Remus POV

Sirius had been dead for four months and Megan was making no sign of recovering from the loss. It was simply painful to be with her. I bit into my toast and looked up at Tonks when she said my name.

"Do you think I could talk to you in private a moment?" She said and I nodded slowly and followed her from the kitchen to the living room, my thoughts still set on Megan. "You need to do something Remus." She said when I was sitting down, she stood in front of me, her expression unreadable.

"About what?"

"About Megan." She said, her voice raised in annoyance. "She is making you miserable and I don't like to see it."

"What can I do?"

"Say something to her." She began to pace back and forwards.

"It won't work." I sighed. Tonks stopped pacing and crouched down in front of me.

"Listen Remus." She drew in a breath and closed her eyes as if preparing herself for something huge. "Over the past year I have developed feelings towards you that go way beyond friendship, I haven't said anything about it before because you have been with Megan and I respect that but this is too much now." She closed her eyes and willed herself to carry on. "I don't know if your feelings for me match mine but that doesn't matter, the point I am making is... I can't stand here and watch as Megan kills you from the inside. You're are hurting Remus, I can see it, and it is hurting me so please say something to Megan and fix things with her or end it because you deserve to be treated a hell of a lot better than she is treating you right now. Anyone who didn't know her would think she didn't love you at all." I instantly felt the need to jump to Megan's defence.

"She does love me. She is just having a hard time."

"And she is bringing you down with her." Tonks said with annoyance in her tone again.

"I can't say anything to her. It would only make her worse."

"Remus, that is her problem. You shouldn't have to suffer with her."

"I can't..." I began but inside my mind was exploding. Tonks had just told me she loves me and she was right about Megan. I didn't know what my feelings towards Tonks were, we had been so close but I hadn't seen it as anymore than a friendship. Was that because I thought the only Woman I would ever love would be Megan? Now that I thought about it more, I think I did have some form of feelings for Tonks but I couldn't tell her because I was with Megan and I had to fix things with her before I became as depressed as she was. When did my life become so confusing?

"Remus." Tonks rested a comforting hand on my thigh with broke me free from my reverie. "If you don't say something to her, I will." I opened my mouth to argue but no words came out. "Just to make things clear, I'm not trying to get you to break up with her. I just can't stand to see you hurting like this."

"I know... I just can't." There is nothing else I can say that will fix things.

"Then maybe I can." Said Tonks. "I won't be harsh on her. I will just tell her the truth and leave her to decide what to do. Hopefully she will see sense." I nodded once to show that I was ok with this and watched as she left the room.

Megan POV

When Tonks came into the bedroom and sat on the bed I can safely say that the conversation that followed was not one I had expected to be having.

"We need to talk Megan." She said pointedly. I looked up into her eyes and signalled for her to continue. "I don't think you are being very fair to Remus."

"What do you mean?" I said slowly, playing ignorance even though I knew exactly what she was referring to. I had been expecting a conversation like this soon but it surprised me hugely that Tonks was the one the initiate it, I had always expected it to be Remus.

"You know what I mean." She began. "You can't just sit like this, not talking to anyone and expect him to still be there when you finally come out of it. This is hurting him more than you think."

"How is my relationship with Remus any of your business?" I asked with a somewhat sharper tone than I intended.

"Because Remus is my friend and I don't like seeing him hurt." She said. I saw something shine in her eyes as she said this and I was hit with a sudden realisation.

"Do you love him?" I asked, swallowing the lump in my throat. She nodded.

"You should know though that I have no intention of acting upon those feelings unless Remus wanted it." She said quickly causing another question to come to mind.

"Does he love you?"

"Honestly, I don't know. But that doesn't even matter because he is with you; at least he is for now."

"What is that supposed to mean?" I snapped.

"It means that if you keep acting the way you are you are going to lose him and you will have no one to blame but yourself." She stood up to leave.

"You're right." I called after her. "I will talk to him; I'm not treating him fairly."

"Thank you." She sighed and closed the door behind her as she left.

XXXX

It took me a couple of hours to gather up the guts to do it but I did it eventually. I found Remus in the living room on his own and took a seat next to him. "I'm sorry." I said as a way of beginning the conversation. "I haven't been very fair to you over the past year but Tonks came and talked to me and I see that I was wrong to drag you along like this."

"And she is right." Remus said sharply. "You have been inconsiderate of my feelings." I nodded quickly

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Are you going to be able to change?" He asked me after a short silence.

"I don't know."

"Then maybe you should think about that." He looked up to meet my gaze. "I can't continue in a relationship like this. I love you Megan, more than anything but..."

"You know Tonks loves you." I blurted out. He nodded slowly in response. "Do you love her?" He said nothing. "You do, don't you?" I said, my heart ached but I knew he wasn't to blame. I was. If I hadn't been so withdrawn, this wouldn't have happened.

"I think I do." He muttered. "But I love you as well." As he said this I made a decision in my mind, one that would take away the last of my happiness. But it was the right thing to do. That much I was certain.

"I love you too Remus," I drew a deep breath. "And for that reason, I want you to be happy."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that... I am clearly unable to give you the happiness you need now... I am a mess and I need to sort myself out. Tonks can give you the happiness you deserve."

"So are you saying that we are over?" He asked.

"I think so. I love you so much and I can't stand what I am doing to you. I don't know how long it will take for me to be ok again but you have put up with this long enough. You need your happiness." I leant forward and touched my lips to his. "I wish you all the joy in the world. I know you two will be great together." I gave his shoulder a quick squeeze and left the room before he would see me cry. I could only hold the tears in for so long but the moment I reached the bedroom, our bedroom, I collapsed onto the floor in a fit of sobs as what had just happened fully dawned on me.

I really did have no one left but Harry, my godson, and I had to do everything I could to keep him safe so I wouldn't lose him too, that meant getting myself out of the mess I was in and sorting myself out. No matter how long it takes.

Ok to all of those who love Megan (which I gather from the reviews is most of you) Please don't hate me. There are several more chapters to go and so things might work out with Megan in the end, or he will be with Tonks ;).

What is a story without a bit of drama... You can't expect everything to go smoothly.

I hope you don't hate me too much. Next chapter will be in in two days.