As I lay in my bed I started to think of the day's events. But as I thought I felt a tear fall down my face. He kissed me. I let him kiss me. I couldn't believe it. I stood there holding his baby and he kissed me.
FLASHBACK
He stood up put his arm around my back and pulled me close to him. But he was mindful of the baby. "I love you rose and if it takes all our lives for you to trust me again I will wait. I promise" he said staring right into my eyes. And quickly before I could respond he pulled me close and kissed my lips gently. He stopped for a second only to breathe out "I love you baby and I will fight for you" then kissed me again.
For a moment I enjoyed it, in fact I even kissed him back, but then I heard a baby coo and it brought me back. I pulled back, and handed him the baby and started to walk away.
It happened so quickly I don't think he even realized until the baby started crying louder in his arms, he quickly handed the baby over to his father who was standing right there and started after me.
"Hey, hey, hey!" he said finally catching up with me. It still even surprises me how quickly I can walk in heels.
"Will you stop running from me!" he yelled when I didn't turn around
This infuriated me. "I would stop running Emmett if you stopped giving me reasons to bolt!" I yelled back at him
"I thought we were doing well!" he yelled then he seemed to relax and got quieter "I mean you are ok with Nathan now, otherwise you wouldn't have held him the whole race, or brought him over to me for that matter." He said looking at me with pleading eyes.
"Emmett, just because I can stand being around Nathan, does not mean I am ok with what you did!" he just stared at me silently "I loved you! Loved you so damn much! And you turn around and have a baby with someone else. Someone that I can't stand by the way. I know you never meant to get her pregnant, I get that, in fact I am over that, I could live with you having a baby, however I cannot get over the fact that you slept with someone else, cheated on me, and lied to me about it, not for a few days but months! Months Emmett! … I mean did I mean that little to you? …how could you do that to me?" I asked defeated
He just stood there silently. Staring at me.
"Say something!, I just stood here pouring my heart out and you say nothing! I mean you cant think of anything to say?" I pleaded. "Say something!" I yelled pushing him a little infuriated
He simply grabbed my arms to stop me, and held me in place. "Rose stop." He said calmly "if you honestly think what you just said to me, I don't … I mean I don't know what to even say." He shocked me by saying this.
"How could I do that to you? How could you not know how I feel about you!" he asked amazed and not in the good way "I have loved you since I was a hormonal teenage boy! I went out of my way to make everything perfect for you! You to this day think that that night we slept together for the first time was a complete coincidence, it wasn't! I planned that night for weeks! Who do you think put up all the lights and the hammock? And made sure that you were completely ready!"
"Emmett…"
"No, stop! You think I don't care what I put you through? You are wrong! I hate myself for doing this to you! I hate myself for it! Don't you get that?"
"Em, I never knew" I said upset
"Yeah, I know! Because I never wanted you to, I wanted you to have it easy! Why do you think I never let any other man near you? Huh?"
"I thought you were just a hypocrite" I say averting his eyes
"Listen I loved you then and I love you now, in fact I will always love you! However right now I trying really hard not to just call you a bitch and leave"
That stung "fine Emmett if that's how you feel call me a bitch! Leave me! It's what you have always been good at!"
"I want the Rose who told me that a simple touch by me would make her day brighter, I want the Rose who told me that she would spend the rest of her life with me back" he took I deep breathe "I love that rose, not this hot and cold one. I get it, I messed up and I have to deal with it, but please but, I miss the old you."
I stood there mulling over this whole conversation in my head. It made No sense at all, he was in love with me and mad at me and hated me all at the same time, although I kind of feel the same way so I can't really blame either of us on how this yelling match has turned out.
"That rose left when you cheated on her for the last time." And with that I walked away.
That bastard.
FLASHBAK OVER
That idiot. How dare he think he could just kiss me when he wants to! Well he can't! No matter how much I wanted to kiss him back. How dare him! We are not together anymore and he cannot attack me like some crazed animal on the prowl!
It felt like I had just shut my eyes when I heard my phone ringing.
"Hello" I said groggily
"Hey rose, it's me" Alice exclaimed
I rolled over in my bed to look at the clock "Alice you are way to chipper at 7 o'clock in the morning. "
"Yes well I have been awake with Hannah for a few hours already"
"Oh how lovely" I said sarcastically
"You know I almost forgot how hard it is to have a one year old."
"Yes, well can I go back to sleep now?" I asked irritated
"No, I called to ask if you wanted to hangout with me today? I thought maybe we could go to a spa or a movie or something"
"Yeah that sounds like fun … can I go back to bed now?"
"Yes I will be at your house in 3 hours" she squealed
"I'll be ready"
Two hours later I finally got up and I took a quick shower. I decided to wear my pink sundress with a white belt at my waist and paired it with my white wedges and I straightened my hair then brought half of it up and put some volume in it so it would stick up.
I stood downstairs, and grabbed a bowl and poured myself some cereal.
I stood there waiting for Alice when I heard my phone go off.
'Are you really mad at me right now for kissing you?' ~E
I sat there and wasn't sure if he was asking or if he was mad, so I decided to just not respond. I'm not his girlfriend and I don't owe him anything.
Five minutes later Alice opened my front door
"Way to knock" I said in fake madness
"Well I needed to make sure you were awake, and besides you gave me the key anyway. "
"My mistake" I said in a grumpy tone
"I will let that slide since I woke you up this morning"
"Whatever, I'm over it. Let's go shopping"
"Lets" I then followed her out of my house and into her car
E POV
"Don't look at me like that" I scolded "I mean yes I love her, however I think sometimes she just tries to get me upset. Although I suppose that's what women do huh? Well whatever, I am totally over her. Really I am" I said with confidence. After seeing the frown he gave me I caved "fine! I love her! Ok I can't help it. She is driving me crazy. So crazy that I am talking to a 5 month old"
Nathan just smiled back at me
"Well at least you think I'm funny" I state as I look at my beautiful baby boy. You know I must say he really looks like a carbon copy of me. which I am greatful for. I am happy he doesn't look like Becca. That would be to hard. It would be like reminding me of the mistakes I have made. Not that I wouldn't love him because I do a lot it just…well you know.
"Maybe I should txt her…what do you think?" I ask as I put another spoonful of gross baby food in his mouth.
He started giggling at me
"I will take that as a yes" I said with a smile on my face
I quickly type out 'Are you really mad at me right now for kissing you?' ~E
"I will just wait for the response" I stated at him
And I did wait and suddenly my phone went off and grabbed it excitedly for Rosalie but it was Alice"
"Emmett, I have a proposition for you"
"I'm all ears…"
R POV
"I'm exhausted Alice!" I said as I sat down at the restaurant "I forgot what it's like to go shopping with you"
"I know" she said smiling but then it dropped "listen rose I have to tell you something"
"What "I said a little bit nervous
"I did something" I just raise my eyebrows "I invited someone to lunch, oh they just arrived" she smiled behind me
Before I could turn my head around I felt a large hand on my shoulder and I immediately knew who it was
"Hi girls" he said
"Emmet"