Restless Nights

Al's POV

I lay awake the covers back thinking of Scorp. Just thinking about him made me feel uncomfortable. It wasn't him as such, it was more the way I felt about him. The way my stomach lurched every time I saw him. The electricity that flew down my body when even just our hands touched. I kept replaying our kiss in my head, the thing that had made me mad for him and not being able to get him out of my head for past week. I wanted his hands back into my hair, pulling me closer, I wanted my hands to be on his hot chest again feeling around his warm and most of all I wanted his tongue back in my mouth. I moaned quietly at the memory.

He thought I was really pissed when we'd kissed and that I didn't know what I was doing but I wasn't that bad, I kissed him because I wanted to, I had wanted to try it for weeks. It wasn't how it was meant to be when I kissed a girl, but with Scorp it had felt so good and so right. He wasn't gay though. He wasn't a queer like me. I tried to find excuses on why with Scorp the kiss been so good but I couldn't so I had just stopped trying. I had to accept that had a crush on him. Because now even being in the same room as him drove me mad. Both our curtains being open I looked over at his bare chest, rigidly going up and down as I heard the breaths. He started hugging the sheets and I could make out him whispering in a groan, "Al."

My heart skipped a beat as he said my name. My name! I looked at him, just wanting to go and snuggle up close to him and share his body heat. But he was probably just having a nightmare or something; this didn't mean he liked me. All the same I stopped thinking what Uncle Ron would do if he ever found out that I liked Malfoy (it had been bad enough when he saw me in my Slytherin robes) and lay down, falling asleep in the tangle of sheets. That night I dreamt of a pale blond haired boy snogging me again. I woke up with a throbbing cock and face red with embarrassment…

"Al, come on I need to speak to you!" whined Rose as I sat in the Great Hall. Scorpius was out for his run at this time so I had just sat with a few of my other Slytherin friends before my older cousin had so kindly interrupted.

"What do you want to talk about, why not here?" I complained.

"Not here Al, I need to speak to you in private. Just come on!" she said.

Getting up, I gave her a look of annoyance before sighing and just saying to her, "Well this better be worth it."

She dragged me along to the Room of Requirement. I had never been in it but I had heard about it from her on many occasions. Apparently dad used to run a Defence Group in there but I wasn't that talkative with dad. We kind of just acknowledged each other and gave each other our personal space, or since I'd been sorted into Slytherin. I could tell he was kind of disappointed. James had always been dad's favourite anyway. He was the oldest so of course he was. Then Lily was his second favourite because one, she was in Gryffindor and two, she was the youngest. Then I was his least favourite. Mum fortunately didn't have any favourites.

Uncle Ron hated me though, but I suppose not everyone can get along. He just didn't seem to understand why I was in Slytherin. I was a Potter! Anyway I walked into the room which had a sofa with a roaring fire next to it. She sat down and so did I. She was the first to break the silence, "Al we need to talk, about some certain feelings..."

"What? What feelings?" I asked, baffled about what she was going on about this time.

"Come on Al we both know that you're gay!" Rose said like it was obvious.

"Who says? I'm not gay!" I exclaimed, how in the name of Merlin did she know that. Was it really that obvious? But this was Rose Weasley the cleverest girl in existence.

"Well for one when was the last time you had a girlfriend?" she said very matter of factly.

"Loads of people don't have girlfriends and they're still straight? You've never had a boyfriend, does that make you lesbian?" I replied quickly.

Rose said, ignoring my response, "Secondly you kissed Scorpius for far too long. And you ended up taking his shirt off. Did you do that to Rachael when you kissed her? Come on Al your hands were all over him!" I just stared blankly as she continued, "Last of all I've seen the way you look at Scorp. The way you turn red whenever he says anything. You fancy him!"

I just stared back, not being able to reply, I didn't want to lie to Rose anymore. She wouldn't tell. "Maybe I am gay! I don't know what it is about Scorp but I'm mad for him. I can't get him out of my head. I admit it, that I love Scorpius Hyperion Malfoy!" I shouted that last part before feeling like shit. I loved him. And he didn't love me back.

Rose just laughed noticing my sad expression. "Oh cheer up Ally!"

"Stop it. I'm gay whatever. Call me a poof, a queer. I love Scorp, take the piss out of me; take the piss that he'll never love me back. You fancy him too anyway. But I knew you wouldn't understand!" I said, trying not to cry. Slytherins didn't cry.

"I'm not laughing at that. It's just that you don't realise anything do you?" she said.

"What? What am I not getting in this all? Just tell me already." I moaned. I always moaned when people new things I didn't. I liked to know everything and be up to date with all the gossip about me. I didn't care about the gossip about anyone else, which was nothing to do with me.

"Scorp likes you, you twat! What do you think that we've been talking about?" Rose explained. My heart thumped as she said this. Scorp liked me? Scorp was gay?

"He's just been saying that you said that you fancy him. But he did say he had his eyes on someone…" I trailed off. I couldn't find words to express my shock. He liked me.

"That was you. You're such a prick. How hard was it to notice? You two have been practically drooling over each other!" Rose said rolling her eyes at me.

"You're not just messing with me then? You're actually telling me that Scorp likes me?" I exclaimed in disbelief.

"Yeah! Do I look like I'm pulling your leg? He likes you lover boy."

"So do you think he may go out with me?" I asked. I imagined having a boyfriend, not just any boyfriend but Scorp. I was still trying to get over the shock that he liked me back.

"'Course he will. He's mad about you." She smiled.

"I'm going to find him! I can't believe he likes me!" I said gleefully, getting up and heading towards the door.

"Al, just not in public. I know him and he doesn't want people to know that he's gay and I'm sure you don't either. You're Harry Potter's son everyone knows everything about you. I accept it, I'm completely fine with it but some people might not like you for it." Rose said, worrying about me, after all this time. She'd always been the one to worry about me. Always looking out for me. I couldn't have wished for a better cousin. Even if she could get a bit annoying.

"Yeah, yeah, I know all that. I just need to go and see Scorp! I need him to know. I swear I won't tell anyone until he wants people to know. I'm not stupid." I exclaimed before leaving and running up to the Prefect's Bathroom. That's where Scorp always went after his run. I just hoped that he hadn't already left…