When I woke up I was alone again. I hated not having his arms around me when I wake up. I threw on a sweater and jeans making my way down stairs. I heard voices as I descended the stairs. People were in the kitchen talking. I felt my heart drop thinking Addams and Bentley came early.

"Go get her" one voice said to the other.

I was frozen on the stairs. Was someone in the house? Did they find us and now they were going to kill me?

The last thought I had before the figure turned the corner was, where was Edward and Jasper?

Jasper turned the corner fallowed by three men in FBI jackets.

"Bella you okay?" Jasper asked as they spotted me frozen on the stairs.

"Who are they?" I asked still panicked.

"Addams and Bentley were put on a different case, the agency sent them." Jasper explained

I walked down the stairs and passed the three men looking at me. I got coffee and a bagel out for myself. I was still shaken up.

"Ms. Swan I'm Agent-"

"Stop" I said putting up my hand and cutting him off. All three men stared at me and Jasper chuckled. "In this house we go by first names. I will not call you agent whatever and you will not call me Ms. Swan. If you have a problem with that, then get out"

Edward came in on the last part of my rant. He gapped at me and looked worriedly over to the men.

The fat man looked Greek, he laughed. "I'm Mark. Finally someone with backbone" he sat down on the counter.

The skinny man was black and had died jet black hair; he rolled his eyes "Tyler"

The man with the Russian accent glared at me. "Boris"

I shook my head at him and looked at the other two, I could tell Boris and I would not be getting along. "I'm Bella" I threw my garbage away and left the room. The three men started to fallow when I turned to them.

They all looked at me funny then off into space. What the hell? I walked to the sofa and turned on the TV. They all lined one wall. What now I have groupies?

Jasper came in and sat on the sofa next to me and Edward sat in a chair across the room. I hated the distance between us but I knew it had to be there.

We were watching the news for an hour before Mark came and sat down on the other side of me. Quickly after Mark sat down Tyler took the seat next to Jasper.

I looked back at Boris, he glared and turned his head.

"Boris" I said. He looked at me "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"BELLA" Jasper and Edward whisper yelled at me.

"You are the one using up five government agents and the best safe house there is. You are the one who is acting like a spoiled rich princess that gets whatever she wants. Three of our agents already died for you and this is how you respect them?" Boris was fuming

I looked down at my lap so my tears wouldn't show but I know they heard it in my voice. "I am sorry that people had to die for my life. If I could take it back I would have died with Jake. I'm sorry for the three men, but I can't live in a house being called Ms. Swan 24/7 and calling everyone Agent. It's too much, I need connection to stay sane." I ran from the room up to my room. I slammed the door and flung on my bed. I was crying into my pillow when there was a knock on the door.

"Bella" the voice said "Can I come in"

"Can we come in" Edward said

I mumble yes and Tyler and Edward came in.

"Bella, Boris is very old school" Tyler started

"He's an ass" Edward said. I laughed into my pillow, still hiding.

"Bella, as true as Edward is, Boris lost his partner in the shootout when you were getting in the SUV. The other agents did as they were trained, they took you away to safety, but the man was Boris's partner for 15 years. They were like brothers"

"So what now" I asked sitting up wiping my eyes. Edward smiled at me and winked. He was just out of Tyler's vision.

"Now," Edward started "Boris is getting chewed out by Jasper and Mark. They all went through training together. Boris and Jasper go way back, and Jasper was pissed he made you cry." I could tell how much Edward was pissed to. "Boris is going to end up apologizing and then you need to accept his apology."

"Bella, Boris is rough around the edges but getting inside he is the nicest man." Tyler said. I nodded and got up.

"Okay…I'll try." We went down stairs and to the living room. Jasper was red and tense. Mark was just tense. Boris was standing with his arms crossed.

"Hey Jasper, can we go to the shooting range" I asked. Jasper looked over and nodded.

"Yeah, good idea. Get out all this pent up frustration for hitting someone" he said grabbing his coat.

The three men fallowed me as I took the way to the shooting range. Edward and Jasper were ahead of me. When we got there Jasper passed out the ear muff-things and Edward handed me a gun.

"What are you doing?" Mark, Tyler and Boris panicked as they saw the gun in my hands.

"She knows how to shoot better than you do Mark" Jasper laughed

"Oh really, go for it little lady"

"Is that a challenge?" I asked

Mark and Tyler laughed and nodded. I help set up the targets around the field. Edward helped me set the things up, "We need to talk later" he said sounding hurt. I looked at him panicked that something was wrong.

After the targets were up and all five man and I were safely behind the line Mark told me to go for it. I took down all eight targets using nine bullets.

"Damn girl, why we even protecting you" Tyler said.

After the targets were all set up again everyone was getting out their anger and frustration. We spent all day at the range. When we got home I made ham, casserole, and fresh bread as a piece offering. The boys loved it as usual. Boris ate it but never said a word.

I went up to bed at nine. The boys made their sleeping arrangements during dinner. Jasper and Edward were in Edward's room and the three new comers were bunking up in Jaspers room.

When I got in my room there was a note on the bed. I picked it up and turned it over.

'Bella you are in a lot of trouble. I am furious at you. How could you say you wish you could have died with Jake? Jasper is mad too. We love you. I love you, is our time together that easy to give up? I thought we discussed how important you are to me. Just having to say that kills me. I love you forever, Edward.'

Great now I'm pissing Edward off. I opened my door and closed it. I walked to Edward's room and went in shutting the door behind me. Jasper looked up from his cot and frowned.

"You are supposed to be keeping quiet about your relationship" he whispered

"I am, after this I will not come in here. I just need to set something straight."

Edward came in and shut the door.

"Did you get my note?" he asked crossing his arms.

I nodded and fought the tears back. "I'm sorry" I crocked.

Edward let out a breath and hugged me. "I didn't want to make you cry" he said and I hugged him back.

"I love you and I would never trade us for anything. But I wish the others didn't have to die for me. What I said was stupid and I can never go back in time and change it. I just wish they all were still alive."

"I know. Hearing you wish yourself dead just killed me though. Please don't ever say things like that again."

"Okay" we kissed quickly and I was about to leave when I ran up to Jasper and hugged him.

"Thank you Jasper. I love you." I said

"No problem sweetie." He hugged me back. I left and made it to my room without anyone seeing.

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