Ok, so the italic ones are "flashbacks".
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"I'm pregnant. You're the father."
She was completely aware that what she was doing was called "taking another step and moving to another level". She wasn't the kind of girl who used to play video games as a child, but she totally knew that what she was doing was as difficult as beating the monster that waits for you by the end of a level in your favorite game. No, she wasn't calling Booth a monster, but this new level was a total monster to her.
Love has never been something she was good at. She doesn't believe in fate, she doesn't believe in fairy tales, she doesn't believe that love is worth. And – for Booth – this is totally explainable. She suffered a lot. She hurt herself, because the people in who she believed and trusted, abandoned her. He knew that those six years have taught her that her conception of love is mistaken. That she can love a lot of people in this world, but there is only one person she loves the most and that this person never leaves. He told her he would die for or even kill for her and probably, after all those six years of confessions and promises, she has understood that he is the person she was looking for. The only person she "loves" the most even though love still doesn't seem to be something worth.
"Bones, have you seen my socks?" –Booth asked while entering the bedroom for the tenth time.
"Booth, you have to be more specific. You have a lot of socks in your drawer, how am I supposed to know which one you are looking for?" – said Brennan, trying to get off bed and take a shower.
"The striped one. You know…" – said Booth, kneeling next to bed, in search for his favorite pair of socks.
"There you go again." – said Brennan, putting her right foot out of bed. – "I believe all your socks are striped, Booth."
Booth lifted his head and held his body close to the bed, managing to reply her to statement.
"No, Bones. Not all my socks are striped. Most of them, but not all. Which is completely different." – He kneeled back, but didn't find anything under the bed.
"Booth?" – Brennan asked when she realized she needed help to get out of bed.
"What now, Bones? Are you gonna tell me all my buckles are "Cocky" buckles?"
Booth was still kneeling when he said that misfortune sentence.
"No. I was not going to say that. I think I might need some help up here. Can you come up to help me, please?" – Brennan was still trying to stand up, but her eight months baby bump wasn't allowing her to do anymore.
Booth realized he was being a little bit unmerciful these days. Perhaps because this idea of seeing Brennan working late all days while she should be resting, waiting for the due date, was making him get worried and protective as he has always been.
"Bones…"- Booth looked at her, on the other side of bed and sighed. – "I'm so sorry. I've been a fool these days. I know you love your job, I know that for a long time your job and career were the only things you had, but it's different now, ok? We have each other and we have our little princess coming at any time. Remember when I told you that everything happens eventually?"
Booth looked at Brennan who was with glowing eyes staring at him. She nodded.
"So, it does. And, once again I'll have to tell you, "everything happens eventually, Bones. You just gotta be ready for it." You just gotta keep calm and wait for it to happen. I know it might be difficult for you to reduce your work time, but you have to think about the idea that you're not alone anymore. That you have me and…"- Booth took a long breath to be able to finish this sentence.- "And Sarah. You have us both and we also need some time to spend with you." – He stared at Brennan, knowing she would reply to that with only one question.
Brennan was sitting on bed, with her right hand on her belly and her left hand on bed, trying to keep herself up.
"Sa…Sarah?"
"Yeah. Sarah. I know I told you we should do this together, but I searched for names and Sarah seems to be very appropriate. I mean, she is my first daughter and she is your first child, she must have a meaningful name, Bones."
"Sarah means "princess", doesn't it?" – Brennan was with a tiny tear streaming down her left eye. Booth got in bed just to dry her tear with his left hand.
"Yes, Bones. That's why it's appropriate. She is our princess. She is half of me, half of you. She is our halves, you know? She is one of the reasons I wake up everyday, open that window and go to work. She is my daughter, she is OUR daughter. She is a little you, Bones."
"Well, scientifically speaking, she is more than a half of me and less than a half of you."
"Why do you always do that to me, Bones?"
Brennan was opening her mouth to answer his question when Booth started talking again.
"I know, Bones, to help me evolve. But, how come she is more than a half of you? She has 50% of my DNA and 50% of yours. You are the one who once told me, there is nothing more than 100%." – Booth started at Brennan who was looking even prettier at each day.
"Because, Booth, her mitochondrial DNA is only from me. When your spermatozoid penetrated my ovule…- Booth interrupted her with a kiss on her mouth.
"Ok, Dr. Brennan. I find it very sexy when you get all scientific on me. You know I don't get your stuff, but it's very sexy." – Booth kissed her again, while she was trying to laugh of that situation.
"You do?" – she kissed him back. – "Well, I can't help, Booth. But, come on, you have to help me out here. I have to go to work. We have to go to work. And I still have to take a shower."
"You sure you wanna go to work today? The baby might be here at anytime, Bones."
"And? Women have babies at every single second, Booth. Your water breaks, your contractions start and your lovely spouse takes you to the hospital. I mean, only if you live in a capitalized country and have a medical insurance. It's normal, Booth. And I want it to be normal. I'm surprised I didn't choose to have this baby at home." – she said, holding Booth's hand when he pulled her out of bed.
"Thank God you didn't. I think I would go crazy to have you here, lying in this bed or in our bathtub, trying to push."
"You mean, your bed and your bathtub?"
"No, ours."
"No, it's not ours. You know it's not ours… We didn't choose any of these together, therefore it's not ours."
"Here she comes again with this story." – said Booth to Brennan's belly. – "You see, that, Sarah? Your mom is very stubborn. Hopefully you won't be stubborn like her. For my sake, for your brother's sake."
Brennan stepped on Booth's foot after what he said.
"Ouch. I'm kidding, Bones. Don't you have to take a shower?"
"Yes, I have to. Hey, listen. We have to talk about the name. This has to be our thing, you know? That's what you taught me, Booth. That what goes on between us that should just be ours. Isn't that what you said?" – Brennan said those words staring into Booth's dark eyes. Those eyes that always make her heart beat faster.
"Yes, Bones. That's what I said and that is true. We have to discuss this later, ok? But Sarah is a good name."
"Indeed. Sarah… Sarah…" – Brennan said that name out loud a few times, just to see how it sounded.
Booth admired Brennan while she walked toward the bathroom. Probably those two weeks were going to be the last time he would be able to admire a pregnant Brennan. Probably she would want another child, but not right after their first. So, he would just sit in the bathroom, next to his bathtub and admire her bath herself. Maybe he could help her to wash her back… Maybe they could…
-B&B-
After Vincent's death Brennan realized that life was way too short to be wasted. As Angela once told her: "Life is ephemeral. We're here one minute and then we're gone the next."
She never thought she would manage to understand what everybody has been telling her along these almost seven years of partnership. She never thought that there would be a day in which she would wake up, lose her favorite squintern and realize that she didn't want to die before building a family and having the best moments of her life. That is what happened that night. At Booth's apartment. She was vulnerable, she was sad, but she was certain that she should give that a shot.
He is her partner and he is always there for her when she needs someone to tell her what she is doing is right and that she is doing the best she can. He is always there when she needs someone to talk and that's what he did that night. He listened to her and he told her that what happened - at the Jeffersonian - only happened, because Vincent wasn't ready to leave this world, because he hadn't done all he planned to do, because he was too young to die, because that wasn't his time to go.
Right in the moment when Booth wrapped her around his arms, she felt that he was the shelter she has been looking for. That he is the only person capable of calming her down and letting her days brighter when it seems an impossible task to be done.
"Booth?"- Brennan asked, while keeping her head on Booth's chest.
"Yes, Bones."
"Do you remember when we were stuck in your elevator, when that blackout happened?"
"Yes, when those stupid chairs trapped us up. How could I forget that?"
"Well, do you remember I said we wouldn't work out as a couple?"
"Yes. I do, but, where do you wanna get?"
"What if I was wrong? What if I find out it might work out? What if we lose each other again? What if you move away?"
"Bones, I'm not going anywhere. I have a son here, I have a job and I have the best partner someone could wish for. I'm not going anywhere. But, do you think you were wrong?" – Booth stared at Brennan while she dried some tears that were streaming down her cheek.
"You do know that I'm afraid to commit to someone, because my biggest fear is being left alone. You know the main cause of my fear and you also know that I haven't committed to anyone since we've known each other." – Brennan took a deep breath and started talking again. – "Turns out, I've committed to you. Last year, when I told you I needed a time, I really meant it. I went to that jungle in Indonesia and I realized that what I was doing was called: "running away." I was running away of my happiness, because I was too afraid to commit to the person I knew I should commit to. And, then - seven months later - we came back and you've moved on. I felt like my ceiling was coming down and that the floor that sustained me was cracking. I can't lose my chance again. I can make the same mistake twice, Booth."- She pressed her hands over his chest and started sobbing again.
Booth stroked her hair and embraced her even tighter. He could feel that that was going somewhere. Somewhere brand new to both of them. Somewhere he never thought they would get.
"Bones, you didn't make a mistake, ok? As you always tell me, it were chemical messages traveling throughout your limbic system that confused you. It was you being blackmailed by yourself. You thought you could live alone, but no one can, Bones. There is always someone for everyone, Bones. And you gotta respect that rule. God or whoever you believe in, didn't design us to live alone. We need our other half, Bones. We were conceived by two halves and that's why we need another half to do not feel alone. And, this journey, the journey of looking for our other half, seems to take a big part of our lives, Bones. It's not that simple to find your half, ok? I made a mistake when I thought Rebecca was my other half…"
"Booth, I think we should give this a shot. Life is short and I don't wanna have any regrets. Besides, you've proven me that you're able to protect me. You told me that you would die for me, that you'd kill for me. You took a bullet for me and, as much as I have told you I didn't care, I do care. It meant the world to me Booth, to know that I have someone that really cares about me. I know it's horrible to say that Vincent's death showed me that I should go after my wishes. No one should say that, but that's what happened. Vincent showed me that I can't waste my time and that I can't keep pretending I don't feel anything for you. Because…"
Booth stopped her. He kissed her mouth, rolled her and got under control. Booth kissed her neck for a long while, just like he dreamed he had kissed her during his coma dream.
Brennan grabbed his strong arms and rolled over him. She took his shirt off and kissed his chest. Booth took Brennan's sweatshirt off and rolled over her once again. He kissed her until he was able to reach her pants. He unbuttoned it, and then opened the zipper. Booth took Brennan's pants off.
She was lying in his bed dressing only her lingerie. Booth admired her for while. He could eventually say she was his Bones, he could say they were together; he would be able to wake up by her side. He would be able to be her child's father. He would be able to give her everything she wanted: love, a baby, a family, a house a brand new life.
"Booth, what are you thinking about?" – Brennan asked while taking Booth's black shirt off.
"That I'm the happiest man in the surface of the Earth?" – Booth asked her, almost assuming it.
"Are you?"
"Am I?"
"Are you trying to confuse me once again?"
"I don't know, am I?"
Brennan rolled over him once again. She untied his Pajamas' pants and took it off. Booth was wearing white underwear that drove Brennan crazy. All she wanted was to take it off. All she wanted was to have Booth inside of her, for the first time in their lives. She knew that - from now on - she wouldn't be able to live without him. The only reason she didn't commit to him before, was because she knew that once she had the taste of his "love", she wouldn't be able to lose it. And – if that happens – no one will be able to bring her back to life. That's why she didn't commit, because she knew that this commitment is going to last forever and that she needed to be completely ready for it. Entirely ready for it. For him.
Booth took off her bra and gently kissed her breast. Brennan moaned. She then took his underwear off and he led his hand to her panties. He took them off and gently got into Brennan. She moaned, she scratched his back and kissed his neck while he was coming back and forwards her. Booth moves faster, coming in and out. Brennan's heart was beating faster, faster in a way it has never beaten before. She was happy, because the man she really love was breaking the laws of physics for her, was making two people share the same space in the same time.
They reached the orgasm together. Booth rolled to the right side of the bed while Brennan was still sighing.
"Whoa, Bones."
"Whoa? That's what I should be saying. We should have done this before. I…"
"You?"
"I didn't think you were so good."
"Well, I knew you were very good."
"You believed me?"
"Yes, I trust you. I believe in everything you say, because you've never lied to me.".
Brennan turned her head to stare at Booth. He pulled away a hair that was covering her left eye.
"I love you, Bones. You know that."
"I do, Booth. You proved me that today. You've been proving me that since we'e met."
"I know. But you weren't ready, so I had to wait for you."
"And you did. You always manage to do the right thing."
"You always manage to do the right thing either, Bones. You just need more time than I do. Because you gotta be totally sure that no one is gonna hurt you. I get it. That's what makes you, you. And that's why I love you."
They both engaged into a very romantic kiss for a long while.
-B&B-
Brennan has lost a friend and a student. Her best friend was about to have her first child and she was standing there, beginning her life, moving forward. Starting a whole new life, the life she has been waiting for since she was 5 years old. The life her mother wanted for her. A partner that managed to love her, a job that paid her well, a very strong career. But something was still missing there.
She wasn't completely satisfied. She thought she was being selfish, because she didn't have child. Because she wasn't procreating her species.
But those were only her thought, until she found out that something had changed.
A baby was a total change in that game. They didn't talk about it, but Booth once told her that if she wanted him to give her his sperm, he would have to be the father. He would have to be there for that child. He would have to help her raise that baby. And, even if she didn't say it out loud, she was thinking about turning this offer into reality. She has been thinking about accepting it, because she has plenty of reasons to want a child with Booth.
Three weeks after what happened that night, Brennan decided to have this pregnancy test, because her period was left behind and it has never happened before. She knew that now she should be worried, or maybe happy. She never had this feeling before, the feeling of possibly becoming a mother, the feeling of discovering that she wasn't alone anymore, the feeling that every single woman talked about, the feeling of being pregnant.
It was too soon, but she knew she was able to find out the truth. She knew her HCG levels would be higher than normal and that she would be able to find out if she was carrying Booth's baby just by peeing on a stick.
Brennan woke up at 4:47 am - something usual these days -. She put her trench coat on and left her Pajamas underneath. She took the car's keys and went downstairs to the garage. She couldn't wait for that answer anymore. She needed to know if the eventually Booth was talking about, was actually coming. Because, he told her that eventually happens, and that you just gotta be ready for it. And, she knew she was ready… She knew she wanted this and she also knew that she didn't want any false hopes.
The scientist put the keys in the ignition and drove away from her building. She would have to find a pharmacy or even a supermarket where she could buy a simple home test. No, she wouldn't wait for Booth, she wouldn't tell anyone yet, but she was sure that if the stick showed her a positive sign, her life was just about to start.
She drove for five blocks until a blue neon sign showed her a pharmacy. She parked the car in the parking lot and got out of it. Brennan didn't even know what kind of test to take, she has never passed through this situation. So, the first thing she did when she got in the pharmacy was to look for the pregnancy test's section. There they were, shelf number 3. A bunch of pregnancy tests staring at her and she wasn't able to decide which one she was going to take. Brennan had taken a basket when she got in the pharmacy, so it seemed pretty obvious to her that she was capable of taking one pregnancy test of each brand.
By the time she reached the cashier, the young lady that was charging her just asked:
"It seems to be your first one, is it?"
"Might be, not sure."
"You could have asked me, I could have helped you. The best one is this one"- the young lady handed her a blue box – "But I'm sure you're gonna take all of them just to be completely sure about it."
Brennan took the blue box and put it in her purse.
"Probably. That's what you do when you're expecting your first child, isn't it?"
"Well, if you and your partner have been trying for a while, yeah, that's what you do."
Brennan got out of the pharmacy. And chilled out in her car for while. She thought about what the pharmacy lady just said and those words didn't get out of her mind. She wasn't trying to have a child with Booth, she didn't even know what they were. If they were partners at work and lovers in life or if they were still just partners. She wanted that all to change. She wanted to move on, but to move on with Booth.
Brennan got home and ran to her bathroom. She had 10 different boxes in her hands and she was intending to take those 10 tests.
First, she took the blue one that the pharmacy lady suggested. 5 minutes and she would have her first answer. Brennan took all the 10 tests and put them on the bathroom sink. She waited until she knew that all the test would be showing her the answer she was looking for.
The first she looked at was the one from the blue box, and, as she expected, a pink plus sing was standing right in the middle of the stick. She stared at the other 9 tests she took and all of them showed her a positive sign.
Maybe those were the signals Booth told her the Universe could provide her. And she totally got the signals now. She was pregnant, he was the father and their lives were just about to change.
-B&B-
It was 6:00 am when Booth called her. She hasn't slept since 4:47 am, but she was fine, she was happy and scared at the same time. Maybe that was the feeling all woman talked about.
"Bones, we got a case. It's in a bowling alley. You will love it, seems like the body is stuck in the pinsetters.".
"Are they? You sure?"
"Yeah. What happened? You're acting a little bit weird."
"I'm fine, Booth. I'm just tired…" – Brennan said while walking around her room thinking about what she just found out. – "I'll meet you there, ok?"
"Do you want me to pick you up?"
"No, I'm fine. I can drive…"
"Ok, Bones. See you there then."
Angela called Brennan while she was driving to the bowling alley. Brennan knew that the baby would be born at anytime and she really wanted to be there to see it. She wouldn't want to, but now it was different. Her whole world has changed. Brennan used to tell Angela everything, but she wasn't ready to tell her about being pregnant. It was something Brennan wanted to share with Booth first.
They solved the case, Michael Staccato Vincent Hodgins has born and Brennan had to tell Booth what was going on.
Everyone that was at that waiting room knew that something was happening to Temperance Brennan. She was terrified with Angela's screams, but she put a big smile when she first saw Michael. No one knew what was happening, but something was happening and even Booth could smell that.
They were walking to the "Founding Fathers" when she started the talk.
"Booth, what happens if we find out we wanna go to another level?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean us. You know, I said we should give this a shot. What if I really want to give this a shot?"
"Then we'll give this a shot."
"But, what if there is something that will keep you with me just because this something is a part of you too?"
"I'm not following your logic, Bones. But I don't need anything to keep me with you. I love you and that's good enough for me, Bones. Isn't that good enough for you?"
"It is…"
"So, why are you talking like that?"
"Because… Because… I'm, I'm pregnant, Booth. You're the father."
Booth put a smile the size of the world in his face. He moved towards Brennan and kissed her. She completely understood that it meant he was staying with her no matter what.
She was happy, they were happy and they were going to be the happiest family ever.
Booth took Brennan's hand while they were heading to the "Founding Fathers". Suddenly, she realized she had to ask him something.
"What about Parker?"
"What about Parker, Bones?"
"What are we going to tell him?"
"That you're pregnant?"
"You can't just say that…"
"Why not?"
"Because no one, except Angela, knows that we are together."
"Well, Bones, they'll have to know. We'll have to tell them when you think you're ready to. Because I'm ready. Now, let's go. You must be starving and you're eating for two now, so, chop-chop.".
Booth wrapped his hand around her waist and lead her to their favorite table in that restaurant.