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Chapter 9

"See you tomorrow." Jude kept replaying Tommy's voice in her head. Maybe he was telling the truth when he said he was back for good.

It was 8:15am, and Jude was laying in the bed. She had to be at the studio in 15 minutes, but she didn't feel like getting up. But someone else was going to make her get up. Just then, the doorbell rang. Jude sighed and turned over. Then the doorbell rang again. She put the pillow over her head. Then it rang again and then she heard knocking. "I am going to kill whoever this is!" she said, walking down the stairs. She yanked the door open.

"Hey Angel of the morning! You need a ride to work?" Jamie asked.

"Ugh! Jamie I'm not going!"

"Sure you are. Now run along and get dressed." Jamie told her.

"I don't feel like going. I don't have a song in me today."

"Songs are like babies. Every second, one is born."

Jude looked away from him. She never told him about Tyler, her baby that was never born.

"So, come on Harrison."

Jude went upstairs to get ready, since Jamie apparently wouldn't leave without her. And there was the fact that she left her car in the G-Major parking lot, so she needed the ride to work.

…G-Major…

"Where's Jude?" Tommy asked Kwest, as he was setting up the sound board in studio A.

"She's always late." Kwest responded.

"And Darius is okay with that?"

"A lot has changed while you were gone T. Jude is still sad over her break-up with David, so Darius gives her a break every once in a while. I think he's getting soft." Kwest laughed.

"Ha, Darius, soft? He made me come to work early and I had to bring him coffee. So, what can you tell me about this David guy? Why did he and Jude break up?"

"I'm not really sure. Jude said something about how they wanted different things, so they decided to break up. But we know how Jude is, so that's not the truth. They did go on a vacation to Miami for a few months, but they broke up, so Jude came back. Speaking of, here she comes now." Kwest and Tommy looked towards the entrance as Jude walked in with Jamie trailing behind her. She had on a hoodie with the hood pulled down and sunglasses. Tommy was nervously tugging at his shirt, trying to look his best for her.

Jamie escorted Jude into studio A just in case she tried to make a run for it. There they were, face to face. Jude and Tommy. Tommy stared at Jude while she was looking away trying to find something to focus on. Jamie and Kwest were feeling uncomfortable with the awkward silence

"Sub!" Kwest blurted out.

Everyone looked at him strange.

"That sounds delicious. Let's go make some." Jamie agreed with Kwest. They both ran out of the studio and went into hospitality to make a submarine sandwich.

"That was weird." Tommy spoke up, breaking the silence. "So, what song are we working on today?"

"I don't really feel like singing." Jude said in a whisper.

Tommy looked at her confused. Since when did she not sing? And even if she didn't want to sing, she would still at least write a couple of lyrics. Trying to interact with her more, Tommy spoke again.

"Okay, since you don't feel like singing, let's talk about last night. What was that about?"

Jude looked down at the floor. "That was nothing. I was just tired and I wanted to go home."

Tommy thought back to last night. She was in a panic and she cried in the limo. The thing that bothered Tommy the most was when he tried to get close to her, she jumped back as if she was scared that he was going to hurt her. He thought he was making a big deal out of everything. Maybe she was just tired. There's only one way to find out. Tommy leaned forward to Jude.

Jude watched Tommy as he was thinking. Sometimes David would get quiet, as if he was thinking on how to inflict pain on Jude. Tommy leaned forward to Jude and she quickly jumped, trying to find a comfortable and safe distance between each other.

There it goes again. She just jumped when I tried to get close to her. What the hell? Does she seriously think I would hurt her? Tommy thought in his head. He looked at Jude, who was now frightened.

"What's wrong girl? You know I won't hurt you." Tommy said in a soft voice.

Jude saw his soft expression, but looks can be deceiving. David taught her that. "You already did Quincy. You hurt me when you left me three years ago."

Tommy knew they were going to have this conversation at some point. "It wasn't my choice Jude. I didn't want to leave you."

"Then why did you leave? Because, if you actually cared about me, you wouldn't have left." Jude yelled at him.

"There was something important I had to do. And you know I care about you!" Tommy raised his voice. How dare she question my care and my love for her!

Hospitality

Kwest and Jamie were in hospitality watching Jude and Tommy yell at each other.

"They're putting those soundproof windows to work, eh." Jamie said as he watched the animated two.

"They're back. Just like the good ole' days" Kwest said as he smirked at Jude and Tommy yelling. Then he bit his sandwich.

…Back in the studio…

"What was so important that you couldn't call me for three years, huh Tommy? Did you find a Boyz Attack groupie and try to turn her into a housewife?"

"What about you? Everywhere I looked you were on the cover of some magazine with that guy!"

"Well at least that guy wanted me." Jude started crying. She wasn't sure if what she just said was true. Did David really want me? If he did, he wouldn't have hurt me like he did.

"I wanted you!" Tommy yelled

"If you wanted me, you wouldn't have left and I wouldn't have met David. And he wouldn't have…" Jude stopped in mid-sentence and began to cry harder.

Tommy calmed down from yelling and he looked at Jude. "He wouldn't have what, Jude?"

Jude leaned against the door and started hyperventilating. Tommy was scared to get close to her because it would just make the situation worse.

"What did he do to you?" Tommy asked.

"I...I can't brrrr...eathe." Jude collapsed to the floor.

"Jude? Jude? Can you hear me?" Tommy opened the studio door and yelled for someone to help.

Sadie rushed from the receptionist desk. "What happened?" she held Jude's hand.

Darius came from his office when he heard the commotion. "What's going on here?"

"I'm calling 911 right now Kwest informed them."

"She started hyperventilating and she said she couldn't breathe and she fell to the floor." Tommy explained to Sadie.

"Hold on Jude. We're going to get you some help." Sadie assured her unconscious little sister.

The ambulance came right away and they whisked Jude away to the hospital with Sadie riding in the back with her, and everyone else following in their cars.

The Hospital

Everyone waited in the waiting room. The TV was on: Celebrity News reports that Instant Star, Jude Harrison was rushed to Toronto General earlier today. A source says that she had a series of intense seizures. We hope there is no foul play. Maybe all of the partying is catching up with her. Get well soon. Kyle threw his drumstick at the TV, turning it off. Sadie went to a room to get a signal on her cell phone. She called her parents to let them know what happened. It was pointless because they were both out of town. Spied, Kyle and Wally played card games. Jamie was laying in Patsy's lap, worried about his best friend. He didn't know what was going on with her lately, and he felt helpless. Kwest went into the other room to comfort Sadie, who was now crying. And Tommy held his face in his hands. He kept replaying their conversation in his head. "Well at least that guy wanted me." "I wanted you!" "If you wanted me, you wouldn't have left and I wouldn't have met David. And he wouldn't have…" What was she trying to tell me? Think Tommy think! He was racking his brain trying to figure Jude out.

"The people for Jude Harrison?" a nurse called out. Tommy quickly stood up. "Are you related to Ms. Harrison?" the nurse asked Tommy. Sadie walked over to the nurse. "I'm her sister." Just then, Shay walked into the waiting area. Everyone turned to look at him. "Sorry I'm late." he said. Tommy scowled at him.

"Come with me miss." the nurse told Sadie. They went to the room Jude was in. "We've examined her, she should be fine. She might be sleep for a while. We're going to keep her for a few days to monitor her. But there is one thing that we are concerned about. Has she had any alternatives for her condition, since she isn't taking the prescribed medication?" Sadie looked at the nurse, very confused. "What condition? What medication?" Now it was the nurse's turn to look confused. The nurse looked at Jude's chart. "Jude Harrison was diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. She was given medication, but we couldn't find any in her system."

"I didn't know she had Post- Traumatic Stress. I mean she's depressed sometimes, but who isn't? When was she diagnosed?"

The nurse looked at the chart again. "She was diagnosed after her pregnancy."

Sadie's jaw dropped. She looked at Jude, laying there in the bed. The nurse was being paged to the nurses' station. "Excuse me for a moment." and the nurse left the room. Her pregnancy? My little sister had a baby? Why didn't I know any of this? Sadie thought. She rubbed Jude's face and began to cry, so she left the room, not wanting to wake up Jude. Kwest saw Sadie in the hallway crying. He ran over to her. Tommy noticed this and he followed Kwest.

"What did the nurse say?" Tommy asked.

Sadie got out of Kwest' hug and began to yell at Tommy. "You asshole! Why didn't you tell me about Jude's condition?" Sadie wasn't thinking clearly, so she lashed out at Tommy. She thought Jude was pregnant with Tommy's baby. It never dawned on her that Tommy had just gotten back yesterday.

"What are you talking about?" Tommy said.

Shay heard what Sadie said, and he rushed over to them. "Sadie calm down. It's not Tommy. It doesn't have anything to do with him."

Sadie looked at Shay with realization. "It's you isn't it? Why didn't you or Jude tell me?" Now, Sadie thought it was Shay's baby.

"What the hell is going on here?" Kwest and Tommy both asked.

All of the commotion attracted the rest of the G-Major crew. Everyone was standing by Jude's door trying to figure out what's going on. The nurse came to ask them to leave because they were too loud.

"I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what's going on with my sister!" Sadie yelled.

"Is Jude going to be okay?" Tommy asked the nurse.

"She is going to be fine. Now clear the hallway or I will be forced to call security." the nurse told all of them.

Everyone began clearing out. "Call me and let me know how she's doing." Spied told Sadie before they left. Sadie nodded. Tommy looked into Jude's hospital room one last time before he headed for the exit.

"I want you to tell me everything Shay." Sadie demanded.

"I can't tell you." Shay reasoned with her.

"I'm her sister!"

"I know, but it's not my place to tell. Jude will have to tell you." Shay was Jude's confidant, and he wouldn't jeopardize that for anything in the world. He exited the hospital.

Sadie cried into Kwest' chest. He took her over to a chair and sat her down, and he went to talk to the nurse about letting them stay.

"Ma'am it's just me and her, and she will not sleep until her sister talks to her. So, she wants to be here when Jude wakes up."

"Sir, I can't have chaos in the hospital. So, if you can hold the drama down, I'll let you and her stay."

"Thank you. I really appreciate your help." Kwest shook the nurse hand and returned to Sadie. "We can stay with Jude." Kwest told her.

"Thank you so much!" Sadie kissed him.

"Anything for you babe."

They walked to Jude's room. She was still asleep. They made themselves comfortable on the sofa like chair by the window. Kwest rubbed Sadie's back as they stared out of the window at the stars. After Kwest was sure that Sadie was asleep, he said goodnight to Jude and he too drifted off.

Morning at Hospital

Jude began tossing and turning in her sleep. "Stop it please!" "Baby I'm sorry." "It's my fault!" Jude's outburst woke Kwest and Sadie up.

"What's wrong with her?" Kwest asked Sadie.

"I'm sorry. Okay? It is my fault" Jude yelled in her sleep.

"I don't know." Sadie replied. She got up and went over to the bed. She shook Jude slightly, while calling her name. "Jude. Jude. Wake up, you're having a nightmare."

Jude opened her eyes and tears came streaming down. "Sadie!" Jude yelled her sister's name in relief.

"I'm here Jude." Sadie hugged her sister tight. Kwest watched as the two sisters cried in each other's arms. He went over to them. "Hey Star, how are you feeling?"

"My head hurts. Where am I?"

"You're at the hospital Jude. You don't remember what happened yesterday?" Sadie asked.

Jude thought for a minute. "I remember Jamie dragging me to work. Me and Tommy talked. That's all I remember."

"You collapsed on the floor. We were all so worried about you." Kwest told her.

"That probably explains the headache." Jude said.

Sadie looked at Jude. She wanted to talk to her about what the nurse told her yesterday. "Kwest, baby can you let us talk alone?"

"Sure. I'll bring back some breakfast. Any requests?" he asked.

"Pop-Tarts." Jude said. Kwest laughed, knowing that Jude was getting back to her normal self.

"Anything is fine." Sadie said. Kwest nodded and left the room.

Sadie took a deep breath. "Jude what happened to you?"

"Uh, I fell. Did you not hear Kwest say that?" she replied.

"No, I'm not talking about that. You were just screaming in your sleep like someone was hurting you, and…"

Jude cut Sadie off. "It was a nightmare. We all have them. No big deal." Jude was getting annoyed.

"And the nurse told me some things that I didn't know. Some things that you are keeping from me. Do you want to tell me what the nurse was talking about?"

"It depends. What did the nurse tell you?"

"Well for starters, you're not taking some medicine that was prescribed for your Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. And imagine my surprise, when I found out you were pregnant! What the hell is going on with you?"

Jude looked shocked.

The phone rang…

Jude quickly answered the phone to avoid Sadie's questions. "Hello?"

"Hey girl, how are you feeling?" Tommy asked.

"I'm okay." Jude said.

"Hmmm" Sadie cleared her throat, signaling Jude to hang up the phone.

"That's good. You scared me. I didn't know what was happening to you." Tommy said with concern in his voice.

"I didn't mean to scare you." Jude said.

"Look, about yesterday, I'm sorry for what I said." Tommy began to apologize.

"Don't worry about it. We both said things we didn't mean."

Sadie grabbed the phone from Jude's hand. "Hello?" "Yeah?" "Tommy?" "Yeah?" "Jude can't talk right now. Bye." She hung up the phone.

"Now, where were we? Oh yes, your pregnancy."

"Is this IV really necessary? It kinda hurts." Jude said tugging at her arm and tugging away from Sadie's conversation.

"Jude this is serious. When were you pregnant?" Sadie asked.

"Where is Kwest with those Pop-Tarts?" Jude wondered. Sadie gave her a mean glare.

"It was over a year ago." she said quietly.

"Is the baby, Shay's?"

"No. David's."

"But you and David broke up."

"Yeah."

"So, you and David have a baby even though you aren't together?"

"No."

"No, what?"

"We don't have a baby." Jude said, on the verge of tears.

"You got an abortion?"

"God, No!"

"Okay, I'm not following." Sadie said, with a confused look on her face."

"You remember when David and I went to Miami?"

"Yeah."

"Before we left, I was sick. And I didn't think anything of it. When we got to Miami, I realized that I missed my period. I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. David and I went to the doctor and confirmed my pregnancy. We found out we were having a boy." Jude said, as the tears begin to fall.

"My nephew", Sadie said as she patted her shoulder.

"Do you remember when we talked on the phone? David and I were going to a basketball game."

Sadie nodded her head "yes".

Jude took a deep breath before she continued.

"After the game, we were driving to the condo, when a car, running the red light, hit us."

"Oh my god!" Sadie gasped.

"The car hit the passenger side where I was sitting. All I can remember is David calling my name, asking if I was okay. I saw so much blood, but I didn't know where it was coming from. I was so scared Sadie." Sadie handed Jude a tissue to wipe her nose.

"I heard sirens and I guess I blacked out because when I woke up again I was in a hospital bed. David was sleep in the chair next to me. He looked so bad. He had stitches and bruises everywhere. I looked at myself and my leg was in a cast, and I had cuts and bruises too. But I didn't care about that. All I cared about was my baby. I felt my stomach and this might sound crazy, but it felt empty, like I knew my baby was gone."

Sadie was in tears as her little sister told her story.

"I started screaming because I didn't want to believe that my baby was gone. I guess I woke David up. When I looked at him, he gave me the saddest look. I wanted him to tell me, so he did. He said that our baby was gone." Jude cried.

"I'm so sorry Jude. Why didn't you ever tell me? I would have been there for you." Sadie said.

"I got pregnant with a guy I had been seeing for a year and a half. I didn't want anyone to judge me. I didn't know what to do. We had Tyler buried and we cleaned out the nursery."

"You named him Tyler." Sadie said with a smile. "I like that name."

Jude pulled the top of her hospital gown down a little bit, to show Sadie her tattoo Tyler

"I liked it too." Jude said with a small smile. "After all of that happened, David and I started arguing more. Sometimes, he…" Jude paused and took another deep breath. She didn't realize that telling this story would make her re-live those hurtful and painful memories. Sadie looked at her. "What did he do?"

"Sometimes, he hit me." she said in a scared whisper.

"What do you mean 'hit you'?" Sadie angrily said.

"He hit me, smacked me, punched me, and kicked me, anything you can think of, he did it. One time we had this horrible fight. He came home drunk again. He came into the guest room where I was sleeping and pushed me out of the bed. He accused me of moving his car an inch in the driveway. I mean, how pathetic is that?" Jude asked, as she laughed through her tears. "I didn't even move his car, and when I told him that, he kicked me, while I was still on the floor. He really did damage that night. The doctor said I had a broken rib." More tears streamed down Jude's face and Sadie was completely shaken with the abuse that her little sister had to endure.

"Oh my god Jude! I really wish you would've told me. But that makes me a bad sister because I didn't know all of this. Jude I am so sorry!" Sadie apologized, while she was still crying.

"Sadie it's not your fault. You didn't know." Jude hugged her sister.

"And it's not your fault either." Sadie told Jude.

"Maybe it is. Maybe this was payback for something bad that I did."

"NO Jude! What happened to you was NOT your fault. Nobody deserves to go through what you went through."

"So, to sum it all up, I didn't want to see a therapist anymore, because it wasn't helping me. So, I was prescribed some anti-depressants. Whenever I feel like I'm feeling right now, I'm supposed to take the pills to calm me down. Or, I'll end up in here."

"Jude don't ever feel like you can't talk to me. I promise I won't judge you. I'll always be here for you. I love you." Sadie hugged Jude again.

Jude embraced the hug. "Thanks Sadie. I love you too."

Kwest walked in with two big bags of breakfast items. He saw Sadie and Jude hugging and crying. "Is everything okay?"

"No, but it will be." Jude said as she smiled at Sadie.

After a few hours of keeping Jude company, Kwest had to go to G-Major. Tommy had been working with most of the artists all day, so Kwest was going to relieve Tommy, so Tommy could come and visit Jude.

"I have to go for a couple of hours too." Sadie said. "But I'll be back, okay?" Sadie gave her a worried look.

"Sadie stop worrying, I'll be fine." Jude assured.

Kwest and Sadie both gave her a kiss on the head and left. Jude watched TV for a half hour but she was tired from her breakthrough with Sadie earlier, so she laid back in the bed to get some rest. There was a knock at the door.

"Come in." she said, guessing it was Tommy.

"Hey baby. Did you miss me?" David asked as he walked closer to her.

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