Hey guys!

Firstly I want to apologise for not updating this chapter last week. To be honest with you lovely people I completely forgot I promised you Chapter 5 last Friday I think. Don't blame me blame school, and silly problems ;-)

Anyway here's Chapter 5; Hope you like it.

See you at the bottom xx

Epov

I dragged myself off the floor using the couch as a support to hold my half-sober body. My voice caught in my throat, I just couldn't bring myself to speak. I though she didn't want to see me again, I'd lost her right? "Bella," I breathed.

"When Rosalie said you looked like shit, I guess she wasn't wrong eh?" She half-heartedly laughed. I could see that there was something she wanted to tell me, I don't think I wanted to know what exactly that was. Instead I asked her, "How are you?" Bella told me she was okay and that she was going out tonight with the others. "That sounds nice. Have a good time," I said trying to smile, although it came out as a grimace.

"Would you like some help cleaning up," My angel said. Stop calling her 'your' angel Edward she's not yours anymore...

"I'm fine thank you Bella, I'll get round to cleaning the house eventually. Go and have fun tonight, yeah?" It broke my heart to know they had forgotten about me, and they didn't ask me to go out with them tonight. Get used to spending days after days on your own mate; this is how it will be from now on. Fuck sake, I need to ignore my conscience. Maybe if I had ignored it since I was 16 I wouldn't be in so much trouble with 'them'.

"Okay. Goodnight Edward," Bella smiled, but she still looked hurt.

"And you Bella." I hung my head muttering under my breath, "I miss you angel" She wouldn't have heard me, which in itself was a good thing. I composed myself and walked her to the door, opening it for her on her way out. Bella stood awkwardly for a moment, but gasped as soon as a turned to get a shirt. Shit. I forgot about the knife scar on my back. Fuck, fuck, fuck. She wasn't meant to see that. Ever.

"Edward, what happened to your back," Bella said shakily.

"It's nothing. Go and have a good night, don't worry about me. Say hello to the other guys."

Bella nodded, but her eyes showed sadness and brimmed with tears. I wanted to hold her so bad. It kills me knowing she still wants space when I want to wake up to her angelic face, every morning for the rest of my life. She doesn't even know that I had an engagement ring, and all I was waiting for, was the right time to propose. I want to spend my life with her, and if she didn't feel the same way I think I would die. No. I know I would die. Once I closed the front door I pounded my fists against it, cursing myself for letting her go again. My eyes were dampening, tears threatening to fall down my cheeks. "I love you Bella," I whispered to no one. I rested my head against the door, whilst tears slid down my cheeks at a quick pace.

A knock at the door brought me out of my thoughts. I wiped my tear stained cheeks, and opened the door, shocked at who was at the door, and what happened next. Bella flung herself at me, and I nearly lost my balance. Before I could think what was happening, her sweet lips were on mine. She wound her hands in my hair, and I circled my arms around her waist, pulling her as close as possible. When Bella pulled back she said, "Edward, I'm so fucking sorry. I shouldn't have left you; I don't know why I wanted some time to think. I'd already made my mind up that I would stay as long as you need me, way before you told me the story 2 weeks ago. I'm so sorry Edward, I love you." The last part came out in muffled sobs as she looked down to the floors. I called her name, expecting her to look up at me, but she kept ranting on about how sorry she was. "Bella," I asked again. When she didn't answer, I took her face in both my hands and said, "Isabella Swan, you stole my heart the second I saw you at that auction. You don't need to apologise for needing time apart from us, I screwed up. Not going to lie but I was a wreck last week, I lost you. I convinced myself that if I hadn't got into so much trouble in the past I would have still had you. I love you with all my heart, you own me Bella. You own me," I whispered my last words, and kissed her tears from her eyes. She whimpered, when I picked her up bridal style, carrying her featherless body up to my bedroom.

By the time I lay Bella in bed she was sleeping and lightly snoring, which I found really cute. I tried to pry her arms from around my neck but she held on tight, mumbling something about staying. I thought she was asleep, hmm. "Bella baby I haven't showered in days, I smell. Let me shower first," I whispered into her ear, trying to slip out of her grip before I squash her from lying on top of her for this long. "I don't care, I've craved you sleeping next to me for 2 weeks Edward, I don't give a fuck about your smell," Bella answered quite sternly, for someone half asleep. I nodded in agreement, settling my head in the crook of her neck, inhaling her sweet scent. I kissed her flesh, before finally feeling content. I smiled to myself before falling into a blissful sleep.

"Edward."

I hummed sleepily in response

"Edward you're lying in my bladder and I really got to pee," My sweet angel said. I rolled off her so she could go to the bathroom. The bed felt empty without her and I sighed at the loss of contact. A moment later the bed dipped and I felt Bella's dainty hands resting on my chest, tracing patterns. I pulled her close, burrowing my face in her chest. She giggled when my hair brushed against her neck but I silenced her when I lifted my hand over her mouth, and whispered "It is 3am, I don't appreciate being pushed off of you because you need to pee. I was very comfortable where I was. It still... urm sleep... time..." I didn't get chance to finish as I fell asleep for the second time.

When I woke, and opened my eyes this beautiful girl stared at me through her long eye lashes. It must have been around noon due to the gleaming rays of sun streaming through the bedroom windows. Visions became clear of what happened last night, bringing a huge grin on my face that stretched from ear to ear. Bella noticed this and asked, "Any reason as to why you're smiling like that?"

"Because I woke up to this fuck gorgeous girl, who I've missed for 2 weeks. And I can do this..." I trailed kisses from her ear down to the crook of her neck. I settled there sucking on her sweet flesh, marking her mine. Bella giggled, but then she fell quiet. I knew straight away that she was deep in thought. "Love are you okay?" I asked her. Bella got out of bed, and I whimpered at the loss of contact from her. Instead she took my hand and walked us over to the mirror. I was confused by her actions, until she replied with, "Edward take off your shirt." I stuttered before shaking my head in protest. Bella hugged me from behind, and when her hands travelled up my shirt my whole body froze. "Please relax baby, I want to see." She reached up on her tip-toes and kissed my neck before lifting my tee over my head. I closed my eyes and hung my head, whilst my whole body tensed as Bella gasped at the scar on my back. The tip of my scar started just below my left shoulder blade, and sliced diagonally across my back down to the bottom right of my back. I guess this was what happened when I decide to take the wrong path as a youngster. I never let anyone see this because no one knows my past. Small kisses were being peppered along my scar. I opened my eyes to see my angel tracing my scar with loving hands. "Bella," I whispered, tears brimming in my eyes. She looked up and I saw the tears in her eyes reflecting through the mirror. Turning around I pulled Bella to my chest, not caring how ugly I looked, "I love you my beautiful angel"

Bella buried her face in my neck muffling her tears. I need her. "Edward I need you," she mumbled. I didn't hesitate to lift her up, and neither did she when she wrapped her legs around my waist. I want this to be perfect. I've waited months for this, so I had to stay calm and do it right, and then I need to promise myself to tell her my story.

So what did you think? I'm hoping you liked it :)

Please please keep reading and definitely review! Your reviews give me new and better ideas for my story. You write the story with your comments, if you get me?

Chapter 6 should be posted next Monday hopefully, fingers crossed and pray I don't get writers block! Much love, till next time xxxx