.
I still remember everything. Down to the taste of the pillow as it was shoved over my face. The pillow was too small to cover my entire face, I remember being able to see her blood red face. She started screaming at me as I struggled, saying I was sick and needed to be gotten rid of. When she took the pillow off she said, 'You're a disgusting worm! That's what you are! You can't hear and you can't speak! The only things you can do is eat and squirm about in your own filth! It's pathetic! Oh! You can cry? No, that's not crying. Only humans do that!'
He dropped the pencil and grabbed at his hair. I could tell that recalling the dream and the memory was too much for him. I grabbed his face.
"Sora look at me." I started. "What the woman said is not true! Do you see what I'm saying? It's not true!" I said as firmly as I could. I could feel my anger boiling at the kind of childhood Sora must have had. "It's not true, Sora!" I said.
Sora nodded as tears flowed down his face. He closed his eyes and I took his face again.
"You're not a worm, Sora. You're a human being with feelings just like everyone else. And I… really, really, honest to God like you a lot. And if I keep feeling the way I do when I'm around you… I might even fall in love with you, Sora. Not out of pity and not out of spite. Only because you are the most beautiful, genuine person I have ever met. And you are pure and clean, never dirtied or soiled, Sora, never! Believe me, Sora. Don't ever believe in what anyone else say's about who you are. Because if they say otherwise, then they are wrong! Do you understand me, Sora?" I asked summoning all of my conviction.
Sora nodded again and wrapped his arms around me. I held him close gently rocking him and I back and forth. It was maybe after ten minutes that Sora had calmed down.
I looked at Sora. "It's almost two in the morning, I know you must be tired. Go ahead and sleep in the bed. I don't mind the sofa. I'm going to go dry you're clothes." I said and picked up his wet clothes.
I turned to leave the bathroom only to see Sora, he held the paper up to me:
Did you really mean what you said?
"Yes, every word." I said seriously.
He put the paper to the wall and wrote:
Will you stay with me? At least until I fall asleep?
I nodded and brought his clothes over to the dryer and threw them in.
I looked at him and he took my hand. He walked me back into the bedroom and he got into the bed.
He patted the spot on the other side and I sat down where he patted.
He gave me a small smile before putting his head down on a pillow. After a minute, I could hear Sora taking in deep breaths, his face burrowed into the pillowcase.
I put a hand on his shoulder and he looked at me. "Are you sniffing my pillows?" I asked.
He pointed to his nose and then pointed to me. They smell like you.
I smiled before planting a kiss on his lips. I pulled away and smirked. "Now, go to sleep." I said.
Sora smiled and closed his eyes. I took his hand and rubbed the back of it with my thumb. When he finally fell asleep, I felt myself drifting of to sleep.
-Without a Sound-
My watch vibrated to wake me. When I opened my eyes, I couldn't believe what I saw.
Leon was sleeping next to me… still in a buttoned shirt and pants, but that wasn't what really astonished me.
The fact that he was still holding tightly to my hand is what surprised me the most.
I got up slowly and gently pulled my hand from Leon's firm grip. I walked to the dryer and pulled out my now, dry clothes. I walked into the bathroom and closed the door.
I looked at the faucet in the shower and turned the water on lukewarm. I didn't want to take up all of Leon's hot water.
I got into the shower and grabbed his soap… I sniffed it. It smelled like Leon! I would get to smell like him too today!
After a couple minutes of washing my body… memories of last night flew into my head…
The last thing I wanted Leon to see was one of those night terrors… but I guess a good thing came out of it…
After it happened… I felt so much more reassured about Leon's feelings towards me… it makes me really happy that Leon is really serious about me. He said he might fall in love with me! That's more than I could ever ask for…
I rinsed off the soap and took the shampoo. I squirted some in my hands and put the bottle back down.
There was still one issue that neither he nor I have really addressed.
And that's about… physical… relationship… or lack there of…
But that's really only my fault.
Basketball has given me confidence in my body's abilities… but not much necessarily in my appearance.
I just don't think I'm really all that great to look at. And I certainly don't think anyone would enjoy touching me…
There is not a place on my body that doesn't have a scar… I'll run a hand over my skin sometimes and all I feel are lines, indentations, bumps, roughness… it wouldn't… I wouldn't be able to pleasure someone, looking like this.
And Leon is so gorgeous… a strong stature without flaw… the scare on his face only adds character. His hair is smooth, his hands may be a little rough but they're always warm. And Leon's got muscle… I can always feel safe when he's around… Everything about him is handsome… he's even attractive when he's angry.
I could feel the blood rushing to my nether regions just thinking about him… I looked down and frowned, quickly reaching the shower dial to make the water cold.
I washed the shampoo from my hair and turned off the water. I stepped out of the shower and put on my clothes.
When that was done, I opened the door and was faced with a shirtless and pantless Leon.
'Shit… Sora, it's so early in the morning that I forgot you were here… I'm sorry.' Leon's mouth formed and I rushed from the bathroom.
Jesus! He looks better than I imagined… I flushed madly and ran to the living room to get my stuff. I could feel myself getting hard again. I frowned.
I pulled out my phone and texted Roxas to bring an extra pair of clothes to school.
I felt hot and it was frustrating. I growled inwardly and lifted my shirt to pinch my side, hard.
Tears came to my eyes but my hard on was gone. I sighed and ran a hand trough my hair. This wasn't good. My body was being honest and I was afraid that if Leon were to see… he would be disgusted by it.
There was a swift movement in my peripheral vision and I turned to see a wet, fresh-out-the-shower Leon.
I flushed and looked at him.
'Go ahead and help yourself to anything in the fridge for breakfast.' I watched Leon say.
I nodded and swiftly moved to the kitchen. WAS HE DOING THIS TO ME ON PURPOSE!
My imagination started to run wild and I tried my hardest to fight of visions of Leon slowly removing the towel around his waist…
I shook my head frantically and moved to the fridge. I opened the fridge door and took out an apple. I bit into it in an attempt to distract myself.
But my swollen dignity would not recede. I finished my apple and threw away the core. I ran to the fridge again and opened the freezer. I pressed my cheek to the cold plastic shelving inside.
I jumped when a hand was on my shoulder and it turned me around. 'What are you doing?' Leon asked.
I jerked suddenly and ran to the other side of the room, my back to him. When his hand was on my shoulder again and went into the living room and sat with my book bag over my lap.
Leon walked over to me and gave me a concerned look. 'Are you okay? What's wrong?' I watched him ask.
I shook my head and took deep breaths to try to cool down.
'You don't look okay. Your face is really flushed and…' he put his forehead to mine.' you're really hot.' His mouth said.
You're really hot… his soft, pink, kissable lips said again and again in my brain. If I had the ability to whine, I would have.
I shook my head again. I'm fine!
'Sora you really don't look fine. Putting you under that cold water must have given you a fever… Maybe I should just take you home. C'mon, let's go.' He said before grabbing my bag.
I shook my head frantically and pulled my bag back over my lap.
'Sora… what is going on. You're acting very strange. It's worrying me.' I saw Leon say.
I frowned. Now, I felt bad for worrying him. But what was I supposed to do. I can't just give him my bag just for my hard on to pop out and say 'hellloooooo!'
I just shook my head again and sat. Leon sat on the sofa next to me and he put an hand on my face.
I shivered.
'Are you still upset about last night? Sora, you have nothing to be afraid of. And I really, really like you, remember?' Leon seemed to say.
I flushed again and took a notepad from my bag. I wrote:
It's hard.
'It's hard to what? Believe me? Sora what can I do-'
I put a hand to his face to tell him to stop.
No. I mean… I'm really hard.
I pushed the notepad onto him and scooted away in embarrassment.
I closed my eyes and curled up around my bag. Shivering a little as my clothes material brushed against my… problem.
There was a gentle hand on my shoulder. Leon softly pulled my out of my position and I looked at him with a flushed face.
'Sora, you don't have to be embarrassed by your body's healthy functioning. Is it because of me?' he asked.
I flushed even more and hid my face in my hands.
Leon took my hands away and smiled. 'Can I take that as a yes?' he asked.
I nodded.
'That's good. I was worried that you weren't attracted to me after what happened yesterday.'
I wrote:
You don't find it gross?
Leon smirked. 'Of course not, it's a giant ego boost. And Sora, you're my boyfriend, I want you to be attracted to me. Just like I'm attracted to you.'
You're not attracted to me. I'm… ugly.
'Sora you are far from ugly and I don't ever want to hear you say that again.' I watched him say.
I didn't understand… it didn't make sense to me.
'Sora… do you… want me to take care of it?' I watched him ask.
I gave him a confused look.
'Do you want me to get rid of that hard on for you?' Leon asked.
Another confused look.
'Like this.' Leon took my bag from my lap and pulled me closer. I blushed.
Leon kissed my cheek before his hand grazed over me.
I gasped and jumped a little.
I shivered when Leon's kisses moved to my ear. When I felt my pants loosen and a bare hand on my lower regions I gasped again and clung tightly to Leon. I could feel myself getting hotter. I closed my eyes in embarrassment.
But I didn't stop him… if he's really attracted to me, then I would try to let him do what he wants.
His hand squeezed tighter around me. I started to huff and pant, my back arching in pleasure. My hips started to work with the rhythm.
Leon planted a kiss on my neck and hastened his pace.
What ever was building inside of me spilled over and I held tightly to Leon's form as I caught my breath.
It felt so good… I felt really good…
Leon moved to stand up and I just flopped on the sofa, I felt light and fluffy.
I looked at Leon who had a smile on his face. 'I'm glad you like it.' I saw his say before moving into the kitchen.
When Leon came back he picked up and satchel and turned to me. 'We need to head out now.'
I nodded and fastened my pants. After that I stood and took my bag. I felt a tingle go up my spine as I walked towards Leon.
Leon simply chuckled at my antics as we left the house.