I followed eagerly behind Tanya, with a new bounce in my step. I never thought i would feel this happy again after i left my dad but I've obviously got lucky for once in my life.
The blond vampire slowed down as we approached a beautiful two story cabin that fit in well with its snowy setting.
"This is my home, follow me" she smiled.
I entered the door slowly always weary of attacks, something i picked up from all the wars. As i tested the surrounding emotions all i felt was curiosity and a slight excitement. Strange, Covens never feel happy about intrusions, it must be to do with their diet.

I was led through a large arch into what seemed to be the living room, it was all white with one of the walls having a large window allowing the light to pass through the room.
I saw four other vampires calmly seated on the leather sofa's.
The only man present stood to greet me with a shocked expression on his face, i fidgeted under his gaze.

"Eliezer,please stop staring at the girl dear your making her uncomfortable" A soft kind voice said.
"Hello sweetheart, I'm Carmen the man staring is Eliezer, welcome to our home" She moved forward to hug me and i tensed but then melted into her.
She was like my mother, i missed this type of comfort.

"Its nice to meet you, I'm Isabelle, but call me Bella please" I gave her another squeeze before letting her go, and looking around the room at the remaining strangers.

"Oh! Forgive me, this here is Kate and Irina, and of course you have met Tanya i presume?" Carmen announced.
"Its nice to meet you, yes Tanya was telling me about your diet, its so amazing, i had no idea that it was possible!" I exclaimed.
"Yes Bella wants us to teach her adjust to the vegetarian life" She laughed.
"Of course my dear we are always happy to help if it means less vampires feeding on humans, we value their life as much as any!" Carmen answered.
Finally, Eliezer became unfrozen and asked me "I'm sorry for staring, but my power is to see others powers and i must say that yours is extraordinary!"
If i could have blushed i would have, "Thanks, yes i have two powers, I'm a shield and i can sense and manipulate emotions."

"Well, they are great Bella really, how about we show you were you will be staying while your here?" Tanya asked.
I followed her up the stairs, and she opened a door leading to my room, telling me that i can have a shower if i wanted and she would find me some clothes until we went shopping for more.
I tried to refuse her buying me anything but damn she was stubborn, i thought i was bad, but i suppose i could use some new clothes, i will stand out in the ones i have, there a bit outdated. I laughed and agreed to a shopping trip when my control was better, but meanwhile she would go and get me anything in needed.

As i stood in my room, gazing out of the window at the winter wonderland, i thought i couldn't get any happier and hoped to have a family once again with this coven, i smiled then, a proper smile.
I was looking forward to the days ahead.

... 6 Months later.

I had been on the animal diet for six months now, my eyes have now lost all of that ghastly red colour and have turned gold, when i first saw it i cried, it was such a relief.
I have been really struggling with the diet, my control is not the best but Carmen told me it was to be expected considering how long i had been feeding from humans.
When i first fed on an animal, i gagged from the bitter taste, and Tanya had laughed her head of at my grimace, i really wasn't expecting it, i thanked her for the warning which of course made her giggle more.

I was happy. Tanya and i were very close, although Carmen had that mothering nature, she and Eliezer were away alot, they owned a Villa in Spain and liked to get away.
So Tanya had become an important person in my life, she was my mother figure really. I told her once that she was like a mother to me, the way she always helped me with things and hugged me when i was upset.
She had cried, and thanked me. I could understand as we vampires couldn't have children, i guessed she was happy that she could use her mothering instinct on someone.

Although i wouldn't say the instinct was around all the time, she was constantly talking about sex with her sisters, and they went out to seduce men regularly.
I doubt she would let me join her though, it was not an encouraged behaviour, but i picked up alot of her seduction traits, and learnt more about sex than i had in all my years as a vampire.
She loved that i was a Virgin at my age, and constantly spoke of this other vampire guy who also was a virgin, Edward Cullen.

Ah the Cullens, a constant topic in this family, i had yet to meet them, but couldn't wait to do so. They were like family to the Denali's and sounded lovely.
I was still trying to get hold of Peter, but they must have moved because i couldn't find him yet.
Overall i would have to say that so far my life as a vegetarian has been worth it all.

... 30 years later.

I ended up staying with the Denali's longer than expected, and when i bought up the idea of moving on they begged me not to go and i became an official member of their coven and family.
I even took on their last name. I went by Bella Denali now, and i loved that i had such loving sisters and parents in my life now.

When i finally got hold i Peter, he was really happy that i was not depressed any longer, he had scoffed at the vegetarian diet but what can i say that just Peter.
I saw him a few years ago, and he told me that he had not heard of Maria and her army for a while, but told me that Jasper had finally left her.
I tried to find him and got mad at Peter for not telling me that my dad had been with him for years, i could have had him back.
Peter had said that Jasper was really depressed and left just as i had, he had not heard from him in a while. I was planning to go and look for him, but Peter had a 'feeling' that i should not go yet, stupid all knowing bastard!

I was getting impatient now and Peter rang me the other day begging me to wait, that he sensed my meeting with him would not go well.
I waited a while longer but enough is enough im leaving to search for my father even it kills me!

"Tanya? I am going on an extended hunting trip ok i will call you in two days so you don't worry because i know you will!" I laughed.
"Bells, how about i go with you sweet heart, i hate it when you go away for these hunting trips.?"
"Don't worry Mum!" I laughed, as Tanya's eyes sparkled from my comment, she loved it when i called her mum.
"Ok, well if you don't call me i will come a search for you do you understand, and i will so punish your ass!" She said.
"Fine, and mum you no i will call, i always call, i promise." I hugged her.
"Your right, you always call, ok see you soon lovely!" She skipped off down towards the kitchen as i left out the front door, running towards the forest.

I never told my family much about my past, they knew about Maria but not that jasper was my dad, i never led, i just left that part out.
I figured i had a couple of weeks to look for my dad before Tanya got suspicious of my time away. I hope i find him soon.

It had been a couple of days since i left, i was in a small town called Forks,the animal life was quite good so i decided to hunt.

As i sniffed the air, i could a very sweet scent, sweeter then what i had been feeding from for a long time, i knew it was a human scent, but it was too late my instincts were in control now.
I traveled fast and silent through the forest and came across an injured man, he must have been hiking. My mind was yelling at me to stop, i hadn't slipped up for almost ten years now, i knew after i was done hunting i would feel so guilty but i couldn't get over the smell of his blood on my tongue, i needed it,
I pounced forward an latched my teeth onto his neck. I moaned from the instant relief i got, and the pleasure that rocked through me as i savoured the sweetness on my tongue, its been too long, the taste was almost overwhelming.
The man that was previously struggleling had stopped all movements and as i sucked the last of his blood from his body my mind was becoming more controlled as the red film left my eyes and i was back to myself.
I leapt back from the body in disgust at my lack of control, Tanya will be so disappointed, the last time i slipped, i couldn't get over the emotions i felt from her, i cant believe i did it again, im such a failure.

So i crawled behind a tree and huddled on the ground, i cant go back now, i cant!
I just stared into nothingness, i don't know how long i was sitting there, i could feel myself getting weak from thirst but i didn't care. Im a monster.

Im not sure how long it had been, my phone has been vibrating for ages, but i ignored it. It had passed from day to night, night to day, but i felt nothing but failure and disgust. It rained and it even snowed but i just sat still staring.
It was probably around noon when i heard it, it was sunny today but my skin was dull from lack of blood, i was so thirsty, weak just like me control.
The noise sounded like someone running, they were approaching quick, yet i could not find the energy to move, my shield came up to protect me but wavered slightly, it wouldn't hold them back long.
Finally two figure stopped in my line of sight, i stayed still but kept up and constant growling to warn them away.
Males they where, and they just stared but the larger of the two came forward to grab me at the last second, my shield held as he bounced off it, but it was shrinking from my weak state.
I will probably die today and i couldn't find it in me to care.