A/N: Oh the drama! Well, I would like to thank you all for your very nice reviews! :) And well that's pretty much it. Now on to this story . . . .

My Savior, Or Something Else?

I blinked my eyes open to a starry haze. My body felt, not exactly weak, but very exhausted. I hardly had the strength to stand up.

My head felt dizzy. What exactly was happening? I was seeing stars? Wait . . . I was seeing stars. That could only mean one thing. I was in StarClan. Well I always figured when I died go to heaven. Though, I hadn't really pictured this heaven, but I was dead nevertheless. Strange, I didn't feel dead. Are you this exhausted when you're dead? Odd.

A wind gust by me, and then a grey she-cat appeared. I smiled. "Hi Bluestar, figured I see you up here."

Her face was . . . angry? Why would she angry to see me? But then again, who wasn't angry to see me?

"You're a fool . . ."

My eyes widened. "What?"

"You're a fool," she repeated. "A stubborn fool." She sighed, looking at the ground. "However, you're much too important to lose."

"Wait what?" What on earth was she talking about?

"You," she said, jabbing me with her tail. "How can you do something like that? Drown yourself purposely in the lake! Thankfully I sent help in time."

I let out a huff. "Why? Why did you send help? I wanted to die! I had no purpose down there anymore!"

"Yes you do!" Bluestar's fur bristled in anger. "Violetmoon you without a doubt one of the most important things down there, both to the clan and the world!"

"Well it certainly appears not," I mumbled. "Mother Gana hates me, my parents don't want me, even Firestar suggested I should leave ThunderClan. Yeah, I'm sure important alright."

Bluestar sat down. "So you've made a few mistakes and now a lot of people are mad at you. Welcome that's life. No body's perfect. You know how many mistakes Firestar's made in his life? I'm sure you would know that by now."

I did. Reading the first six books of warriors I knew very well of the things Firestar had done in his younger years.

"And your parents? I'm pretty sure they made a lot of mistakes growing up."

Yeah they have. I was one of them. And they almost never let me forget.

"Even Mother Gana, the great Spirit that she is, has made a few errors in her time."

That caught my attention. I looked at the old leader. "Like what?"

Bluestar shrugged. "It's not really my place, but I feel maybe you should know before this question drives you mad. As I can tell you know the full story about Sol, yes?"

I nodded.

"That Spirit, the one who changed Sol without the orders of the other Spirits, was Mother Gana. She pities all half-Spirits, seeing them as confused creatures. That thought is what drove her to cast the spell on Sol. She thought that would eventually change his heart. But she was wrong now wasn't she? Every day she lives in painful regret for not letting him die. Even to this day, Mother Gana still dreads on it."

It was her! Mother Gana cursed Sol! But she's such a smart and powerful Spirit, why would she do something so stupid? Then again . . . . I was stupid enough to go with Tigerstar and release those evil spirits.

"Was she ever punished?" I asked. "Mother Gana, did they ever punish her?"

"Not exactly," Bluestar responded. "In a way, Mother Gana punished herself. She imprisoned herself in the Spirit World for two centuries, and then finally came back to this world."

"So she never gave up completely?"

Bluestar shook her head. "Of course not. Violetmoon we learn from our mistakes. The more we make, the more we learn. There's a saying I've heard the Spirits say before that they got from humans. Oh, what was it? Something, spilt milk."

"Don't cry over spilt milk."

"Yes," she said. "Oh Violetmoon." Her voice turned smooth like silk, and she wrapped a comforting tail around my shoulder. "Things might've looked bad, but that only means they'll soon get better. We all must live through hard times-that's life. I know for a fact that Mother Gana isn't angry at you, and that your parents love you, and that if you show Firestar who you really are, he'll regret even thinking of suggesting you leave the clan. You've hit a bump in the road. Bumps don't go forever."

I broke down and began to cry. Oh my God! She was right! Oh how could I be such a drama queen? A bump in the road, that was it. My life wasn't really over, it just so happens that this chain of events were happening right after another. But these were things I could always just fix. School, I could always get Mary back. Friends, well I can't really trust them, besides, I had real friends in the clan. Mother Gana, if I talked to her maybe I can get her to understand why I went off with Tigerstar. Firestar, I just needed to prove to him I wasn't violent like most rogues would be, and prove to him that all his warriors were safe around me.

Holy crap! I wanted to just hit myself right now. These were answers to my problems, not drowning myself in the lake! Oh my God!

"Am I dead?" I shouted. "Please tell me I saved in time!"

Bluestar smiled. "Now this is the smart Violetmoon we all know. No, you were saved just in time. At the moment, you're just unconscious."

I let out a huge sigh of relief. "Oh thank you! For everything! Sorry, but I really need to go now."

Bluestar stood up. "Don't let me stop you. Don't let anyone stop you." And she dissolved into the haze.

The starry haze around me began to disappear, and I felt as if I was being thrust by a wind. Everything around me was black. It was as if someone just picked me up and dropped me in a black hole. As I dropped farther and farther, I began to see light. I zoomed towards it, heading straight into it.

At first everything was foggy. But soon as my vision cleared up, I could see the lake, the dark portal it was before I stepped into it. My fur was soaked and weighed my to the ground. As I slowly breathed, I coughed up water, gallons of it.

A gentile paw rested on my back. "Easy," a voice said.

I turned my head slowly. Standing next to me was Blackstar. I coughed again. "What-" Cough, cough, cough.

He rubbed my back gently. "You need to relax. There's a lot of water in your chest. You had quite a swim."

I blinked. "How do you that? And-" Cough. "-how did you know I was drowning?"

He sighed. "Please don't think this is weird, but I sort of . . . felt it. I was in my nest when I got a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. So I decided to walk it off. As I was getting ready to head back, I heard a lot of splashing from the lake. When I saw you I . . ." His eyes clouded with something I couldn't detect. "I went in to get you. You gave me a little bit of a scare there. I thought for a second you were gone."

My stomach fluttered with butterflies. He saved me. Blackstar saved me. We just sat there looking at each other for a minute. I blushed a bit and looked away.

He cleared his throat. "Okay, now it's my turn. Why were you in the lake?"

Now it was my turn to be a tad bit embarrassed. "With all honestly . . . I was being a bit down."

"What?" Blackstar stared at me in confusion. "And so you went for a swim?"

I squirmed in my spot. "Sort of . . ." There was no way I was going to tell him that I was trying to kill myself. But I didn't want to lie to him. Whoa what? Why would I care if I lied to him? He was Blackstar, leader of ShadowClan. But then again, why was he trying to save me? Oh wait, I still have to answer his question.

"Well, you see," I explained. "I was feeling bad, there was all this drama in my life. So I came down here to the lake. You see, nature calms me, I thought maybe if I just put my paws in then I would relax. But I slipped and tumbled into the waters. Thank StarClan you came when you did or else I would be stuck at the bottom of that lake by now."

He stiffened a bit, but smiled. "I'm glad you're safe."

I smiled at him. "Now I have another question for you."

"Is this a game now?"

We both laughed. "But seriously," I said. "Why did you go into the water and save me? I remember at the Gathering you said you were scarred of water?"

Blackstar down at his paws, then back to me. "I stumbled on the thought, but in the end I decided to face my fears and rescue you. Innocents don't cats deserve to die by drowning."

"You almost drowned once, didn't you?"

The leader fell silent. I gasped a tiny bit. "Oh I'm sorry! I didn't mean to offend you or anything!"

He shook his head. "You didn't. It's just that I haven't thought about it in a while."

"Oh," I said. "Well it's painful for you to remember then you don't have to tell me."

"No," he said. "I think someone should know. When I was a young kit my camp got attacked by another clan. It was a deadly ambush. I got sacred and escaped from the nursery, running out of the camp. There was a thick fog that day and I was running fast, so I hardly saw anything in front of me. Next thing I knew, I was diving head first into the river. Despite my small size and weak strength, I somehow managed to kick back to the surface. I ran back to the camp, only to see the enemy clan retreating and to find out that my mom was ripped to shreds."

I gasped. "Blackstar, I'm . . . . I'm so sorry!"

He didn't look at me. His mind was off now. "But that was a long time ago, back when I was small. I couldn't save her that day, but I did save you today."

I placed a paw on his. "And I'll forever be grateful." My warm smile brought light back into his eyes.

"I bet your parents will be glad to know you didn't drown, won't they?"

Now it was my turn to stare off into space. "I'm not too sure about that."

"What?"

I sighed. I guess someone ought to know my true story on my parents. "My parents never really . . . . expected me. They loved each other deeply, and wanted a family someday. But that day came too fast. Next thing they knew I was bored. They were completely unprepared for a child. Raising me young tired both of them. I guess they loved me, but eventually they just got too tired. And now they're too tired to show they love me."

Mama got pregnant at seventeen. Pap worked at a computer shop back then. They worked their asses off to raise me. I assumed one day they wanted to have more children, but after all the trouble of raising me, they were too tired to raise another one. My aunt told me this story when I was twelve. I've never really looked at my parents the same after that. I felt odd that I was the mistake. They wanted me, but they didn't want me at the same time. That's why whenever I was sick they treated me like I was a fragile flower. They would feel guilty if the one thing they never wanted in life was gone.

I felt something on my shoulder. It was the tip of Blackstar's tail. "You're strong for living through that," he said.

I put a tail on his shoulder too. "You're strong too."

We looked into each other's eyes smiling. I felt good. A feeling in my heart lighted up my whole spirit. Why did this happen when Blackstar was with me? It was a feeling I never felt before. Almost like . . . . no! It defiantly wasn't that?

"Violetmoon?" Blackstar said breaking my thought. "I have to go now." He turned to leave.

"Wait!"

He stopped right on the spot.

"Um." I was trying hard not to blush. "Is there any way I can talk to you again sometime?"

He smiled, looking away for a second. He was blushing too. "Tomorrow, would you meet me by the ShadowClan border?"

If my heart had wings, it would fly right out of my body right now. "Yes! I would . . . . I would love to."

Love. What an interesting word.

Blackstar smiled. "Great! Do you want me to walk you back or something?"

I got up, my energy returning suddenly. "No thanks Blackstar. I think can I handle it."

He nodded. "Alright then. I'll . . . I'll see you tomorrow."

"Same." I smiled at him as he went back to ShadowClan.

Okay, so, I had two new things on my to-do list for tomorrow.

One: I had to go back and fix things back in my human life.

Two: I had a date with Blackstar.

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