Sorry for the late update. I just couldn't write since I found out about the break-up spoilers before it aired and I mean I found out about it even before the season started. So I said to myself I'll just write when these particular episode. And let me tell you after watching the episode it was even harder for me to write. Just what the hell happened there.

Oh well what can you do?

Just to warn you guys though, this is not a happy chapter.

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Sebastian's POV

Kurt was discharged from the hospital two days after what happened, as of now it has been ten days since we bought him home. At first he didn't want to, he wanted to be with Rachel and Finn-and that really stung. But after talking to the couple, since it was obvious that they want Kurt with them, we were able to convince them that Kurt needed to be with us. Finn was the one who relented first who in turn had to convince Rachel so that they could talk to Kurt why he can't stay with them. I really appreciate that Rachel cares a lot about Kurt, but there are times that I just want her to butt out of our relationship. But right now I wonder if it was a god idea to not let Kurt stay with them.

Ever since we got home he pretty much attached himself to Blaine, I didn't think too much about it at first. I mean between Blaine and I he was better at giving comfort, which Kurt really needs right. Plus they have known each other far longer than I have. I should just give Kurt time.

But as the days went by it became obvious that Kurt was avoiding me, every time that I try to be close to him and talk to him he would make up excuses to get away from me.

I didn't push…..because I didn't know how to start…I didn't know what to say…..I wish it was easy for me to just say what I feel….But I was always taught that if you get hurt you just keep it inside, push it aside, and if you can, just forget about it. I can't do those things right now though, because all I want to do is to talk to him and for him to talk to me. For him to just listen to me and not act like a cornered animal whenever he sees me. Can't he see that I just want to hold him and try to give him comfort the best that I can. Sometimes I feel jealous whenever I see them cuddled up together, it hurt to see how comfortable Kurt was with Blaine. And it hurts because it feels like I don't belong there with them.

Because of this I started to go to work really early and come back from work really just so I can forget those feelings, feelings that makes me just want to shake the both of them and say that I was feeling left out, but that just seems so childish.

Arriving at the condo I wished that both of them were already asleep but no such luck because when I arrived at the master's bedroom I saw that both of them were still awake. Blaine was reading a book and as what was usual this past few days, Kurt was hugging Blaine. Blaine looked up at me and smiled in greeting as I approached while Kurt just stared at nothing in particular but he didn't glance in my direction at all, which annoyed and hurt me at the same time. However I choose to not comment on it, I kissed Blaine and as I leaned over to kiss Kurt I saw him tense up, and I just couldn't stop the words that came out of my mouth.

"Exactly what is your problem with me Kurt? I wish you would just say it instead of acting like this."

"Sebastian." Blaine said and I could hear a warning in his voice. But I guess the constant rejection from Kurt had hurt too much that I couldn't stop.

"What is it Kurt? Why have you been avoiding me?" I asked again trying to catch his eye but he won't look at me. "Tell me something….anything…..please…" I continued.

"But instead of answering me he held on tighter to Blaine and it annoyed me to see Blaine reciprocate. It's as if they were expecting me to attack Kurt or something.

"Bas stop, can't you see he's not ready to talk?" Blaine said to me.

"Then when will he be ready?" I asked my voice rising again. "It's been days, and I know that it hurts…I understand that it's painful…because what happened obviously hurt me too. What I don't understand is why you're acting like this towards me?...do you hate me?...do you blame me?" I tried to wait for an answer from him, but not once during my entire tirade did he once look at me. I shook my head. "Fine be like that." I said before turning away and walking out the bedroom.

"Seb it's already late, where are you going?" Blaine called out to me in a worried voice.

"Out." I said simply. I can't deal with this anymore.

Kurt's POV

I couldn't speak when I know I should have. I should have told him that I don't blame him, that I don't blame anyone for what happened. I was scared of what you and Blaine would think of me if I told you what I felt in the hospital.

While I was in the hospital my emotions were unclear to me. I was sad and…relieved and…ashamed. Sad because the baby was gone, relieved because the baby was gone and ashamed because I was relieved that it was gone. But a new emotion came up the night before I was to be discharged, I was scared.

Scared of what you were feeling about me. If you were angry at me, or blame me. But I see right now that the both of you don't blame me at all.

I didn't tell both of you though, but five days ago I went to the hospital because I started to bleed heavily …they examined me and….I wonder right now though if you would still want me around when I tell you that…I wouldn't be able to bear any children anymore….

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