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"I can't" Chapter 5

The bell rang for homeroom but neither of the girls seemed to pay attention to it. They just kept doing what they were doing.

Santana, who was in control, lead Brittany over to the benches and sat her down without breaking the kiss. Santana then staddled her legs over Brittany's lap, facing her. She wrapped her arms around the blonde's neck and fiddled with the zipper of her Cherio's uniform.

Once she got a good grip of the zipper, she slowly started unzipping her top.

Brittany suddenly broke the kiss. Santana opened her eys in confusion, "What?" She asked.

Brittany looked into her dark brown eyes, "You know my cousin Sara, right?" The blonde asked.

Santana gave her a not understanding look, "Yeah? What is this about, Britt?"

Brittany started playing with the lettering on Santana's Cherio top, "Well, she has a boyfriend now and she told me what they do together. Did you know they do exactly what we do?"

Santana understood what she was saying but didn't understand why she was bringing it up, "Okay?"

"Does this mean your my girlfriend?" Brittany asked making deep eye contract with the Latina infront of her.

Santana's eyes widened at the blonde's question. She never thought of Brittany as a girlfriend, just two 'really' close bestfriends. "Uhh.." She studdered. "Britt, were just two very close bestfriends." She smiled making her way back to Brittany's neck.

Brittany pulled herself back making Santana get a confused look. "But what if I want us to be more?" Brittany quickly said looking directly into her eyes.

Santana closed her eyes and took a deep breath, "We can't, Britt."

Brittany squinted her eyes in a mixture of confusion and fustration, "Why not? We already do what regular couples do!" She exclaimed.

Santana shut her eyes again and took another deep breath before opening her eyes. She couldn't just tell Brittany that she couldn't be with her because she was afraid of the comments and name calls. She just became co-captian for the Cherio's, she can't just throw it all away. So she came up with an answer that she would later regret, "Because I don't want a relationship with you! I only do this because the other boys in this school are boring and don't give me what i want!"

Brittany felt her heart completely break, as if cupid's evil twin took a hammer and smashed her heart repeatedly. "Get off of me." Brittany whispered. If she would've said it any louder tears would have slipped.

Santana fully realized what she said and shot up off of Brittany, "Brittany, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it!" She tried her best to take back the words that had crushed her bestfriends heart.

Brittany just stood up, zipped up the back part of her uniform, and walked out the doors that lead outside.

Santana ran after her through the doors, "Where are you going?" She yelled out, extremely worried.

"I'm walking home." She furiously said without even looking back at Santana.

Santana frowned. She would've murdered anybody who upset her Brittany, but this time it was her who had hurt the blonde. She decided she would just apologize after school. She couldn't miss school because, well if she did her parents would take away her cell phone and any chance of hanging with Brittany. Last year her and Brittany ditched at least once and week to go make out.

As Brittany walked home a million thoughts ran through her mind. Why doesn't Santana want her? Is she not good enough for her? She clenched her fists tight as she power walked to her house.

Santana is sitting in 8th period biology. Brittany would be in the same calss with her but she's at home.

She tapped her pencil repeatedly while staring at the clock, "Come on, 3 more minutes." She whispered to herself.

Its not that Santana hated school and wanted it to end, she just needed to go see Brittany. She hurt her bestfriend and she had to go make things right. Brittany was the closest person to her. If she lost her, she couldn't even imagine what would happen.

"Bringgg!" Before the bell even finished ringing Santana had already took off into the hall way. She didn't even stop at her locker, she just ran outside in the direction to Brittany's house.

Brittany was asleep in her bed. She had been crying and tired herself out. Her Cherio's uniform was still zipped on. She was positioned on her stomach curled up. Tissues were scattered all around her bed and mascara was stained in her pillow from Brittany's tears.

Santana walked onto Brittany's porch. She grabbed the hidden key out of the flower pot and unlocked the front door. She put the key back, walked in the house, and shut the door behind her.

The house looked empty. She looked up to find Lord Tubington on the staircase. He was nodding his head letting Santana know Brittany was upstairs. "Thanks Tubby." Santana whipered scratching Lord Tubington's head before making her way up the stairs.

Brittany's door was cracked so Lord Tubington could get in and out of her room. Santana made her way up the stairs and was now directly infront of Brittany's cracked door. She gently slid the door open so it wouldn't squeak waking the sleeping blonde.

Santana could literally feel her heart break. Were all these tussues surround her bed from her? Did she hurt Brittany that bad?

She lightly walked over to where Brittany was sleeping. She lifted her hand to lift a strand of hair that was in Brittany's face and put it behind her ear.

"Hmm.." Brittany hummed. The blonde took her fingers and shaped them into a fist to wake her sleepy eyes. "Lord Tubington, why did you wake me up?" Brittany whispered in a raspy voice.

"I, uhmm, I actually woke you up." Santana said with a slight smile.

"Santana?" Brittany asked in a gentile tone, then realizing she was still mad at her so ended in a harsh tone. "What are you doing here?" The blonde harshly asked.

The Latina was a little hurt with Brittany's tone, but she knew she deserved it, "I cam to check on you." She answered, lightly said sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Okay." Brittany said facing Santana, "I'm fine, you can leave now." She knew she didn't want Santana to leave but, she didn't want to just forgive her with a snap of fingers.

Santana bit her bottom lip. She was on the verge of tears. She hated to see Brittany upset, exspecially when she was the cause of it. She closed her eyes tightly because the tears were already forming.

Brittany rarley saw Santana break down. She didn't care that she was mad at her, she knew she needed to comfort her bestfriend, "San!" Brittany through the covers up from under her, jumped from her spot in the bed, and embraced Santana in a tight hug. "Shh, it's okay." She pulled Santana's head into her chest letting her chin set on the top of her head.

"I'm so, so sorry!" Santana cried out into Brittany's chest.

Brittany closed her eyes and cried with her, "I know you are."

Santana picked her head up, "I didn't mean a word i said! I promise I didn't! Your my bestfriend Brittany, you mean the world to me!"

Brittany nodded her head, "I know, you mean the world to me too! I shouldn't have pushed that on you. You weren't ready for me to bring that relationship stuff up."

Santana just cried more into Brittany chest.

Brittany laid them both on her bed. She held the crying Latina into her arms until she stopped. Santana's breath started to even out which ment she had fallen alseep. Brittany kissed the top of her head, letting sleep over take her body aswell.