No one wants to believe me, understand me, care about me?! Whats the point of even being here tori thought to herself as she searched through her closet for her one of her old back packs. Once she found it she quickly swung it onto her bed and grabbed some necessary things from her room. Her phone, charger, underwear, some clothes. Then from the kitchen she grabbed a couple cans of food that don't need to be cooked or warmed up. A spoon, fork, and knife.. The knife for emergencies. Tori grabbed some bottled water shoved it in her bag as tears flooded her face.
Now was the perfect time, trina at school, her parents both working till late tonight. She can make a break for it and get far away before anyone would even notice… not that they cared she thought to herself.
Everything at the moment was making sense to her if she ran away her parents wouldn't divorce, trina wouldn't have to deal with her, andre would finally have her out his life for good, jade would finally be happy and… beck. Tori shook her head to get him out her mind, she knew if she thought of him she would stay.
Tori ran upstairs and put on shorts and a t shirt with a pair of comfortable, warm gray colored sweats over and a sweat shirt over she t shirt. It would get cold sometimes and she wanted to be prepared. Tori slipped on her sneakers put on sunglasses on and placed her hood on her head. She then grabbed the money she has saved through the year for emergencies and shoved it in her bag… $896, that should come in handy. Tori then ran out the house but not before leaving a note.
Tori ran out the house, down the street, around the corner and straight for an hour until she stopped to breath. She didn't want to necessarily leave California but only her town. Tori loved California. She decided to just run as far as she could today and camp out in an ally or something.
Tori did as she told herself, she ran and ran until she was hours away from her house. Night fell and it was dark outside so she stopped running. Tori scanned the area around her, not recognizing any of it. She felt relief knowing she was far away but scared.
Where Tori would sleep… she didn't know. Tori walked around, squinting her eyes to see through the blackness which didn't work. Finally she spotted a park… a park really… well better then nothing. tori thought to herself. She walked to a tunnel slide and wiggled her way into it. It was cold but the tunnel provided some warmth. There was a small crack in the slide but she could see through it.
Tori stared at the moon thinking of all events tonight. Beck was the main one. "beck… do you miss me? Do you even know im gone?" tori questioned aloud as if he would answer back. She stood waiting for an answer but received nothing. Tears built in her eyes as she remember the way he held her in the janitors closet, how he rubbed her back, called her babe, listened and tried to make her feel better.
Tori how the hell could you yell at him like that! Your so fucking stupid he was only trying to help. He may not understand but he was trying damn it! Tori cursed herself. She felt guilty for the way she treated the man she loved. is it worth it… did I make the right choice or am I just being the stupid little drama queen I am and exaggerating the whole situation. Either way its to late to go back now. tori questioned her actions to herself. She shivered as a gust of wind blew through the cracks of the slide. She wished she was back In her soft, warm bed. Snuggled up in her blanket instead of huddled together in a tiny cold hard slide located god knows where. definitely not worth it was the last thing tori said to herself as she drifted of into a restless sleep