Unrequited Feelings

I woke up at ten am, to the perfectly clean Dormitory. Had we really had a party in here last night? I just assumed that it was the Hogwarts House Elves that had cleaned the place up. I was still shattered from the late night but I had to get out on my daily run round the grounds of Hogwarts. I was going to have to make up some lost time, as yesterday I was with Al all day. I put on my muggle t-shirt and the tracksuit bottoms that I had got from a muggle shop when Harry had taken Al and me there. Dad didn't really approve of muggle shops, so he didn't know about these clothes and I definitely didn't intend for him to find out.

I walked passed Al's sleeping body, looking so peaceful, his jet black hair even messier than usual which was pretty hard to achieve. I looked into his emerald eyes and all the memories of last night seemed to rush into my mind. Of the party that moved up to our Dormitory, and Domi suggesting a game of spin the bottle. Then the kisses. Molly, Domi and if I thought the kiss with Domi was bad enough it didn't even compare to the kiss between Al and I. I groaned in embarrassment and regret, before remembering he was the one who had insisted on it.

I jogged around the grounds slowly as I remembered his hot lips against mine, his warm hand to my chest. My hands in his jet black hair. I shivered slightly at the pure bliss of the memory almost feeling the warmth against me. I had to stop myself though. I wasn't gay. I was the son of Draco Malfoy and grandson of Lucius Malfoy. I was straight. The warmth I felt was probably just the summer's air and as for last night, I had to, it was spin the bottle! Then again I would do anything to be back in his arms…

"Stop it Scorpius." I muttered as I ran along. It wasn't like he'd remember he was probably too stoned to know his own name. He didn't mean it, and nor did I! Some of the second years who were studying for their end of year exams looked up and gave me a concerned look, but I ignored it, fondly remembering the times that I spent in second year studying with Al. It was hard to get him to do any work, he was too busy catching his snitch, being the Slytherin Seeker he was always practising, mainly because his brother, James Potter was the Gryffindor Seeker and he refused to lose against him. I was keeper for the team. But now Quidditch season was over I ran to keep in shape. I liked having a six pack and I didn't want to lose it anytime soon.

I finished my run and went up to the Prefect's Bathroom and saying the password of, "Soap Bubbles" (I didn't chose it); I entered and ran a hot bath, with as much soap as I could put in. I had to wait for a while to give it time to fill up and I got my breath back, sitting down hunched up in a small ball, trying to forget Al's cute laugh replaying in my brain. I loved it, it was so sweet and it was contagious, that was another reason why I loved it, when he laughed even if it was only him who found it funny everyone else in the room would also laugh. And when he smiled I loved the way that his green eyes sparkled. It made my stomach lurch thinking of it, especially when he flashed his pearly white teeth at me.

It was ready so I stripped and went in and started to swim laps in the incredibly big bath. I'm not sure that I'd call it a bath really; it was more like a swimming pool so it was perfect to relax in. I stayed in the bath for around 20 minutes before getting up. "Ignis ispiratione!" I called out and a blast of fire came out from my wand, completely drying me and warming me up significantly. I put my Slytherin robes back on and walked out of the bathroom down to the Common Room, I had some homework to finish which was quite unusual for me, I normally finished it on the Friday night but then again I guess I had Al's party to arrange.

When I got in I saw Al, getting dressed, his shirt of revealing his toned pale body. I'd seen it many times before but my cheeks still reddened. I didn't want to keep watching him unnoticed, it felt wrong to do that to my best friend so I decided to make him aware of my presence. "Hi Al. Enjoy your birthday?" I said smiling as he turned, his gaze meeting mine.

"Yeah thanks, great party. Sorry about Domi, she gets carried away, I know you didn't want to kiss me-"

"Oh, you remember then." I asked swallowing hard.

"Yeah, I wasn't that drunk, come on Scorp! But you know we should probably just forget about it, you're my best friend and nothing more, and we're both straight, so…" Al started but he didn't know what to say, so instead he just started scratching his head. I couldn't help but look down at his beautiful body. I wanted to have his lips on mine and feel his nice body, but we were both straight, or at least he was definitely. I was just confused, it was just a phase!

"Yeah, sorry. I'll be headed off then, you know, homework to do, people to see." I awkwardly said making my way to my bed where all my work was. Al was standing in my way and I stood there for a moment, inches away from his bare chest, fighting the urge to touch his body, then moved to get my books, quickly running out.

I felt rejected, hurt, betrayed. I wanted to cry but I wouldn't cry, I was a Slytherin. I walked to the library as quick as I could, bumping into Rose, who was looking far more sober, her tangle of red hair tied up in a pony tail. "Scorp?" she asked, sounding concerned, "Are you ok?"

I couldn't help myself, I burst into tears. I didn't know what was happening to me, why I was feeling all this. It was all so confusing. "Hey." She soothed, putting down her books, "Do you wanna go somewhere a little more private?"

I looked up with red eyes, tears pouring down my face and nodded in response. She put her arm around my back and led me to the next corridor. A door appeared which I had never noticed before. Rose looked around before opening it to show a small but cosy room, which a fire, two big comfortable looking seats and a books shelf. "What?" I asked shocked, forgetting my troubles for a moment.

"It's the Room of Requirement. Otherwise known as the Come and Go room, I come here often. My mum told me about it and whenever I want to get away from the hustle and bustle of the Common Room I come here to read." she explained.

"Hustle and bustle? I heard the Ravenclaw Common Room's quite quiet."

"Not when Andrew Smith is asking you out every minute of the day!"

I never knew that. I knew that Rose was quite pretty of course, taking after her mother (or attractive to other boys) yet I didn't know all the boys asked her out. Especially that rotten Andrew Smith! I sniffed, feeling a bit better and not so angry and upset with Al.

"So, you going to tell me what's up?" she asked, sitting down on a chair. I sat on the other and looked at her blue eyes.

"Well, there's this person I like, but they don't really like me back." I said remembering to leave out that it was a guy and not just any guy, but her cousin. There, I had just admitted it. I liked Albus Potter, but that didn't make me gay.

"Aww! That's so sweet. So who's this girl? Do I know her?" she asked, sounding genuinely interested.

"Well, I think you know him, or at least I hope you do!" I said. I didn't realise that I had let it slip until it was too late. I put my hand over my mouth as she gasped. Shit, this wasn't going too well. I had just come out to Rose Weasley and I didn't even know that I was really gay yet myself.

"You're gay?" she managed to comprehend.

"Shit! Sorry shouldn't have said that. I'm going now, see you." I said quickly getting up and leaving the room. I ran as fast as I could, looking back to see her trying to chase after me, but she couldn't get me in the Slytherin Common Room. I could stay in there all my life. I went to my bed, hid under the covers and started to weep. Why did I always mess everything up…