So I after these chapters I will end the story once and for all and start my new story which will be much better. It will include both characters but take place in District 12 (after Mockingjay.) And as for the Leviathan characters things will take place after Goliath. (Yes, Deryn's secret is out and Alek is still a dummkopf.) For the story people will be paired up, and I think you will all like the pairs I have chosen. :)

Muwahahahaha.

This will be a longish chapter so bear with me. Don't really have anything else to say so read.

~Z

Disclaimer: Basically no one on Fanfiction owns the stories they write about so why am I any different?

Fitzroy is still in the hospital while I have been discharged. Thank heavens that I don't need to spend another week there or another day for that matter. It's been a week since I've seen Lilit; I hope she isn't still mad with me. I wouldn't be able to face her knowing that she's mad. I walk to the room slowly since my shoulder and legs are sore.

I hated being in the hospital for the second time. The doctors keep telling me that I am safe but I chose to ignore them. Dr. Barlow would come in to see how I was handling everything. She was one of the only doctors who didn't irritate me. Plus she would let me walk around even when the other doctors refused to let me. I thought I was going to lose my head with Fitzroy throwing things and constantly annoying me. I was ready to kill him in his sleep.

Right now it's Reflection everyone should be in the apartment.

I open the door. Bovril is the first to crush me in a hug. Newkirk is still going to be in the hospital for a few more days since he had a bullet go right through his chest just barely missing his heart. Lilit is sitting on her bed working with a rope tying knots in it. From here I can see that her fingers have gone raw. That must be how she is getting her anger out. She looks up and sees me. Her face shows no emotion. She stands up and walks towards me. I close my eyes and wait for her to punch me. I half expect her to choke me with the rope but instead she hugs me.

I open my eyes then she punches me on my good shoulder. "That was for making us worried sick!" she says.

I rub my good shoulder which is now hurting my injured shoulder. "Sorry I didn't know she was like that." I say. I never expected Deryn to pull out a knife and stab me with it.

"It's alright. Newkirk, Mr. Rigby and her family are the only people who can visit her at the moment for everyone's safety." she says.

"Is that a good idea?" I ask.

"Not the best but they can't let her go ballistic they had to sedate her last time and her heart almost gave out." Bovril says.

"Okay but when do you think I can visit her?" I ask them.

"I don't know." Bovril says quietly.

"Come let's go to Dinner." Lilit says.

Dinner is the same usual. The food still smells the same and I'm pretty sure that the food with taste the same. Newkirk has been wheeled to the table. He has a few other scars on his face and his arm is in a sling. He sees us and smiles. We grab our food and sit with him. He looks more gruesome close up.

"Oh Newkirk how are you always the one with the worst injuries?" Lilit says stabbing her potatoes.

"If you think mine are horrible you should see my commanding officers'." he says.

"How is she?" I ask him.

Newkirk puts his spoon down. "Well she is really paranoid and she keeps wondering why you tried to kill her. I always tell her that you didn't, then we start arguing and that's when the doctors tell me to leave." he says.

"So she asks about me?"

"Yeah she says that she remembers you're face and basic things about you but she doesn't remember everything, like important parts." he says.

"Would they let me see her?" I ask hoping he would say yes.

"Maybe, you would have to ask." he says.

I finish up my food and head straight to Volger's apartment. I push through people without saying anything to them. I knock noisily on his door. I know that he doesn't eat dinner in the cafeteria; he eats in his room under surveillance. I pound on the door louder.

He opens the door with an annoyed expression. "What do you need Alek?" he asks.

"I want to see Deryn." I state.

"No," he says calmly.

"Yes,"

"Cannot allow it." he says starting to close the door.

I put my foot in the door. "Let me see her. It could be good for her health."

He opens the door wider. "Or it could be bad for her health."

"I want to see her anyways." I say. I stare him down.

"Fine, meet me outside her room in one hour." he says before slamming the door.

I sit outside her room waiting for him. The doctors give me strange looks but never ask me why I'm here. I try counting the little tiles on the floor. Right now I am up to 1,027. Where is he? I look down the halls for him. He is nowhere in sight. I lean my head against the wall. I stare up at the ceiling. I start to count the tiles on the ceiling.

"Are you ready?" Volger asks. I didn't hear him come down the hall. I nod. He gives me an earpiece. "Do what I say." he says. I nod. He opens the door for me.

I walk in. Deryn eyes me from her bed. I stand at the foot of her bed. She has her arms restrained and a needle in her arm in case she goes insane. Her hair is wild and unkempt and her eyes look too bright. She looks at me like she is trying to figure me out.

"So you're Alek." she says finally. "Thought you would have been more handsome."

"And I thought you would be nicer." I snap.

"I have an excuse, you don't. And I've never really been nice." she says smugly.

"You were always nice to me."

Her expression changes from smug to serious. "Why would I be nice to someone who was trying to kill me?" she asks.

"I never-"

"Liar." she says interrupting me.

"I wouldn't ever try to hurt you." I say.

"Then why did you throw that spear at me?" she hisses. She looks like she wants to hurt me right about now.

"It was aimed at the person behind you who was ready to stab you." I say defensively.

"That's a lie." she says. "They told me that it was aimed at me."

"I would never try to hurt you intentionally."

"So you would hurt me on accident?" she says.

"That's the point, on accident." I tell her.

She looks up at the ceiling as if the truth is right there. She glares right back at me. "I don't believe you, you're just some mutt that the Capitol created."

"I am not." I say each word separately.

"They said you would deny it." she shouts.

"I'm not denying it."

"STOP LYING." she screams.

"Calm down," I say. I walk closer to her.

She looks at me with those big blue eyes making me stop in my tracks. "Don't you dare tell me to calm down, you mutt." she seethes.

I turn away from her and walk out the door. I don't care what else she has to say to me. Volger doesn't say anything to stop me. I rip the earpiece out and throw it as far as I can. I still hear her calling me a mutt from this far down the hall. I find a nice abandoned closet and just there trying to process what had just happened.

Deryn doesn't remember anything right. I never did try to kill her, on purpose that is. Why doesn't she remember how Fitzroy was the one who would try to kill her? The Capitol must have made it where they focused on what I did and made it seem like I was trying to kill her. She is bent on the fact that I want to kill her but for what? Killing her would have no advantage only to Telsa. If I kill Deryn then I would most likely commit suicide or have a mental breakdown. Then Telsa won't have to worry about me anymore.

I bang my head on the wall not hard enough to get a concussion. I don't want to go back to the hospital and share a room with Fitzroy again. I shudder at the thought. I don't know how long I've been here alone but then I see the door open and white light comes pouring in momentarily blinding me. I can't see who it is that interrupted my thinking.

"Alek, stop going missing I don't want to have to keep tracking you down." Lilit says. Well I'm pretty sure it's Lilit since she is the only person I know who talks like that with that tone.

"Just wanted a moment to myself." I say trying to get up. Lilit grabs my arm and helps me up.

"Then why didn't you go back to the apartment?" she says.

"Too far and I didn't want to be there."

She sighs. "Come one it's almost time for lights out and I don't want to get in trouble." she says.

"Really?" I blink a few times to try to see again.

"I didn't even believe myself." she says chuckling. "But seriously let's go I am exhausted from hunting you down."

It's breakfast time by the time I see Fitzroy out of his hospital room. Bovril must be tending to a patient since I don't see him. Fitzroy is sitting with Newkirk who looks a little better now. He has crutches instead of a wheelchair. At least he can move freely. The thing that surprises me is that Newkirk and Fitzroy are talking to each other. And laughing I think.

We get our food and sit down. They stop their conversation and greet us.

"Hey guys." Newkirk says in his cheery mood. I still don't know how he is a morning person.

"Hi, what's he doing here?" Lilit asks putting extra emphasis on 'he'.

Fitzroy just smiles sweetly. "You know you want me here sweetie." he winks.

Lilit just growls at him. "You are very lucky that you're a tortured patient and that there are guards stationed at the exits." she growls at him.

"Kitty has claws." he says eating his food.

Lilit is ready to lunge at him but I put a hand on her shoulder and force her to sit down. "It's not worth it." I tell her.

Fitzroy just laughs at her. "Don't think I won't kill you." she hisses.

Newkirk's smile fades and so does Fitzroy. I turn around to see what they are gaping at. I don't even believe my eyes when I see her standing there.

"I need permission to sit here and Jaspert isn't here and neither are my aunts or my mom." Deryn says calmly.

Her arms are bound by handcuffs and she has two soldiers behind her. Deryn almost looks like herself but her eyes are so dull and lifeless and she has no expression. Lilit scoots over to let her sit down.

"Feel free to sit." Lilit says patting the seat next to her.

Deryn sits and the soldiers handcuff her to the table. She starts eating her food. Everyone is pretty tense at the moment with Deryn here. Even Fitzroy is tense.

"Newkirk how is everything?" Deryn asks.

Newkirk looks a bit startled. "I'm fine just recovering." he says.

"That's good what about you Lilit I haven't seen you in a while." she says ripping apart her bread.

"Everything has been fine here except for the fact that it feels like I'm living in a box." she laughs.

"Really? I thought I was the only one." Deryn smiles and for a moment she looks like her normal self.

"I think everyone feels the same." Newkirk says.

The conversation goes on about how strange District 13 is. I don't take part in it I just let them talk. Deryn is laughing and smiling like normal but nothing feels normal. Her hands are bound so that she doesn't try to kill me. Soldiers are watching her so that she doesn't hurt anyone and we are trapped in this hole.

Things will never be normal. And I guess I have to get past that, for her.

Meh. Review?

I will get started on the new story at some point and it will be more humor and maybe some drama but mainly humor.

~Z