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A/N Another chapter so soon! How I spoil you all!

Chapter 10

Two days after giving birth to Gwaine Morgause was ready to return to lessons again, in fact she was antsy. She hated time spent alone in her room with the baby, the baby who either just cried at her or who was asleep. It never let her sleep though. Currently Gwaine was bawling his eyes out while Morgause held him facing away from her as she made little shushing sounds to no effect. Nimueh entered the room, and strode over to Morgause and plucked the crying Gwaine out of her arms. Morgause's arms fell uselessly to her side as she watched Nimueh rock Gwaine until he quietened; she made it look so easy. Maybe Morgause was just a terrible mum.

"You were holding him all wrong" Nimueh informed her as she looked down at Gwaine with love in her eyes. "You need to soothe him, he needs to feel your comfort." She said wisely.

Morgause simmered in anger, how dare she tell her what to do. He was her baby, not Nimueh's and she had no right.

"Yes, thank you." Morgause said coldly as she turned to stride from the room.

"Where are you going Morgause?" Questioned Nimueh.

"For a walk."

Morgause stalked out of the room and refrained from kicking the door. Morgause went down to the practice room and with her magic threw back all the furniture. She conjured a target board and began to fire at it. Fire hurtled across the room in fireballs of all sizes, blackening the wood of the target board. Morgause was panting in exertion now her face filled with anger she was a terrifying sight.

The board couldn't take anymore and collapsed inwards, the blackened wood falling to the ground with a loud thud. Morgause backed into the wall and slid down, pulling her knees up and wrapping her arms round them. Her head rested on her knees as she shook with silent tears. It was so unfair; she was doomed- cursed to live this abomination of a life. She had nothing to look forward to; even the thought of Uther's death couldn't bring a smile to her face. It was all so rubbish, here she was sixteen years old with a child she didn't love a mentor who she suspected was a little crazy and secluded on an island with no one else to talk to.

She sat there for a little while before standing up shakily, wiping her eyes and returning to her room. She opened the door to her room quietly, Nimueh was sat at the other side of the room, baby Gwaine was on her lap and she cradled him softly. She didn't notice Morgause enter and Morgause found herself struck by the image a dark haired woman cradling her dark haired son. She looked like the perfect mother, she would be a better mother to Gwaine than Morgause could ever be. Jealously stirred inside her why couldn't she be a perfect a mother for Gwaine as Nimueh was? The child was going to be doomed in life with her as a mother she thought glumly. She took another step inside the room and Nimueh finally saw her, she gave her a nod before her eyes snapped back to the baby in her arms. Morgause stood ringing her hands behind her back she felt awkward like she didn't belong her. But she did, he was her baby. Stepping forward again with confidence in her stride she walked over to Nimueh.

"Thank you for looking after him this morning but I can look after him now" She said in false bravado.

Nimueh eyed her wearily "Are you sure, I can stay a bit longer or even take him for the night if you want?"

"No, that's quite alright." Morgause said slowly reaching and taking the squirming Gwaine from Nimueh she then opened the heavy wooden door and waited for Nimueh to leave.

"Well if you need any help…" Nimueh said, stooping down to place a chaste kiss on Gwaine's cheek. Morgause couldn't shut the door on her quick enough. The door closed Morgause let a sigh of relief, raising Gwaine in her arms so they were eye to eye.

"Right you. No crying, we are going to show her that I'm a good mummy." Morgause bounced him watching as his little eyelids started to droop in tiredness. She cradled him and carried him over to the pretty but basic wooden cot in the corner; she carefully placed the now sleeping Gwaine down and covered him in a blanket to ward off the cold afternoon air. She stroked his soft hair and gave him a little kiss. Morgause stood and walked over to the little rocking chair and picked up the book she had been reading. She was reading about the history of Albion, of all those who had invaded over the years it was very interesting, to know of the past would better the future. It was amazing how many times these lands had been taken and fought over, a fight that they were still fighting.

During the afternoon Gwaine only cried twice and he was easy to placate, feeding and a nappy change and then he drifted back to sleep. Morgause was slightly worried about the amount of time he spent asleep, should babies sleep this much? Her book said so but it was so boring when he spent the majority of the time asleep.

The next day Morgause carried a snoozing Gwaine down to the dining room, Nimueh was already there and eating a sizable amount of food.

"How did last night go?" Nimueh asked as she reached as if to take Gwaine before thinking better of it.

"Fine, he slept the entire time." Morgause looked down at Gwaine as she spoke; he had a little frown on his face as he slept.

"Babies do tend to do that…" Nimueh trailed off as a haunted look crossed her face briefly.

Morgause took a seat at the table and picked some fruit out of the bowls to eat, over the months she had been with Nimueh she had slowly began to put back on all the weight she had lost. She was now back to pre-baby weight around about, all though the skin on her stomach was much less flat than it used to be and wobbled a lot.

"I want to resume my lessons." Morgause said with a slight pleading tone to her voice.

"I believe it to be too soon and what shall Gwaine do while you learn? You can't leave him alone."

"Yes, I know. But I was thinking you could look after him while I train, I would trust no other more than yourself with him." It was a slight lie, Morgause was slightly wary with leaving Gwaine with Nimueh and the person she trusted most was Gareth, who didn't even know he had a child.

"Well I am honoured; I suppose we can as long as you take it easy at first. We will have to set up a protective shield to keep Gwaine safe though." Nimueh mused softly "Leave that with me, I will think of something."

"Thank you, I just want to get back to learning. I need to know the most I can, we could be attacked at any time."

"While you are here you are safe." Nimueh assured her "The isle is protected no one who is not magical can enter it, the boat will not allow them through my dear."

Morgause juggled Gwaine shifting him to her other arm so she could eat.

"When can we start then?"

Nimueh thought about it a short while "Now I suppose."

A/N Sorry it's so short, but there is a very good reason for it! I will update again tomorrow, with the next chapter. Please review!