The next morning Hissori awoke feeling completely unrested and the fact that her wounds were still hurting didn't do much to help. She slowly sat up wincing slightly at the pain in her said but she merely ignored it and continued on preparing for a day at work. After stepping out of her room Hissori took notice that it was raining, she sighed and smiled slightly at least the rain was calming.

"Hey Sori!" Renji called as he ran up to her "Are you sure your well enough to be back? I don't want you getting hurt again."

"I'm fine, thank you for worrying though" Hissori said in a soft voice.

"Alright then, there's a meeting soon so we better get going" he said and watched her with concerned eyes as she walked away. He noticed that ever since they returned home she was starting to act like her old self and close out the world again but this, this was exactly how she was a month ago before they left. Renji shook his head deciding not to worry on it and hurried off towards the meeting room.

As Hissori left the meeting room a heavy annoyed sigh escaped from her. The meeting was nothing important just the usual stuff Captain Kuchiki went over. She wasn't exactly in the mood to be talking with everyone around the barracks so Hissori decided to go to the garden and to her surprise, and utter discomfort, Rangiku was there as well.

"Sori!" Rangiku said happily as Hissori walked up to her.

"Hey Rangiku" she answered softly.

"I told him this would happen" Rangiku said sourly and crossed her arms. The simple word him brought fresh pain filled tears to Hissoris' eyes and she turned away from the busty blonde. As she took a step away planning to go back, once again, to her room when Rangiku stopped her.

"Hissori wait, I was told to give this to you" Rangiku said holding out something that appeared to be a note. Curiosity overwhelmed in Hissori as she first eyed the note and then took it, not even bothering to ask who it was from.

"Thank you Rangiku" Hissori said in a normal tone and then left the gardens to head back to her room to read the note.

After reaching her room Hissori sat on her bed and took a closer look at the note and saw a small snowflake drawn on it. As simple as it was Hissori couldn't help but smile at the picture before going on and opening the note up to see what was inside.

Hissori,

I want this to work, but there are so many things preventing it that I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry.

Toshiro

Hissori stared at the paper rereading it over and over trying to comprehend what Toshiro was saying to her but then again; she already knew, it was something she had come to terms with the day before. She couldn't help the new tears that started to fall onto the note, for her to tell herself was one thing but for Toshiro to just come out and say it, it just made things too much to bare. Eventually after she had stopped crying and pulled herself back together Hissori got up, leaving the note on her bed, and left her room. She was making her way to the 10th division in hopes of finding Rangiku, but she'd have to try her best to avoid Toshiro. But to her utter dismay when she opened the doors to the office there he sat but for once not doing paperwork. Hissori stepped into the office and saw the small white haired captain with his face in his hands, when he finally noticed her presence his head snapped up and Hissori turned her head before their eyes could meet, she didn't want him to know what she was going through right now.

"Sorry to bother you Captain Hitsugaya I was looking for Rangiku, I can see now that she's not here" Hissori said choking back sobs and forcing away tears "I'll just be going now." She turned and started walking to the door but before she made it a hand snatched hers up. Hissori turned to protest and their eyes locked she knew then there was no hope,

"Hissori-"

"Don't….please just don't" Hissori whispered her plea unsure if she would be able to handle whatever it was he was going to say. Toshiro looked at her with longing eyes and tightened his grasp on her hand.

"I'm sorry" he uttered then released her hand and turned around.

"So that's it then?" Hissori asked feeling herself go weak "You're not even going to try?" There was three foot space between them as he turned around to face her once more.

"And what exactly should I do?" Toshiro questioned coldly.

"Fight!" Hissori yelled as the tears escaped her hold "You fight! If there's something you want you fight for it you don't just give up!" Toshiro closed the small distance between them and wrapped Hissori tightly in his arms as she beat halfheartedly against his chest.

"Hissori-"

"No, no you can't do this" Hissori yelled trying to break free of his grasps only to fail miserably. Then in the blink of an eye she found herself pinned against a wall with Toshiros' lips pressed into hers.