Sorry it's been such a long time since I last updated. Less than a month though! You can applaude me for that :D If I'd waited one more day though, it would have been a month, so again, I'm incredibly sorry.
I got caught up in school, but it's now the summer holidays, so my writer's block has been cured :D Just suddenly had the urge to update all of my stories, so I hope you like this chapter :D
Sirius woke up at lunchtime the next day. Regulus hadn't dared try and sneak into his bed when Madam Pomfrey insisted to stay by and make sure Sirius didn't try to escape again. When Sirius opened a sleepy eye, he could see Madam Pomfrey tending to another patient across the room. He yawned and sat up.
"Can I go?" he asked sleepily. She turned to look at him worriedly.
"I suppose you can – as long as you're feeling OK..."
"I'm fine." His head wasn't hurting at all, and all he wanted to do was get out of the hospital wing.
"Well... you may leave. If your head begins hurting again, make sure you come back immediately, yes?" she said. Sirius nodded and got out of his bed.
He walked all the way up to the Gryffindor common room, and that's when it all came back to him.
Remus had seen it all – the kissing, the touching, the smiles. He'd heard the 'I love yous' and he'd watched Sirius admit his feelings for Regulus. Sirius closed his eyes as he wished he could go back in time and fix everything.
It was like he'd been drunk – waking up to remember all of the terrible things that had happened, and there was nothing he could do about it.
As he walked upstairs to his dormitory, he stopped before pulling on the handle. Would his friends want to talk to him? He hoped they did, but he couldn't blame them if they didn't. Taking in a deep breath, he opened the door.
"Sirius! Are you OK now?" asked Peter suddenly.
"I'm fine," Sirius said. It wasn't the truth. He was fine physically but not mentally. All he wanted to do was cry. He was going to be in so much trouble...
"So, what was actually wrong with you?"
"Er... I don't know... I didn't really ask," laughed Sirius. He'd been too pre-occupied with the battle in his head; Remus vs Regulus.
"You idiot," said Peter, shaking his head and sitting back down on his bed.
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Peter didn't talk to him for the rest of the time he was in there (which wasn't very long). He ended up leaving the room and making his way towards the beech tree by the lake. As he got closer, he could see the outline of someone else sitting there, and turned around to make his way back up to his dorm. He could hear someone calling him, and he suspected it was the person who had been sitting under the tree. He didn't turn around to see who it was. Eventually though, the person caught up with him and he sighed when he recognised the voice.
"Are you an idiot?" shouted James, pushing Sirius to the floor with force. Sirius landed on the grass, staring up at his friend with sadness.
"Well say something then!"
"I... really... I'm just sorry," Sirius said lamely, and James laughed in a slightly scary way.
"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO REMUS?" he spat angrily, kicking Sirius hard in the side. "HE LOVES YOU! YOU'RE HORRIBLE! YOU'RE NASTY! YOU'RE CRUEL! YOU'RE STUPID! YOU'RE-"
"I know I am!" Sirius shouted back, as he stood up. "I don't know why I did it. I just... couldn't help myself."
"You couldn't help yourself?" James said angrily. "COULDN'T HELP YOURSELF? GET SOME SELF-CONTROL YOU BASTARD!"
"I said I was sorry! What else can I do? I thought you said you understood?"
"That was me being an idiot. I don't understand any more! You know how much Remus adores you! If you really wanted to kiss your brother, then you should have at least broken up with Remus first, so he wouldn't walk in on the two of you and feel his heart break! Well guess what? That's what happened, and he's such a mess now! You've ruined him! You should see him Sirius! You should honestly feel so ashamed of yourself!"
"I do feel ashamed of myself James! But there's no way I can fix it now – the damage is done."
"You know what, Sirius? Just fuck off. We don't need you in our lives," said James coldly, walking away.
"Please, James! I don't want to lose you too!"
"I said fuck off."
"Fine," Sirius said quietly. "I guess I deserve it."
James ignored him.
"AT LEAST I CAN GET THE PEOPLE I WANT! I DON'T SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE CHASING AFTER THEM!"
James flinched, but continued walking.
"AND AT LEAST THEY ACTUALLY LOVE ME BACK! UNLIKE YOU! WHO'D LOVE YOU ANYWAY? YOU'RE ARROGANT AND MEAN AND A BULLY. LILY WILL NEVER WANT YOU. I MEAN IT. NEVER!"
James turned around and lunged at Sirius knocking them both to the floor. James punched Sirius hard in the face, making his nose bleed, while Sirius punched every part of James he could reach. The fight was causing a crowd to surround them, but they didn't stop. Finally, Peter arrived and pulled the two of them apart.
"What's going on?" he asked, looking at both of them, who were glaring at each other. Both boys were covered in cuts and bruises, and they had their fists clenched. James pulled out his wand and pointed it at Sirius.
"FLIPENDO!" he screamed, making Sirius fly backwards into a crowd of people watching. He got to his feet quickly, and pulled his own wand out.
"FURNUNCULUS!" James' face immediately broke out in huge, pus-filled boils. Many people in the crowd laughed at this, but Sirius couldn't bring himself to even smile. He was angry, furious. He wasn't even sure why he was so angry. After all, it was all his own fault.
"INCARCEROUS" cried James, and Sirius quickly pointed his wand back at James before the spell took effect.
"PROTEGO!" he shouted, and James was wrapped up in ropes, falling to the ground. Sirius didn't bother saying another word to him. He walked back up towards the castle, not forgetting to kick James on the way. He felt a tap on his shoulder and turned around angrily.
"That was wonderful, Black," said Lily excitedly. "Well done."
"Go away Evans. I'm not in a great mood," Sirius muttered, pushing her away.
"How rude!" she yelled at him, but he ignored her as he made his way through the doors.
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He knew he would get in trouble, but he couldn't bring himself to care. He'd got himself into a huge mess and he wasn't sure how he was going to fix it. He could feel a prickling feeling in his eyes, and he knew they were tears.
He'd lost his best friend and his boyfriend (who was also a best friend). He wasn't sure how to deal with the loss. Remus and James had always been there for him, and now they were gone. After today, neither of them would want to talk to him again, and he couldn't blame them. He had been stupid, and cruel. He knew that under everything he'd tried so hard to make, he was really still a Black at heart. It killed him to admit it, but he was certain it was true.
He wasn't aware of where his feet were taking him, and his vision was blurred by the tears in his eyes. He continued walking until he walked straight into someone. He was about to back away, but instead, he was engulfed in a heartfelt embrace, and he knew at once that it was Regulus. He sighed and let himself be comforted, as that was all he really needed at that moment. Regulus was the only person who was there for him (except for Peter, who'd probably side with James as soon as he learnt what happened). He felt himself calm down as Regulus rubbed up and down his back soothingly.
"What's wrong?" he asked after a while.
"Nothing."
"There's obviously something wrong," he said, pulling back and looking Sirius in the eyes.
"It's just... I've made a big mess," Sirius said, sniffing.
"It's to do with what happened between us last night, isn't it?" asked Regulus, biting his lip guiltily. "I'm sorry," he said. "I didn't mean to cause any trouble."
"It's not your fault. It's mine. I was an idiot. You didn't know."
"Didn't know what?" asked Regulus.
"I had a boyfriend," Sirius admitted sadly. Regulus frowned.
"You cheated on him, then."
"Yeah," said Sirius. "I feel so terrible, but Reg... I really meant what I told you last night."
"You did?" Regulus asked, with a small smile on his face. Sirius nodded. "I meant what I said too."
"Thank Merlin for that! I was worrying that it wasn't true, and that I'd lost everyone."
"Lost everyone? Who else did you lose?" Regulus asked, concerned.
"Well I obviously lost Remus... he was my boyfriend, and well... you saw... he kind of walked in on us last night. Then, I lost James, who was mad at me for doing what I did."
"I'm sorry you had to lose them," said Regulus sympathetically.
"It's OK. You're worth it, really," Sirius replied, grinning at his brother. "I want you. Only you."
"Really?"
"Of course," Sirius said. He looked around quickly before planting a quick kiss on Regulus' lips. Regulus smiled and blushed, grabbing hold of Sirius' hand and lacing their fingers together.
"Does this make me your boyfriend?" Regulus asked excitedly. Sirius thought for a moment.
"Yes, it does," he smiled back at Regulus, who beamed at him.
"Nobody can know though," Regulus said quietly. "We'd be in so much trouble."
"Yeah, I know. Well, it isn't exactly unusual for our family, is it?"
"What do you mean?" asked Regulus.
"The whole family's incestuous," Sirius winked. "Just not this incestuous. I still reckon mum and dad would kill us if they found out."
"Obviously. It means that nobody will carry on the Black line," said Regulus, and Sirius thought about it.
There was Andromeda, who was married to Ted Tonks. Their baby, Nymphadora, had the surname of Tonks, which broke off the Black line there. Then, there was Narcissa, who would probably marry and change her name, and Bellatrix, who was already married to Rodolphus Lestrange. Then, there was only himself and Regulus left, and if the two of them stayed together, that meant they'd be the last people in the Black family. Sirius grinned at the thought. He'd end the most pureblood family in Britain. It was a beautiful thought.
"Reg, I don't feel like staying in this corridor... how about we venture to the Room of Requirement? We could have a little fun in there, I think," Sirius winked, and Regulus looked confused.
"What's the Room of Requirement?" he asked. Sirius gaped at him.
"Only the greatest room in the entire school... maybe even the entire world!" Sirius said, grabbing Regulus and pulling him through a tapestry to their right. He led Regulus up a few flights of stairs and through more tapestries until they finally reached a blank stretch of wall.
"How did you know all of those shortcuts?" Regulus asked him.
"Secrets," said Sirius mysteriously, closing his eyes. When he opened them, he smiled at Regulus' face. The door had appeared and Regulus looked completely awestruck. Sirius opened the door, and Regulus' face lit up more.
"Wow," he breathed as he took in the room. It was huge, filled with lots of things suitable for a steamy night. Sirius felt excited just looking at the items in the room, and the huge, king-sized, four-poster bed in the middle of the room made his mouth water. He looked at his brother – no, boyfriend, and licked his lips.
"How's this?" he asked. Regulus shook his head disbelievingly.
"Since when has a room like this been in a school?" Regulus asked.
"Since I required it. See, this room appears only when someone requires to use it. It can be used for anything, and I think you can see what's been on my mind."
"I can definitely see what's been on your mind," Regulus said, taking a step into the room. Sirius grabbed his arm, and pulled him back.
"Wait a minute, we're not doing anything right now," Sirius said.
"Aww why not?" whined Regulus. "That's not fair! You can't just bring me up here and then send me away again."
"It's the middle of the day," laughed Sirius. "Let's not be too eager. Plus, it'll be much more fun tonight."
"Tonight?" Regulus asked, and Sirius could almost hear the lust in his voice.
"Meet me here, straight after dinner. My room-mates won't be missing me tonight."
"Ok, straight after dinner," Regulus grinned. "I can't wait."
"Neither can I," said Sirius, as Regulus, pulled him in for a light kiss and walked down the corridor to join his friends, wherever they may be.
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Sirius felt a lot happier now that he'd arranged a hot, steamy night with Regulus, so as he made his way towards the Gryffindor common room, he didn't expect to see Professor McGonagall and James Potter standing by the portrait hole, both with an angry glare in their eyes. Sirius sighed, and headed for his deathbed.
Are people happy that Regulus and Sirius are finally together? Do you feel sorry for Rem? What about James? Ooh... are you excited for after dinner? ;)
I really want to know who you guys side with here? Personally, I'd side with Peter. He's not involved. Just a random guy on the side XD
