Bella's POV
I feel awful for being so mean to Jake but I'm so tired of him trying to control me and I was being honest about him being too much emotional. I get that he loves Amelia but I need someone that can comfort me. Maybe I'm being selfish but Paul can hold me without crying all over me. And he loves Amelia too.
Amelia looks even tinier then she normally looks hooked up to all these machines. I'm just sitting there holding her little hand with Paul sitting next to me barely with his one hand barely touching my leg.
"You have to wake up Amelia, Mommy needs you." I whisper.
I close my eyes and lay my head on her bed right next to hers. Then I hear her whimper and I look up and see her eyes open.
"Paul she's awake! Go tell someone please." And he goes.
"Mommy? Where I at?" She asks and I'm wiping tears from my eyes as I tell her she's in the hospital and that a doctor is going to come look at her soon. "Where Jakey? He say he be here when I wakes up." And I feel even more awful now.
Paul comes back with the doctor and I ask him to go get Jake. I stand back while the doctor checks her out. Jake comes in just as the doctor tells me that the fact that is awake and aware and talking is a huge first step. In the morning they will test her reflexes and motor skills.
"After that if everything goes well she will still need to stay a couple of weeks to heal and for more observation." He tells me and leaves.
"Jake I'm sorry about earlier. Do you hate me?" I ask him worriedly.
"Of course not Bella. I'll love you forever. Even when you don't need me anymore." He says sadly.
"I'll always need you Jake. And so will she." He's so dramatic.
"You already don't need me, you have Paul." He answers sadly.
"He's just a friend Jake. You're my best friend. Paul's just… not so attached. He loves her but not like you. I didn't mean that you being emotional is a bad thing. I'm emotional too and sometimes it's just too much."
"Mommy, I hungry." Amelia whines and I go out to find out if she can eat. The nurse tells me she can have liquids for now and pages someone to bring her something.
I pass Paul on the way and tell I'm sorry about kicking him out for Jake.
"Don't worry about it, she was asking for him. I don't want you worrying about me. You need to worry about you and her. Not me or Jake." I hug him and go back to Amelia.
When I get back she is sitting up and drinking whatever the nurse brought her.
"Mommy! This really good." She's tells me happily and I'm so relieved that she seems to be the same little girl.
"That's good baby." Then the nurse comes in and says how sorry she is but Amelia needs to rest and only one person can be in here with her.
"Bella, let me stay. Now that you've seen she's going to be fine let him take you home and get some rest. You can come back in the morning and you'll feel a lot better. I got rest this afternoon so I'm set for the night. If that's OK with you of course." Jake offers.
"Yeah that sounds good I guess. I'll come as soon as I wake up in the morning then I'll stay with her tomorrow night. Thanks Jake. I love you, don't even doubt that." I hug him and kiss Amelia and tell her I love her then head out to find Paul.
Once I find him I ask him to take me home.
"Are you sure? Don't let Jake guilt you into this." He demands.
"He didn't, He's more rested than me and Amelia will be in good hands with him. I'm so tired, my bed sounds nice. And I'll drive back as soon as I'm up and ready in the morning. Thank you for everything and tell Sam thanks too. Um, how long is he going to be OK with me not coming in?" I wonder.
"As long as you need babe, don't worry about it. If we need to we can find a temp." He assures me and start crying because I just realized that as long as I'm not working I'm not getting paid and I don't even know how I am supposed to pay all my regular bills let alone the medical bills.
"What is it?" he asks and I don't really want him feeling sorry for me so I just ignore him hoping he'll think it's just all of everything.
"OK you don't have to tell me but know that you can tell me anything." He tells me and I nod. Soon we are at the house and he follows me in and I'm so tired but I need a shower desperately.
"Do you want me to stay with you babe? Then I can take you back in the morning. Only if you want." He offers.
"Um yeah that would be nice. You can sleep in my bed; I will sleep on the couch." I tell him but he tells me no way he'll take the couch.
I take a long, hot shower; find an extra blanket and pillow for Paul then collapse in bed. But the sleep that I so desperately need doesn't come; instead I just lay there crying.
"Bella, can I come in?" He's standing in the doorway and I tell him yes through my tears and he comes and lies with me. I curl up into him and he holds me until I finally fall asleep.
In the morning I wake up and he makes me breakfast and we head back to the hospital.
Soon after we get there the doctor and her nurse start the next round of testing including walking and fine motor skills all of which she passes with no issues.
Now we just have to wait for her to heal completely and she can come home.
I go back to the room with her leaving Jake and Paul alone but I can't help but listen.
"Man, I'm sorry about last night. But I couldn't tell her no." Paul tells Jake.
"Don't worry about it. She needed you and you were there for her. Just don't hurt her."
"Jake I don't," Paul starts but Jakes cuts him off and just says yes you do.
Paul walks in and tells me Jake went home for a while and he's looking at me weird.
"Um once Jake gets back I have to get back to work. I can't really stay anymore." He tells me still looking at me weird.
"OK then. Thanks for everything I guess." I'm confused but I'm too tired to think much into it.