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Thank you so much for the reviews and as per request here is chapter 2
As for dates this is before Will came in picture. Well I never really liked Will…
I hope you like it.
I walk to my desk my heart soaring. I can't believe what really happened. Jennifer asked me on a date! I could not believe it. It was like a dream come true. I had to sit on my chair because I felt if I didn't my legs would just give out. I sighed. I tried to concentrate on my paperwork but I soon found myself grinning like an idiot. I had to take a sip to cover it up but I realised I was too late. I saw Morgan looking at me with that smirk on his face. I chose to ignore him paying more attention to my coffee. I heard him chuckle before he went back to his work. Am glad he didn't snoop.
I have always been attracted to Jennifer. Ever since that first day I saw her. That long silky blonde her that made my hands ache from wanting to touch it. Those beautiful blue eyes that made me want to drown in them. That soft skin that I so wanted to feel against mine. The amazing smile. The way she pursed her lips when nervous. The blush that would creep up when someone complemented her. If she was another girl I would have gone for it but this was JJ. She just wasn't my league. She was just too perfect for someone as tainted like me.
To me it was just an attraction that I thought I could handle but soon I realised it was more. She meant a lot to me and I just couldn't imagine a life without her. Each time she was in danger my heart stopped. Each time I saw her I could breathe again. That only happens when you care for someone so deeply. I never thought I could be able to care let alone love someone. I am emotionally remote but she changed it all. I realised I can't act emotionless anymore and that to show emotion is not a weakness but a sign of strength something the ambassador herself doesn't know.
She has a way to get to me when no one else can't. It just took her smile on a very bad day for me to feel better. Her eyes could drill into my strongest walls and see right through me. I realised I could not lie to her nor could I shut her out so I found myself opening to her. Soon I realised I could trust her more than I trust anyone. When it was just the 2 of us I let her see the real me. She accepted me as I am. I could just tell her anything and not be scared of rejection. I realised then that I was in love with Jennifer Jareau. I had packed the thoughts and emotions in one of her compartments and locked with a double key. She only unlocked it and indulged in fantasies when she was in her apartment. Now Jen had asked her on a date. This day will surely win a gold award for the best day of my life.
The day passed so quickly. I was grateful. I never saw Jen again that day. I realised it was for the best. I soon found myself in my apartment rummaging my closet for what to wear. She had said I should wear something less formal. I am glad she remembered I don't like formal dinners. Not that I don't like them but one just gets fed up with them especially if your mother happens to be an ambassador. I chuckled to myself as I realised what I was doing. I was looking into my full length mirror in my forth outfit. I realised I was nervous. I wanted to impress. I eventually settled for a red halter neck top and dark tight fitting jean. I let my hair down spiralling down my back. For make-up I just put minimal. I looked into the mirror one more time and was satisfied. The doorbell rang. I picked up my purse and went for the door.
My jaw dropped when I looked at her. She looked so chic and beautiful. She wore blue jeans and a white blouse with elbow length sleeves. Her hair was pulled back in a simple pony tail showing off her beautiful face and neck. She had this long round earrings that made her look so sexy. She was just so perfect. I don't know the conversation we had because I was too busy checking her out. It seemed my brain and my mind had ceased working together.
She took me to my (our) favourite exclusive restaurant. We only come here for special occasions like her birthday. No one else in the team has come here with either of us. It was like our place. I am so glad we came here for our first date. It was so sentimental to me. We took our usual table in a tight corner and relaxed. We were soon chatting while the food slowly disappeared from our plates. I have never seen someone so beautiful and just downright sexy like her. I was staring. Again. "What?" I heard her say.
"You look beautiful" I said opting for the truth. After all I can't lie to her. I smile as I see her a blush creep on her cheeks. She looked adorable had it been we were in a private space I would have kissed her. "No you are." she said softly looking right into my eyes. Our eyes held and communicated the emotions we felt. She made for my hand and our fingers tangled. Electricity coursed through on contact. My hands tingled. Her hands are so soft and I can't help but caress her with my thumb. It is an intense moment ad I feel a strong urge to just kiss her. I resort to just giving her my sexiest smile in an effort to make her feel the way I was feeling.
We left the restaurant and decided to take a walk in the park. She took my hand again as we walked. I was glad. To me it showed a connection. She was comfortable to hold my hand in public. To show we were more than friends. She startled me by saying "do you realise we have been dating all along?" I realised it was true. We have been dating but we just pretended it was friendship. I got her small sentimental gifts hiding by the name of 'she is my friend' but deep down she knew it wasn't. I chuckled and said "yeah. I do. I just hid behind the 'you are my friend' but deep down I knew it was more. I care about you so deeply." I opted for care but all I wanted to say was I love you. I didn't want to scare her.
I realised we had stopped walking and she was standing so close to me. My heart raced. She took hold of both of my hands and looked me into the eyes. "Me too. I just realised I couldn't go on with it anymore. I spent my life running away from emotions. I always feared I would get hurt but you changed it all. When you came you were just so different from anyone. I knew then you were special. I trust you. I care about you." she said looking into my eyes her voice full of emotion. I felt my eyes tearing as she opened her heart to me. "I am in love with you Emily and I don't want to run anymore." She declared and the tears fell from my eyes.
Here was the woman I have been I love with for long telling me she loved me. I was wowed. I couldn't understand why someone so perfect like her could love me. I never thought I was loveable. How did I get so lucky? I had never imagined this day would come. I felt her soft hands caressing my check brushing away my tears. I raised my hand and took hold of hers still on my check. I looked straight into her eyes hoping my eyes could convey what I really felt. "I am in love with you too Jennifer." My voice sounded deep and husky. "You are the most amazing and perfect woman ever. I used to hide behind my walls pretending I couldn't feel anything. That I didn't need anyone in my life. That I could live alone and hide behind my walls. You came and changed that. You have made me happy and made me realise and learn a lot in life. I gave you my heart long back. You have it with you and I trust you will never break it as I will never break yours." I finished and realised she too was crying. I took her in my arms and just held her relishing the feel of her in my arms. I leaned back after a while and looked into her eyes. I smiled. My heart was soaring. "I love you." I said again and I slowly leaned toward her. We met halfway. The kiss was slow, passionate and we conveyed with our tongues and mouths. The kiss was full of emotion and promise and I just let myself go. After years of loneliness I had finally found my soul mate.
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