Chapter 12

I think about what Marie has said after she leaves. I can't believe she said it and she didn't even expect me to say it back. She just laid her cards on the table. Does that mean she forgives me for what I said and she didn't mean what she said? It does mean that if I want it then I haven't lost her. What does she want me to help her with tonight? There are so many questions. I sit and meditate something I have not done in a long while.

I don't know what I feel for her only that the month when she refused to speak to me was hell. Hell for the both of us I think. Marie is a very simple character she makes a decision and sees it through. I guess when you don't know how much time you have you can't hesitate. She is acting like she is still on the clock but she isn't and I guess that is the only way she knows. Do I love Marie? I don't know I don't know if I know what love is. But I know that I want to be in her life that I care for her very much which maybe love and I will look after her until the day she dies if she won't turn for me. Although I have not given up hope of that I will be patient on that one thing. But tonight what is it that she wants to do with me? I think on that one and I realise that she wants me to spend the night with her as her lover it is one thing that she couldn't do before that she can now. She wants to do it before she knows what her future will be so she can say that she had one night. In case I may not do it again after I know what Alf thinks.

She has made a very big commitment to me and I feel I should acknowledge it. She is not one for material gifts and I know that she does not expect me to say that I love her back until I want to and that is not tonight. I need to acknowledge it with something. I feel obliged to do that but I can think of nothing.

I close my eyes and die for the day hoping I will be inspired when I wake.

Marie's POV

Cassie is in when I arrive home and screams when she sees me. She is relived I am ok amazed the scars have gone and so happy. We are both really happy and dance around the kitchen like lunatics for a long time. Cassie is happy that I will be there when she graduates and when she marries and that I will have a bigger part in the rest of her life than her or I had every hoped for. I tell her everything that has happened between Godric and I and then I tell her that I told him I loved him.

"Are you mad" she asks me feeling my forehead

"Nope" I grin at her. "I am happy."

"Why? How?" She asks.

" Because he cares he cares more than he realises he just doesn't show it in the way a human would express it. But I can see that he does and that he always will. He may never tell me he loves me but I know he does he just is so detached from his human emotions that he has no idea what he feels or how to show it."

"Are you sure he will come tonight?"

"Yes I am"

"Do you want me to be here?"

"No why?"

"I had plans but I would cancel them for you if you want"

"No Everything is going to be fine. Besides you would probably tell him he is a screw up."

"No I wouldn't" Cassie's says indignantly " I would tell him if he hurt you I would kill him"

Cassie leaves at sunset for the college paper and I wait for Godric. While I am waiting I clean my bedroom, the bathroom and the kitchen and do some long overdue laundry and by 9pm he is still not here and I begin to doubt myself slightly. But he is the Sheriff of Area 9 so maybe he was delayed who knows. At 9.30 there is a knock at the door and I smile and I want to jump up and down. Then I remember we have exchanged blood now and he knows what I am feeling. Damn I forgot about that. I open the door and he is standing there smugly with an amused look on his face.

"You came" I throw my arms around his neck and a few seconds later his arms slide around my waist and he sniffs my hair.

"You knew I would" he whispers into my ear.

"What took you so long though? Sunset was ages ago."

"Sheriff stuff" he says non committally.

"Come in" I tell him. I have kicked him out and invited him in more times than I can remember and I can't remember where we are.

He comes out of the dark hall way and into the light of our living room and I see that he is wearing a tux. What kind of Sheriff business was he doing? I like it though I love tuxes on men they make them look so sexy. Sometimes when all you see them in is jeans and t-shirts its nice to see them dressed up.

"Where have you come from?" I ask him curiously

"My nest" he answers

"In a tux?" I question him

"Yes" he replies

I giggle a little bit from nervousness and a little bit from the vision of Godric prancing round his nest in tux. Although Godric doesn't prance but still its my imagination. He looks at me questioningly and steps forward.

"What did you want me to help you do?" he asks

Well I thought he would have worked it out actually But still if he wants me to say it I will but not before I make him squirm a bit.

"2000 years on the planet and you haven't worked it out yet" .

"No" he says smiling at me.

I turn my back on him and walk towards my bedroom. He zips in front of me and folds his arms.

"Tell me what you wanted to do" he demands

I look into his eyes and I can tell he is hungry.

"You haven't fed" I retort.

"and you are really horny " he returns

"No I am not" I retort. Although my body temperature has gone up several degrees.

"Your iris's have gone purple" he responds " and they only do that before, during or after we kiss and or I make you cum"

"You never mentioned it before"

"Call it a secret pleasure of mine as its only something I see"

I hold out my wrist..

"Feed" I tell him.

He puts his arms around me and says to me. "I will feed my darling during and after I have dealt with your need for me to make love to you." and that's when we kiss. He kisses me so gently and he runs his tongue over my lips until I let him in and when I do he devours my mouth. He breaks the kiss.

"God I wish you had worn a witch dress."

"Who said I didn't I only put this shirt dress on to cover it while I was cleaning and waiting for you."

I wriggle out of his arms and slowly take off the shirt dress and he watches my hands undo the buttons. I shrug the dress off and pick up a hat off the bookcase.

"See" I say "Complete with hat"

He smiles and I see his fangs aren't down yet. I twirl for him and grab his hand and lead him into the bedroom. He sits down on the bed and pulls me too him.

"Why are you wearing a tux?" I ask

"Because I wanted you to feel special. I could not think of anything else to do for you"

"Is that why you where late?" I probe him and he nods.

"I like it but you could have come in a bin bag and I wouldn't have cared only that you came."

He pulls me on to his lap and he kisses me again and his hands wander over my body he arranges my legs either side of him and puts one arm round me and uses the other to move up the bed and I am not expecting that so I fall forward and my hands end up either side of his face.

"Now this view I like"

He rips the costume right down the middle and I am only in my panties. His hands are everywhere teasing my nipples, massaging my breasts stroking my face and he stops with his hands tangled in my hair.

"Its ok" I whisper "Don't hold back"

"I am not"

"you are I tell him. You're keeping your fangs in"

He looks guilty for about five seconds because he knows that I am right.. I lean forward and kiss him and run my tongue over his top gum but nothing. I glare at him.

"Godric" I say warningly "I want to spend the night making love to you not someone you aren't.
He stays silent.
"I trust you" I tell him as I do not understand why he is being so distant. He stays silent and in frustration I shake him and he hisses at me but I don't care it's a reaction. Ok I am not having sex with a statue. I slap him on the side of the face and anger darts into his eyes and his fangs pop out. There we go proper Godric is in the room. He sits up so we are facing each other.
"Is this what you want to see" he hisses
"Well not the fangs per se but a reaction would be nice. Godric I accept what you are I don't want nor expect you to hide it from me when will you understand that?"
"Even after all I have done?"
"Yes"
"You know nothing about me nothing about what I have done before I met you."
"But I like what I see and FYI you don't know everything about me. Godric the past is the past be here with me now.
I kiss him again. I can't get through to him how much I care. Yes he has hurt me but I would rather to be with him than without him. When will he get that into his thick head.
"Then you will see all that I can be the good and the bad."
He takes my wrist straights my fingers and slaps himself across the face. His face instantly darkens and he looks up at me with hooded eyes. This is new. I realise he is probably trying to unleash his inner monster to scare me. He keeps holding my wrist and goes to slap himself in the face but I get there before him with my other hand, which surprises him.
"Is this meant to scare me? Because its not. The only way this side of you is coming out is if i hit you or you make me hit you."
"I like it" he hisses
"You like to be hit?"
"Yes dominated and possessed." ok yes I can deal with is. I can I can I can.
"Okay anything else?" I am slightly fearful of the answer.
"Sex with more than one person and sex covered in blood"
"And?" I look at him. Is that all it is? I am thinking
"That's all." He says quietly. He is waiting for my reaction. He thinks I am going to run. He is so mistaken. I have a new lease of life does he really thing that I won't try some of these things for him. I want to learn everything I love to learn and now my body is not holding me back there is nothing stopping me.
"Did you think I was going to run?"
"Yes" he answer quietly.
Ok I am going to have to do some research but what goes on in our bedroom is our private affair no one else needs to know. He is still trying to gauge my reaction. So much for vampire blood telling him how I am feeling but then I have no idea is what is going on inside his head.
"Explain" I demand
"I don't always like being in charge being on top being the dominant one sometimes I like others to do it for me. It is important to me that you know this. I will not always be the lover you want me to be "

Clearly he has not heard of pms I think to my self. Besides how do I know what lover I want him to be we haven't had sex yet.

"I trust you with this information as you have done more than I expected as a human to a vampire. You try harder than anyone I know to understand what is not within the realms of your understanding. You are not like any human I have ever met. You want nothing more than friendship from me. Most humans, want sex, want v or want to be turned you do not. That is hard for me to comprehend nothing in this life is free 2000 years have taught me that but you give and give and I can give you nothing in return except a broken soul. Tell me how you feel now?"

"Honestly?"

"honestly"

"I need to go to the library and do some internet research. Besides I don't know what lover I want you to be we haven't even have sex yet." I blush but that is my initial reaction.

"Only you would think like that" he smiles genuinely the first time that night and I breathe in relief.

"So now you have got that off your chest can we..."

"Can we what?" He asks mischievously "What do you want Marie?"

I struggle against him but he has me pinned. I huff a little and then I say.

"I want you to make love to me tonight."

He kisses me and says "My pleasure."

I love kissing Godric he is so good at it. He is still in his tux but I know that he will make the intial bit about me and my skin is on fire from his attention and from the fabric of his tux rubbing against my skin. I moan and he massages my breasts and moves his lips down between my breasts and down towards my stomach. He discards my panties quickly and he licks my clit I moan and tangle my hands in his hair pushing him closer to my centre and urging him to go faster. He pushes two fingers inside of me and pumps his hand. My head falls back and I scream in pleasure it feels good. He adds a third finger and I feel my body tense rushing towards orgasm he speeds up his fingers and licks my thigh and as I come he bites me sending me to another higher level of pleasure extending the orgasm he has coaxed from me. I come down breathing hard from my high. I can't believe sex could be any better. Godric is naked beside me and I feel his erection against my thigh. I lean over and kiss him and he rolls on top of me again. His mouth is all bloodied but he looks happy.. I smile up at him.

"I love your blood" he says quietly.

"I know but you are a messy eater" I respond and I pull him down to kiss him. Smearing my blood on my face as I do but I don't care. He looks down at me and his eyes darken again. Me smeared in blood is clearly turning him so reach down and stroke him and he cries out.

"I need to be inside you now Marie" he whispers to me.

I breathe deeply "OK"

He positions himself and pushes into me very slowly. I cry out and he stops.

"Keep going" I say to him. It hurts a little but not too much.

"You're so tight" he moans but he pushes gently in and stays still once he is all the way in. I move my hips so he will move and he slowly pulls out and pushes in.

"oh Godric" I moan arching my back. He does it again and again and the pain disappears. He sets a rhythm which I match but its not enough.

"Faster" I urge him and he speeds up and I can't keep up anymore and he goes even faster speeding towards his own climax and taking me with him. He kneels up bringing me with him and pulls my hair to one side and he moves at a relentless speed and just as we both climax he bites my neck and he keeps moving until the orgasm begins to subside. He gently lays me back down and pulls the duvet over us. I am not quite capable of speech yet. But I cuddle in next to him.

"You are warm" he says quietly

"Make spoons" I reply

"What?"

Oh god the 2000 year old vampire has never been spooned wow.

"Roll on your side away from me."

He does as I ask him and I curl around him. The warmth radiating from my body to his.

"If you ever want to punish me then deny me this" he says

"Never" I say to him " I can come up with more creative ways to punish you than this. Besides this is best bit."

I stoke his tummy and feel his erection again. I am surprised its so soon but I take it in my hand and rub it. Varying and altering the pace and he leans back into me and I kiss his neck.

"I am going to cum" he moans.

I stop which I know is evil and close the blinds it will be sunrise soon. I come back into the room which is pitch dark and close the door. Godric is behind the door and pounces when I close it.

"That was naughty my love" he whispers.

"I learnt it from an ancient vampire?" I tell him.

"Really" he says pulling me back to the bed. "What else did he teach you?"

"Nothing yet but I am hoping to learn something new by sunrise"

"I think we can manage that. Kneel on the edge of the bed ."

He pushes me towards the bed and I climb on and kneel. He lifts my hips and I kneel up and he pulls me back slightly and I can feel him standing between my legs. He thrusts up inside me without warning groaning in pleasure, he wraps his arms around my waist and trusts harder and harder and we both moan in pleasure. That knot everyone speaks of begins to form and tighten and my pleasure begins build. As we near orgasm I hear Godric bite his wrist as I come he presses it to my mouth and bites my neck. We come screaming each others name. The world shifts and I can feel him. He wants to feel the warmth again. It brings him comfort. I feel so many things from him that is impossible to process them all. So I lay down and reach for him in the dark and he envelopes me. Curling around me this time and we lay like that as the sun rises for the day. But when I wake in the evening I can't feel him anymore. I am disappointed that the connection is only temporary.

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