Summary: When people see Natsume Hyuuga, they see someone who is pure perfection, they see someone they envy, hate, love and admire. But when Natsume Hyuuga looks at his own reflection he sees someone who is imperfect, someone who will never be loved, never accepted and never cared for. However when Mikan Sakura sees Natsume Hyuuga she see's someone who is an imperfect perfection.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gakuen Alice or its characters.
I stared out of my window, with a gloomy aura around me, well what I'm experiencing right now isn't gloom, maybe depression, nope...devastation, is more like the word I'm looking for, definitely devastation and a strange surge of shock and surprise.
Bing.
I looked over at my laptop, and sulked over slowly, and sat down in my rolling chair and turned the screen on, and opened my email in-box, it was from Anna and Nonoko, actually I had like 20 different unopened emails from the both of them, I clicked on the latest one...
PrettyPinkPeach: Mikan are you okay? If you get this email, email me back, please!
SuperSuperGirl: Yeah, I'm fine, what wrong?
PrettyPinkPeach: Well its just that after lunch, we couldn't find you, and you weren't answering any of texts, calls or your emails...
SuperSuperGirl: What do you mean I'm not answering any of me emails? I'm talking to you now...
PrettyPinkPeach: Mikan that's besides the point! All me and Nonoko want to know if you were okay and what happened after lunch...
SuperSuperGirl: Look I'm sorry, I should have answered your calls, but I was a little busy earlier, that still doesn't change the fact that I should have at least called or texted to let you know I was okay...
DiamondInTheRough: That still doesn't explain what happened to you during and after lunch?Well are you going to tell us or not Mikan?
SuperSuperGirl: I really don't want to talk about it guys, it was already weird enough when it happened, so it'll only be even more weirder if I talk about it...
DiamondInTheRough: Now I'm even more interested in what happened...
PrettyPinkPeach: Oh, come one Mikan! Share!
SuperSuperGirl: No guys, I don't wanna talk about it, its...
SuperSuperGirl: Private...
DiamondInTheRough: Its too embarrassing huh?...
SuperSuperGirl: I didn't say that...i said...it was very private...
PrettyPinkPeach: It was embarrassing, thats all you have to say Mikan, we wont ask about it anymore okay?
SuperSuperGirl: Okay...
DiamondInTheRough: since thats settled, need a ride tomorrow? its going to rain pretty badly...
SuperSuperGirl: No, I'll walk, I have a very strong umbrella, so ill be fine...I'll talk to you guys later its getting late and I have biology homework to finish...so see ya...
PrettyPinkPeach: Bye...
DiamondInTheRough: See ya later...
I turned off my laptop screen and walked over to my spot by the window, and continued to gaze out of it. The real reason why I wanted to walk to school by myself was to avoid having to see Anna and Nonoko because most of the time even when they couldn't tell what I was think sometime my face gave me away...i mean what if they asked me about what happened, I wouldn't be able to hold my tongue, I would seriously spill my guts, so being drenched by the rain was a much, much better option.
Anna and Nonoko were so eager to know what happened during lunch, I grimaced just over the thought of it happening...over me spilling my guts...of me telling them what happened...of telling them about the weird moment between me and Hyuuga...
...Flashback...
"Huh?" I blinked a few times.
"What do you think of me?" he repeated looking at me, his crimson eyes searching.
What do I say? What should I say? What do I do? My mind was dizzy with questions,he placed his hands on my shoulder, I have to say something, the first thing that pops into your mind, I tell myself, it doesn't matter what, it just has to be something "Your perfect" I said then placed both my hands over my mouth...then at that exact moment, his hands dropped from my shoulders and he turned and started to walk away "But...your also imperfect" I said looking at his back, he stopped in his place and looked back at me "Your imperfect perfection" I said looking away from his gaze...he started back in my direction "That's not possible" he said. "What's not?" I said still looking down "No one can be both imperfect and perfect" he said stopping in front of me "But you are" I said suddenly...now I was more psychically aware of him, we were so close that I breath mingled, his hand reached out towards my face.
Biiiiinnnnngggggg...
The bell rang and we both looked up, at that exact moment I took my chance to escape, I ran out of the room, and down the hall, and out the building, down the street, and around the corner, I didn't stop, I couldn't stop, I wouldn't stop.
When I finally made it home I ran inside and dropped my bag on the floor and leaned against the door, and let out a deep breath, from the kitchen I heard my mother call out "Mikan is that you?" she asked. "Yeah" I said picking up my bag and heading for the stairs. "What are you doing home so early?" she asked coming out of the kitchen to greet me, I hide my eyes under my bangs so it would be hard for her to read my expression "I don't feel too well" I said and started up the stairs "Do you want me to give you some medicine?" she asked. "No thank you, I'll just go lay down" I said and hurried up the stairs, and into my room, turned off all my electronics, and sat down in front of my window...
...Flashback End...
I heaved a sigh, and assumed the fetal position on the window seat, what's wrong with me?, I thought "Why did I say that to him?" I asked aloud.
To Be Continued...