An update! Just a heads up, this chapter is going to be more of an explanation of why Father killed him before putting him in Al, and why he freaked out last chapter.

Enjoy!

Disclaimer- I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist or any of the characters.

Envy kept running, he ran past the Briggs soldiers, ran out of Fort Briggs and started running through the mountain. He didn't stop there, he continued running through the snow, down the mountain until he came to an abandoned building. It might have been part of Fort Briggs but was stopped being used. It might have even been a part of a Drachma base, he didn't even know if he had crossed the Amestris border into Drachma when he ran or not.

He stopped to pause, his mind a whirlwind of chaos, unable to focus on one thought long enough to actually process it. He started running and ran to the building, swinging the door open and then stumbled into the room, slamming and locking the door. Had he not been so paniced he would have wondered why the place still had a lock, but his mind still wasn't able to slow down to think clearly. He leaned against the door and shifted out of Al's form and into his preferred form as tried and failed to keep his breathing calm.

He was covered in sweat and was starting to hypervenilate. Why did seeing that Winry girl start all this chaos in his mind?

"You...and Winry...you knew her..." Al said, it wasn't taking him long to put the peices together. Envy knew Winry, knew her well, but one peice seemed to be missing, how did he know her? Under a normal circumstance, Envy would be able to keep thoughts and memories from Al, by sort of stuffing Alphonse into a mental box. But since even Envy wasn't able to keep his thoughts under control, Al's 'box' was gone and he was able to hear every thought that and memory running through the Homunculus head.

Envy crumpled to the ground, clutching his head as all the memories began to swarm through his head, these weren't his memories! These were the old Envy's memories not his! Why was he suffering them then?

Make it stop! Make it stop! Make it stop! He chanted in hsi head, these weren't his memories, these were not his memories! Make it stop! His head felt like it was going to explode! Make these memories stop! They weren't his!

"You and Winry...were together," Al realized, it horrified him that Winry would be with Envy and that she knew what he had done- the memories he could get fragments of that made sense contained Envy explaining what he was and did to her. That just gave him hope that there was good in Envy. But as he spoke to the Homunculus, he found it that Envy wasn't hearing him.

"These aren't mine! These aren't mine!" Envy cried out as he began rocking back and forth, repeatedly denying the memories were his.

"ENVY!" Al yelled his his head, "Friendship and love are bonded through the soul not the mind! No matter how much you argue, that is still you! These are still your memories!"

"NO ITS NOT!" Envy yelled and crumpled onto the ground as his mind started going over one of his dates with her.

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Envy sat in a chair at the cafe, gazing out the window while waiting for his date to arrive, he had been there for twenty minutes already, and she was late. In any normal situation, he would have given up a while ago and left, but this wasn't a 'normal situation' for him. No situation with her would be considered a normal situation.

He knew she probably was being held up at work, knowing how much she loved what she did and he respected her for that. Also knowing it could take a while to repair or attach automail to a person, he didn't blame her for being late.

He twiddled his thumbs as nervousness begun to overtake him, maybe she wasn't going to show up. After all, she knew what Envy was, she knew he was a homunculus and killed, she knew what his kind did.

A year ago he would have laughed if someone said he'd tell a human everything about him and his kind. Well almost everything, he tried to talk as little as possible about the Promise Day, he didn't want to scare her.

He glanced out the window, he had changed a lot upon meeting her, he had become less violent, even the others noticed his sadistic and cruel nature had been toned down quite a bit. He didn't even bother with the Elrics as often now and even refused to fight when he had a wide opening too do it, he knew it hurt her when he injuried the brothers, with how close they were.

But he envied the bond they had. Sure he was dating her, but they probably had the deeper bond. He wouldn't be surprised if she had to choose between the brothers or him, she would choose the brothers. It hurt, but it was a truth.

He'd done so much for her, he changed or her. His more calm nature was an example, she had come out and told him on a date how he scared her at times with his sadistic nature and cruelity. So he'd bottled it all up, it was difficult but he managed to become more merciful.

He glanced around looking or her and felt his heart flutter when he saw her enter, look around and smile a smile she reserved just for him when she saw him.

"Envy," Winry said walking up and sitting down across from him, "I hope I didn't keep you here to long, sorry for being late," She apologized.

Envy couldn't help but smile at her, "It's alright, I just got here, I was held up a little to with some recon mission Father sent me on," A smooth lie, to make her feel a little better over being late.

Winry smiled at him and he felt his pulse race and his stomach take up acrobatics like they always did when she was around.

"So, how was work?" Envy asked leaning towards her and he watched her as she shook her head in annoyance.

"So bothersome! I had a group of customers that were being so difficult, they didn't know that 'no' meant 'no' and the stuff they wanted was already bought by someone else," She said throwing her arms in the air, "How difficult is it for them to understand? Then the ringleader started flirting with me, calling me 'babe' and 'hot stuff' then just laughing with his friends as though it was some joke."

Envy growled and felt his namesake flare up, so a group of boys were flirting and hitting on Winry. He couldn't blame them, she was fucking beautiful, but She. Was. His. And she was his until he couldn't have her anymore.

"Envy? Yoohoo, Earth to Envy," he blinked and looked up to see Winry waving a hand in front of his face.

Envy grinned, unable to resist, "Envy to Earth, Envy's taking a vacation on Jupiter, call back later," He said causing her to grin and laugh.

"Good one," She said and rested her hand on his, smiling at him and he smiled back.

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Al saw the memory from Envys eyes and felt a pang of guilt, he felt like he was tresspassing, but also a bit anger. He knew that Ed loved Winry and it didn't feel right knowing that she was with Envy, or had been with Envy. But he remained silent as Envy continued rocking back and forth trying to purge the memory from his mind.

He felt sorry for Envy. Strangly, he wished he had a physical body so he could sit next to Envy and try to help him, comfort him while he was going through this. But he wasn't able to, so the best he could was whisper calming words to him to try and calm him down. He remembered most of them from what his mother told him and Ed when one of them was scared.

Envy had done terrible things, but Al had never seen him ever this vulnerable and it pained him to see him like this. Envy looked on the verge of a fullblown mental breakdown, if he wasn't already having one. Alphonse just wanted to try and calm him down, but whatever words he had been using to calm Envy down were now ignored as a new memory surfaced up.

A more painful memory that allowed Al to understand exactly why Envy had been killed.

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It took the others a lot longer then he expected them to take to figure out what he had been doing during his free time for the past four months. They probably would never have figured out like he had hoped for, had Lust not caught them making out in the rain one night.

Envy looked around and found himself in the same position Greed had been in.

Before they killed the greedy Homunculus.

Pinned above the container of acidic liquid.

"Envy."

Envy looked up to see Father facing away from him reading some book, but speaking to him. Great the concieted bastard didn't even have the courtesy to look at his son when talking to him before killing him.

"What?" Envy demanded.

He noticed Pride glare at him when he snapped at Father, but ignored him as Father put the book down.

"Why have you betrayed me?" Father asked, and as per usual, was trying to make Envy feel guilty, like he did something wrong. But being with her may be wrong in the eyes of Father and the others, but to him and her, it was just right.

Envy rolled his eyes, "I haven't betrayed you, I still do my work as usual, haven't messed up, haven't done anything wrong," Envy snapped, "I'm probably doing better since now I have a less chance of killing your 'precious Sacrifices'!"

Father looked at him now, "Envy, you are with a human, they are below you. Being with a human in such an...intiment way, is just treachery. It hurts me to see my son, my Envy, degrading himself to be with a human," Father said.

Envy glared, "If it's wrong with being with her, I don't want to be in the right!" He declared and it was true. If being with Winry was such a crime, was so wrong, then he was in pure bliss being in the wrong.

Father sighed, "Envy, do you love her? But of course you don't love her, love is not something you are capable of feeling, only Jealousy is what you can feel, and that is why you are with her, you are jealous of someone who is close to her so you took what they had, her," Of course he was trying to make Envy think that he didn't care for her, he was trying to make Envy think that he was only with Winry because of the Elrics and his jealousy.

He had to admit, it was kind of nice that Father was trying to make it so he didn't have to kill Envy. But, just because he didn't have to kill him, Envy knew he'd still be killed. No matter what. Great father he had, right?

"I..." Envy felt his throat tighten, "I...It doesn't matter if I love her or don't, she is mine and I will be with her if I want to be!" He yelled, he wasn't ready to come to terms with if he loved her, let alone say 'I love you/her' out loud.

Father just sighed, "I was afraid of this," He said to himself and Envy saw the lid to the burning liquid open up below him, "Envy, from me you were created, now, it is time for you tor return to my essance!" He said as Envy was lowered into the acid.

Envy just began laughing,, "LOVE YOU TOO, DAD!" He said letting out all the insanity he had been holding back for years, honestly, maybe he should have been named 'Psychotic' isntead of Envy. He wouldn't deny he could be pyschotic at times.

"DONT BLAME ME IF YOU GET SICK! BESIDES! LOOKS LIKE YOU COULD USE HAVING ME A PART OF YOU AGAIN! YOUR GONNA NEED SOMEONE GOOD LOOKING LIKE MYSELF TO FIX UP YOUR UGLY ASS FACE! HAHAHAHAHA!" He screamed, screaming was the only way to ignore the pain. He continued laughing, fully aware of the others watching him as he was killed. Disgust and pity in their eyes as they watched their 'corrupted brother' die.

And before he knew it, his mind shut down, almost as though going unconscience, the world went black and not a thought passed through his mind.

He was a part of Father again.

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"Envy..." Al whispered in the Homunculus' mind. He didn't know what he should do, yell at the sin, comfort him, or try and help him clear his mind.

But Envy didn't respond and the body went limp, with the occasional twitch of course which showed he was still alive. The stress and chaos that had just happened had left him drained of all his energy.

Well, I hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Please don't hurt me or this fanfiction for the Enwin pairing, Edwin fans! It was the only pairing I could think of with Envy that wasn't with another Homunculi, or with a male character.

Review with any comments you have.