Hi you guys! I know its been some days since I last update. I've been with some writers block lately plus that my social life is trying to drag me out of my computer and I've been busy this week with college and stuff. This chapter is the only one that probably stuck with the original order that I was going to upload the one shots. This one is also the one I asked your opinion about. If you haven't deduced which one it is, keep reading then. :3
Also, thanks for all the reviews and follow alerts that I have gotten. That seriously makes me soooo happy and it really motivates me. Thats why every chance that I got, I wrote some until today that I decided to finish this chapter since it was the most that I have written on. Thank you to the ones that have favorite and followed the story.
I took extra care with this chapter because I didn't want to portrait something that didn't went along. I understand that us humans have an animalistic side, and specially in this sin, is portrait in some way but since I'm not that good writing intimate scenes... it took me a bit of difficulty to be satisfied with this chapter and I'm still a little doubtful with it. I could have done better, but at the same time I don't want to get in trouble so. You may notice also that the rating of this story changed, is because of this chapter the rest that are going to come. I'm to shy to write things like that but I tried to make it as indicial as posible but yet to keep it discrite. Weird thing to explain, I know. Anything else that I remember, will be put in the bottom of the chapter.
Another last thing: this chapter is going to switch from time to time from Rogue's POV to Eirin's POV. I wanted to adapt both POV's since the sensations, experiences and ways of seeing things are different. Don't worry, I will specify when the POV switches.
Disclaimer: Anything related to Fairy Tail belongs to Hiro Mashima.
-Chapter 4: Lust
I was making my way to my girlfriend's house. Today was our one-year anniversary and to say I was nervous was an understatement. Never in my wildest dreams I though that I would have such an amazing girlfriend plus that I would be with her so much time. I took a deep breath and held the single rose that I had on my hand tight as I hide it behind my back, connecting my fist with the door in a single knock when my girlfriend Eirin opened the door and launched herself at me, making me stumble a little before I could wrap my arms around her, giving her back the hug. When she finished hugging me, she kept her arms wrapped around my neck and she gave me a sweet kiss on the lips.
When she separated from me, I brought the rose to her view and I saw how her eyes twinkled with some sort of happiness. She looked at me with her big smiled and gave me another kiss. I approached the rose and she grabbed it, also grabbing my hand and leading me inside, closing the door behind us. I sat on the couch and she disappeared to the kitchen, to put the rose in a glass I'm guessing. She then disappeared to her room for a minute, before returning with something wrapped in paper. I looked at her curiously, only to be answered with a smile. She sat next to me and laid the thing on my lap, looking me with that smile of hers and looking into my eyes when I looked up.
"Happy anniversary, Rogue." –I offered her a small smile and removed the paper carefully, only to be greeted with a book. I looked at her and raised my eyebrow.
"That book you have in your hands is an ancient book about some part of the history of dragons. I heard there was some sort of books like that, and I've been looking all over for at least one. I know Gajeel has some, and I asked him where he has found it. He told me that he looked all over and also from jobs, so I looked everywhere for one so I could give it to you. I know you probably think is nothing, but actually I've read it and I though it might be interesting for you. You don't have to accept it if you don't like It." –She spoke the last sentence with a little sadness. I couldn't just reject something like that. She spend a lot of time and effort trying to get the book for me and also spend a lot of jewels to have it in her power. I shock my head and grabbed her hand, kissing it and then linking our fingers together.
"I want to read it. Thank you Eirin, this is really special and I'm amazed you went to all this trouble just to get this book for me. Really, thank you." –She smiled and nodded, giving me a short kiss on my lips.
"It was a pain the butt trying to find it but when I did I knew that it was the perfect gift. I spend a lot of time thinking of the perfect gift to give you, and this is what came up with." –She laid back on the couch and sighed with a frown. I looked at the book in my hands and smiled. Eirin definitely was the perfect girl for me, as cheesy as it sounds.
"Don't beat yourself up for it, I like it and its more special because you gave it to me. So thank you." –She smile and nodded. I laid back on the couch too and looked at her, taking a minute to admire her.
She had her eyes close, some of her long, purple strands of hair flowing down her shoulders to her front, her silky smooth skin looking somewhat glowingly, her black tank top hugging every curve of her upper body, fitting her perfectly, her black shorts fitting the lower waist and her smooth looking legs resting on the coffee table in front of her.
I never really though of Eirin in that way, but lately, I just want to be next to her all the time, feel her body heat, her arms tangled around me, her legs tangled around my own, her head resting on my chest while my arms are wrapped around her shoulders, keeping her close to me never wanting to let her go.
"Rogue?" –He sweet voice broke the trance I was in, her light brown eyes looking at me full of curiosity while a small shade of really light pink was barely in her cheeks. Shit, she caught me staring. I sighed and looked up to the sealing. I felt her thumb pressed against the back of my hand and I looked at her, seeing her smile as she leaned to my shoulder and rested her head.
"You should stop worrying so much about looking strong around me Rogue, I know you're a softy inside." –I sighed and heard her giggle a little. It made me smile. She then got up, offering me if I wanted something to drink or eat. I said no and she nodded, disappearing moments later to the kitchen and coming back with a glass of water.
We didn't have planned anything for today, since I wasn't supposed to even be here. She sat again next to me, grabbing the remote control from the coffee table and turning the TV on, watching whatever was on. She grabbed my hand; lacing our fingers together once again and making me look at her, being mesmerized again by her beauty. I found myself doing that often when I was with her like this. Suddenly I felt this urge to kiss her so I sat straight, grabbed her chin turning her face to me and kissing her lips softly. She returned the kiss, wrapping her arms around my neck, shifting her position so her upper body was facing me. I have never wanted something, or in this case, someone as much as I want Eirin. This year has been so special and she had changed my life in so many different ways. After a few minutes of kissing, she parted her lips from mine and looked at me smiling.
"Rogue, what's gotten into you?" –I raised my eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" –She laughed softly.
"Lately, when we see each other, you give me so much affection. Not that I'm complaining, of course, is just, odd." –I sighed.
"Well, I don't know, I just…" –I contemplate if to tell her the truth or not.
"Rogue, tell me the truth. You know I won't judge you, I've told you this before." –I nodded.
"Lately I just want to feel you close. I feel like I just want to hug you and kiss you. I don't know, it's an odd feeling. I've never felt like this before. Well, is not like I have been in love before anyways." –She smiled warmly at me and nodded. She then hugged me tightly. I returned the embrace, inhaling her scent and snuggling my head in the crook of her neck, giving it a soft kiss. I heard her sigh and I smiled.
I then felt her hands tangled in my hair, and it was my turn to sigh, loving the feeling of her fingers in my hair. I then felt her tug my hair a little and I raised my head to see her face. She had a serious expression on, and I suddenly felt nervous for some reason. She leaned her forehead to mine, and she stared at me.
"I want you to be my first Rogue." –The sudden affirmation took me of guard. Yes, we have talked about this a few times in the past but I never actually thought that it was going to happen. I felt my usual confidence slip away and in its place was nervousness. Did I want this to happen? Yes. Am I nervous as fuck? Positive. Do I probably going to fuck it? There's a 110% chance that I will but in the moment that I looked into Eirin's eyes and saw the pure love and warmness she stared at me, all the doubts and nervousness I felt slipped away. I took her hand and dragged her to her room, closing the door once we were inside. I let go of her hand and paced around the room a little.
"Are you sure about this Eirin? I mean, I just don't want you to regret it later." –She sighed and nodded.
"Why are you so nervous about Rogue? Is not like you're going to kill me."
"I know, but I've heard that for you girls it hurts and I just… don't like the idea of me hurting you." –She sighed and approached me, wrapping her arms around my waist and leaning her head on my chest.
"I'll be fine Rogue. No matter what, I'll be fine and happy at the end because you'll be by my side and I'll be happy because I'm yours, no matter what." –I smiled and wrapped my arms around her, hugging her tightly. Then I separated from her, taking off my cape and armory, laying it on the desk of her room.
I cupped her face and brought my lips down to hers, and that's when I felt all the assurance I needed from her to continue on with this. She wrapped her arms around my neck, getting closer to me and I moved my arms from her cheeks to her waist, bringing her as close as possible. Somehow I manage to bring her close to the bed while still kissing her, not wanting to waste any moment apart from her.
I then felt her separate from me and when I was about to protest, she pushed me to the bed, falling with a small 'thud' sound as I sat on the bed waiting for her. She sat on my lap and I felt my cheeks turn warm and I knew that it was a reaction of what she did. She brought her lips back to mine and I forgot about everything else. I wrapped my arms around her waist once again. I felt her lips move from mine and to my neck, making my breathing get stuck on my throat.
All these new sensations and feelings Eirin is making feel are so much better experienced than heard. All those stories when Sting just talk about how an amazing night he had with girls and all that stuff he said are nothing compared to this. This are feeling talking, not the desired sin of wanting the body of someone. I know that all of this is real, that all of this means something, that all of this is worth everything to put into, as cheesy as it sounds.
I tried to bite a groan but failed miserably, because I heard Eirin laugh softly and I knew she heard me. She brought her lips back to mine and kissed me more aggressively than before, making my wanting feeling become bigger. I kissed her back as hungrily as she was kissing me, as I felt her trying to lean me back on the bed. I let her, leaning back and bringing her with me, placing my hands under her shirt still on her waist.
*Eirin's POV*
When I felt his hands land under my shirt I shivered a little bit, the coldness of his hands coming in contact with the warm of my skin. I like the way it feels though. His hands feel like they belong there, perfectly grabbing a hold of my shaped waist. I parted from his lips, feeling my cheeks turn warm by my next though and sudden movement. I grabbed the hem of my shirt and pulled it over my head, switching my view from him.
This is all new to me and I feel nervous about it but I still want him to make me his. I felt Rogue's hand on my chin, turning my head to look at him. He had a somewhat fainted pinkish color on his cheeks and it made me feel a little less nervous knowing that I wasn't the only one nervous about this. He then took his shirt off, giving me opportunity to admire his toned chest, which I already knew that existed.
I have already have seen Rogue without a shirt but this feel different. He didn't took his shirt because he was injured, or because by mistake he got wet by the rain or something study like that, he took it because he wanted to, because he wanted me to see him. I returned my lips back to his, kissing him once again even more hungrily than before. He returned it, sliding his hands up and down my back, making my skin to have goose bumps.
It was his turn to move his lips from mine and to my neck, leaving trails of kisses on my jaw and chin until his lips got to his destination. I moaned lowly but I knew he heard it because he kissed the same spot a little harder again. While he kissed that spot that drove me insane over and over again, I tangled my hands in his soft, black hair. His hands traveled up to were my bra was, taking the straps off my shoulders and kissing there. I was in pure bliss feeling his lips on my skin. Its like they belong there.
His hands traveled to unhook my bra and after succeeding, he threw it to the floor, leaving me expose and cold. By instinct, I covered with my arms, leaning to his chest and hiding my face in the crook of his neck. He wrapped his arms for a moment around me, and then making me sit straight, looking at me. Slowly, he went to take my arms and putting them to my side, making my early light blush to appear once again. However, he kept his eyes on mine and for some reason, it made my heart skip a beat and my stomach to start doing flips. It proved that he loved me and was with me because of his feelings, not because of my body. But, the desire of the human body is inevitable. We started to kiss once again and we kept placing sweet, playful kisses here and there.
Clothes were discarded one by one and we were soon on our birthday suits in front of each other with blush in both of our faces. Rogue was on top of me, kissing my lips while he made me a woman, preventing me from thinking too much of the pain that it was causing me at the moment. I have heard that this was only the first time, that later on it was going to get better, but I still couldn't help the fact that this pain was horrible. I small tear fell down and Rogue whipped it off, looking at me with sorrowful eyes. I kissed his nose as a signal that it was alright and gave him a small smile, returning my lips to his. Soon enough the pain turned into pleasure, and those thoughts of wanting it to end already went to hell.
-TIME SKIP-
*Rogue's POV*
We were laying in bed, the sweat of our bodies stick to one another and our legs tangled together making everything more perfect that what already was. Eirin's long, purple hair was all over her pillow, her face looking at me with a smile on her lips. She looked even more beautiful than she already was. I wrapped my arms around her waist, bringing her close to me, her wrapping her arms around my neck.
"I love you Rogue." –I smiled.
"I love you, too. Never doubt that, okay?" –She nodded and gave me a kiss on my lips, closing her eyes. I closed mine, with a smile plastered on my lips. This was something way different than anything I have experienced before, and I'm more than glad to have experienced with a girl as amazing as Eirin, because this lustful feeling is fueled by her and only her.
I may feel like something is missing in this chapter. I was afraid that I wasn't going to make it as detail as possible but at the same time make it waaaay to detailed, since I like to write a lot of details to give the reader that boost to imagine the scene.
Like I stated at the starters of the chapter, I'm not that satisfied with this chapter but I somewhat like it. Could have done better, but whatever. Leave me your thought on it, please. Me and my fluffy scenes. What can I do? I'm a hopeless romantic in the bottom of my heart and it express itself when I write. :3
I like to write on Rogue's POV because it gives me a chance to portrait him as I imagine his personality to be. Of course, I take this out of the little information that Hiro has revealed of the character plus of how Hiro projects him with his gestures, facial expressions and actions.
Also, like I said before, if updates are slow, forgive me. I'm in a serious writer's block at the moment but I'll try to come up with ideas for it.
Any grammar mistakes please notified them to me and I'll correct them immediately.
Until next time! c: