1. I've finally found someone that takes him off of my mind. I don't think about him anymore. Honestly, I haven't for a while. But this new person, he's great. I don't think I could ever imagine letting him go. He makes me smile like no other person has ever made me, and when I look into his eyes, I'm not sure whether I'm feeling his happiness, or seeing my happiness in his eyes. He has the most beautiful eyes that I could stare into for a life time. I'd venture to say I even love him. Statistics say that if you care deeply for a person for more than a month, it's considered love. Well, of all the people to love- I'm glad it's him. We can talk for hours and never run out of things to say, and when nothing is being said, our eyes speak for us. There are barely any secrets between us. I've never been this open with anyone, not even my best friend. Granted, there are still things that I'd tell her before him, but he'd still find out from me either way. I don't feel like there's anything he's trying to get from me, so I don't have to close myself off as much from him. I love that. There's a true connection between us. He says it may be puppy love, but there's so much of it, that he has to rule that out. ~And I wonder, "Why even call it that then?" I know it's a fresh relationship and there hasn't been much time for anything to develop, but I'm waiting for it to blossom into the most beautiful flower imaginable. I can truly see us going somewhere, but that's just me being a happy teenage girl. :")
2. There's something about the way he holds me close and kisses me that sends waves of excitement through my body. It's not lust filled or a creation of affection. It's something real. I don't know how to describe it, but I also don't know whether to believe it. So many times have I been deceived of love, that when there's a hint of it being sincere, I question it to all odds and ends. I try not to with him, because I'm genuinely happy when he's around, or even when I receive a text from him. I've never had someone treat me as kindly or as affectionately as he does. I guess you could say I've never had a real relationship with a guy before. I've never been on a date, he was the third person I had ever kissed {if I'd consider a peck on the lips from the others as a kiss}, and I'd never really hung out with a boy friend before, but every chance we get he's trying to come over to see me. And his kisses are amazing. Not that I'd know the difference if they were bad, but… still.. XD I like them. They actually mean something to me, whereas the other kisses felt like nothing but friction to me. For the longest of times I didn't understand why people were all hyped about kissing, but when he pulls me into his chest and puts his lips against mine, I begin to realize the joy behind it.
3. I'm fairly girly, but when I talk about him, I get super mushy. Like if you were to watch a chick flick and then discuss the love between the two main characters. It's odd coming from me, and the gush spilling from my mouth kind of disgusts me, but that's just how great he makes me feel. He turns me into a different person, but not the kind of person that I want to tie to the back of my car and drag down the interstate. Because there are a few people I'd gather pleasure from listening to their horrified screams ~ as psychopathic as that sounds, I could never imagine myself harming another human being in such a manner, so don't think I'd a sociopathic killer. XD I just allow my mind to wander sometimes. Anyway, back to being mushy and disgusting: he's the kind of guy you read about in books. Granted, he may not have the washboard abs and the sexy biceps, but he's got a heart of gold, and he actually has a brain he knows how to use! –that one was a shocker~ when we first started talking I thought he used a lot. Nope, he actually knows those 'big' words. And he has an amazing sense of humor. He's a bit strange when it comes to video games and music, but I can't say that I'm what society would consider 'normal' when it comes to anything. Two quirky, intelligent, humorous people in a relationship together~ WATCH OUT WORLD!
4. I know this must sound weird coming from reading about me being all depressed about this other guy, and then all of a sudden "Oh, I'm in love again!" well there's been a great amount of time pass between that other guy and this one, and when I put my heart into a relationship, it's fully. So for the longest time, I was upset about him. I hadn't found anyone that made me feel as happy. Nobody else really wanted a relationship with me. They all just wanted to shove their tongue down my throat and rip my clothes off [neither of which has EVER happened] but 2 years later, here I am with someone who trumps him by one million. Of course I still have feelings for him- you never lose feelings for your first love, but they're not the same. If he wanted to be friends, I could go into that relationship without ever wanting it to be more than that. I cared deeply for him at one point, and I would be sad if he died, of course, but I'm glad that he moved on, and I'm excited that I've finally found someone who truly makes me happy. And I've also realized to never let myself get that attached to the ending of a relationship. Yeah, there were great memories, but what's done is done, and the past should stay where it is. Always look ahead for a brighter future where the new memories will be even better than the old ones. So far, that's the truth.