Hey guys! I'm so so sorry that I've been gone for so long. Life has just been... life, and I've been busy. However, it's summer and I'm super psyched to start writing for you all again!
I got a request for Lea POV when she breaks up with Theo, so that's what this is. I AM SO HAPPY MONCHELE IS FINALLY REAL! I think we all called it.
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Dianna wouldn't leave me alone the rest of the week. I loved her, but we could certainly get on each other's nerves, mainly because she had the uncanny ability to know me better than I knew myself.
I continued to come up with reasons not to end things with Theo. As things became increasingly stressful, I started nervously spouting out pros and cons to her during dinner, watching TV, and working out at the gym.
"The press would have a field day," I tried to explain. "Theo and I have been together for so long." Di just looked at me. I squirmed uncomfortably, then blurted out, "I'm scared to, okay?"
"There it is," she said triumphantly, spearing a piece of penne pasta with her fork. "Lea, you've got to admit it. You want to break up with him. Whatever you guys had just isn't there anymore. The only thing stopping you is being scared."
"I just don't know what I'm scared about," I said, ripping up a piece of garlic bread in frustration. "I guess… what if things don't work out with Cory? Then I'll have lost two amazing guys."
"Hm," said Dianna thoughtfully, handing me a napkin to wipe off my now-greasy hands. "Have you talked to Jonathan lately?"
I realized I hadn't. How strange was that? He's my absolute best friend and I love him to death. "No, actually, I haven't," I admitted. "We've both been so busy. We played phone tag for awhile but then just fell out of touch."
"So call him. He's good with relationships. You know I'm really not." She reached for my plate and went over to the granite island, starting to rinse them off.
"Of course you are," I reassured her. "Besides, you're still amazing at everything else," I added, smiling at her. She really is a beautiful person, inside and out.
"Enough with the flattery," she said, laughing and flicking a dish towel at me. "Skedaddle."
"Okay, okay," I said, and went to call Jonathan.
After we hung up, I begrudgingly recounted our conversation to Dianna. Essentially, he had the same viewpoint, sagely pointing out that as scary as it is to take chances, I didn't want to miss a potentially life-changing relationship. While I thought it was a dangerously broad statement, I had to agree. Cory and I had spent the past few years constantly with each other. I think sparks flew the second we met: the look on his face mirrored the feeling I got in my chest. Neither of us wanted to admit it, so we remained respectfully non-romantic. I just love him, in a way I never loved Theo.
"So I was right," Dianna said, smirking slightly. "If Jonathan says so, then it's official. You said yourself that you don't trust anyone's advice until he gives his. Well, the stars have spoken, and you're going to break up with Theo. You know it's what you want. I wouldn't push you if I didn't think it was the best move."
"I don't want to hurt him," I fretted, but I couldn't stop thinking about Cory. Cory Cory Cory. All those moments we had… that one kiss in his old drumming room… the jokes, the laughs, the interviews… the Tweets, the texts, the Skypes, the phone calls… the time that Theo and I had a huge fight and the only person I wanted to hold me was him, and even though he was 60 miles away and it was snowing he made it to my house and stayed there until one in the morning, when I had stopped sobbing.
"Lea. You and Theo have been out of sync for a long time. You barely talk anymore! And I know it's because he's busy, but, well, have you thought that maybe he's not feeling it anymore? Besides, you guys could have a perfectly amiable break-up. Like me and Alex."
Alex Pettyfer. I had to grin, thinking about that. They were so cute together, and he really was a sweetheart, but that hadn't lasted. And it was true that they still texted a couple times a week, she was invited to some of his parties, and everything was completely civil.
But Theo and I had been together for so long. I just didn't know what to do.
Di handed me my phone. "You're going to do this," she said firmly. "Or I'll do it for you."
Fingers trembling, I obliged. It was time. So I called him. He picked up on the last ring, sounding frazzled. "Hello?"
"Hi, Theo," I said. "Um… we need to talk."
He sighed. "Do you want to break up?"
Completely taken aback, I stammered, "I – I don't know. Can we just grab a coffee tomorrow and chat?"
"Sorry," he said hastily. "I've just – my life has been crazy and busy and I assumed since we never talk…"
"Yeah, yeah, it's fine. Sorry for springing this on you."
"Anyway, coffee tomorrow sounds fine. Are you free around eleven?"
"Hold on." I checked my calendar, then confirmed, "Yep. I am."
"See you then."
"Bye." We hung up, and it wasn't until fifteen minutes later that I realized we hadn't said "I love you".
So I know this isn't the full break-up yet, but I thought this part was important. The next chapter will contain their break-up and Lea/Cory finally getting together. Let me know how you liked it. Review!