Please see chapter one for all warnings etc…
Make My Heart Start Beating
02
"Aw, come on Kurt, I know you remember me," That smirk on his face is firmly in place, I remember a softer look, a gentler look, but I was drunk that night and he'd only wanted one thing from me.
"Hello Sebastian," I answer him and then turn away to continue shopping.
His hand tightens on my shoulder and he wrenches me back to face him, that's going to bruise, I always did bruise easily, physically and emotionally.
"What no hug? No kisses? No 'How are you Sebastian?'," he mocks me.
"No, no hug, certainly no kisses," I tell him as his friends laugh, "But how are you Sebastian? It's not been nearly long enough since I last saw you."
"Ouch man," one of the idiots laughs even as Sebastian's mouth tenses and his eyes flash in anger as my stomach dips.
"I'm good Kurt, thanks for asking. You?" He half snarls.
"I'm fine, thank you, goodbye," I go to leave and his hand stays on my shoulder pinning me to the spot, I wiggle my shoulder but he doesn't let go.
"You know I don't see a man running around after you, so where is he?" Sebastian asks.
"Who?" I frown confused, if he means dad he's not getting back home for a few days.
"Don't play coy with me Hummel, the man in your life," I mentally wince, how like Sebastian to rub my nose in my single status. "Or are you too girly," his friends laugh, "To keep a man?"
That hurt, like so many of his insults they hit that bit too close to home.
"Even your jokes don't change, did you run out material? Or have you used up your limited rodent brainpower and need a rest?" I don't know where that came from, I've been nice to everyone for years, it's just something about him rubs me the wrong way.
"I forgot what a sharp tongue you have," his eyes have dropped to my mouth and I roll my eyes at him, I'm not drunk this time, I'm not falling for his lies, his very seductive tempting lies. "So you never answered my question, what about the man in your life?"
"There is no man," I say as calmly as I can refusing to take the bait he's offering, he'll just laugh at me now and I can go on my way and never see him again in my life.
His eyes light up and he steps closer, crowding me, "So that means you're free this evening, my friends are going out tonight, join me and I'll rock your world."
Really?
That's the best he can come up with? Taunt the lonely little Lima Loser promise him a night out and what? Fuck him before telling him how terrible he was and running away leaving him to pick up the pieces again. Does he still think I'm only eighteen?
"I'm sorry Sebastian, you have me confused with someone else. Clearly you don't remember it but you've already 'rocked' my world, and as you pointed out afterwards I wasn't that memorable." His friends go quiet as I lean into him, "And even if I were that desperate and drunk again I've learnt my lesson, no more picking up stray chipmunks," this time I shake his hand loose and escape with one last, "GoodBYE Sebastian."
"Wait," he calls out, "How come you're in Lima? I thought you'd be off under the lights of Broadway."
Ow.
Typical Sebastian, I twist to look at him, "I live here," near the end of the aisle I go to change direction and leave him far behind me.
"So do I," he yells, "See you round Kurt."
"Not if I see you first," I mutter and whip round the rest of the supermarket in record time.
Carrying my bags into the house I put the groceries away and then it hits me, what his plan had really been. Make the boring little girly gay guy squeal in happiness, scurry home, get ready to have his world rocked and then stand him up. I bet he'd be hiding around the corner with his friends laughing at me as I waited and waited for him.
He's so high school.
My phone beeps and I smile, it's David and Kyle. I let them know I'm working and that I'll see them tomorrow. Finally. Kyle has at last graduated from college and he and David are going to start their new lives together.
I'm a little sad, I'd thought for a while that David and I might end up together but then Kyle happened and David's so happy. Still Kurt Karofsky has a nice ring to it, and we've moved on from the teenagers we used to be, I like the adult version of David.
Skipping up the stairs I have a shower and pull on some jeans, non skinny jeans. A boring t-shirt, black to hide any alcohol stains. And some comfy converse shoes.
Locking up I drive all the way to Scandals and go to stand behind the bar, Kurt Hummel barman and cocktail drink mixer in a run down gay bar in Ohio. Not exactly how I expected my life to turn out.
The usual crowd turn up and I get them drinks, I eye up the boy who slinks in every few weeks, I've asked around, he goes to Lima East, he's underage, he never gets alcohol from me, but it's somewhere he can be himself.
I've recently been to Lima East and it's still a hellhole, I spotted him in the jock crowd, hiding. And that's part of what I do in McKinley, find the victims give them help, protection, and point them in the right directions to build a life that has meaning. I educate the lumbering idiots who bully, most just do it to be part of the crowd, because they never understand the consequences of their actions, and I try and find the few, like David, who bully for a reason and I try and help them because they should have chances too.
I have a reputation as a do gooder.
Also I find it interesting that the boy at the bar is Nick's little brother, his very gay little brother. I often wonder if he knows what his brother did to David, what he set in motion, but then I see the terror in the boy's eyes and I know that he does.
I've slipped him pamphlets on groups to call if it gets bad, he's read them and I get the odd smile from him.
I hope he makes it.
Opening up a non-alcoholic beer I put in on the bar for him, "Thanks," his voice is deep and gruff and oh so young.
Sliding his change back I shrug, "That's fine Brian, just don't ever drink and drive."
A loud commotion from the door and the group of college brats Sebastian was hanging with are there, oh no, not him, not here, oh please. My prayers are unanswered, proving once again there is no god, and there stands Sebastian.
He hasn't seen me, maybe I can hide behind the bar?
His friends are loudly saying what a dive this place is and they don't understand why Sebastian wants to come here, "Because in all of Ohio this is the best gay bar to go to," he snaps and walks over to the bar, he stops when he spots me and then smirks, "Well hello there barkeep, you seem so familiar."
A/N: Sorry for any and all mistakes, I've tried to catch those I could, but I'm only human.
Wow, thank you for all of the reviews and alerts. This is pre-written so there will be one chapter every day until the end. And this whole story is heavily influenced by the bad romance novels I read as a teen, you have been warned.