Whats Really on the inside Chapter 3: Care free fun loving, a maximum ride fanfic

MAX POV

Its the first weekend of me living with my new boyfriend Fang and let me tell you it's great sometimes we go out and meet with our friends there was the occasional mom walk in on us making out and surprisingly she was ok with me and Fang sharing a room even though she knows we're dating! Right know we were sitting in his-I mean OUR room watching "Degrassi:Showdown" I was obssesded with this show Fang still dosen't know what I see in Eli.

"What do you see in him he is a hearse driving weirdo!" Fang said in his 'seriously that is the grossest thing i've heard' voice. Well if he dosent know what I see in Eli he dosen't see what I see in him he and Eli are basically the same thing except Fang dosen't drive a hearse.

"HE IS JUST LIKE YOU!" right when I said this the preview for "The posseison" came on and I hate scary movies! At the end of the preview there is a part that the girl looks in her mouth to see fingers pop out of her tounge. That scared the DEATH out of me I coward into Fangs chest scared he just laughed but strocked my hair.

"Can I change the channel to fuse it has our song on it?! I begged

"why not!" Then my favorite side of Fang came out the carefree fun loving kid that didn't cared what happened as long as he had his friends and/or girlfriend. I missed that Fang for a while. I changed it to fuse and just like I predicted our song was playing, Fang got up and held out his had the universal sighn of 'Do you want to dance'

(There song is "Girl all the bad guys want" by bowling for soup)

8 O'clock Monday night and I'm waiting
To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me
Her name is Nona, she's a rocker with a nose ring
She wears a 2-way, but I'm not quite sure what that means

And when she walks
All the wind blows and the Angels sing
But she doesn't notice me

'Cause she's watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

It's like a bad movie
She's looking through me
If you were me then you'd be screaming
Someone shoot me as I fail miserably
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want

She likes the godsmack and I like agent Orange
Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad
She said she'd like to score some reefer and a 40
She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have

And when she walks all the wind blows and the angels sing
But she'll never notice me

'Cause she's watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes
She likes 'em with a mustache
Race track, season pass
Drivin' in a transam
Does a mullet make a man

There she goes again with fishnets on
And dreadlocks in her hair
She broke my heart, I want to be sedated
All I wanted was to see her naked

Now I'm watchin' wrestling
Tryin' to be a tough guy
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in my eyes
I can't grow a mustache
And I ain't got no season pass
All I got's a moped

After we were done dancing I got an idea for a song for the dance i bolted to a piece of paper and started scribling down the lyrics.

Fang looked at me weird like 'What the fuck was that about!? I just waved him towards me so he could read the song I just wrote down.

"I'll get the band here then we can go into the recording room (A/N I dont really know what its called) I gave him a little nod and he went to the kitchen to call everyone over. This time Iggy had to bring his little sister Angel she was really sweet espically when she saw me hmm wonder what thats about no one but Fang is THAT sweet to me... Oh well i'll let it slide she is a little kid.

"Ok guys I actually have Two songs that I wrote over the time I have lived here!" I said excited and handed everyone there paper Iggy and Fang had little parts in the song we're they had to sing a little part of it

("The kill" 30 seconds to mars)

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?

What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?

You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
{ From: . }
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside

Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me

By the end of that song I had a coupl of stray tears because that song was really about my dad before he died I was trying to be some one else and only after he died did I realize who I was

"Really good guys we got the beat the rythem and Fang, Iggy really good with the back up!" I tried to cover up the unshed tears but of course Fang can read me like a book and said

"Ok guys really good lets take five before the next song." I wonder how he says everything with that emotionless mask on the only time he dosen't use that mask is when he talks to me.

"Hey whats wrong and dont say nothing I can see the tears in your eyes there is a perk to not showing alot of emotion and that is being able to see other peoples emotions without even trying." Then he just gave me hug.

"That song reminded me to much of my dad and how he died." I said then curiousity got the best of me. "How do you say almost everything with an emotionless mask!?" he just smirked and walked away.

"Ok guys next song!" I handed them more papers

(Numb by linkin park)

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
?Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

That was where I broke down in tears.

A/N HAHAHAHAHA CLIFIE I DONT OWN MR OR THE SONGS! I JUST GOT NEVERMORE TODAY IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GONNA GO READ IT NOW YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY