Um...okay...this chapter to me is a little sad and a little iffy. See I didn't know much about the "subjest" I was siupposed to be writing about so I just winged it. If it's not all perfectly correct I'm sorry (you'll know what I'm talkin about when you get there trust me...but its nothing bad don't take it the wrong way 0o0). As I said it is a little sad an I cried writing this one so...be prepared! ENJOY IT!
After our honeymoon, we went back home and were greeted by a very happy doggie. I was happy that I would be getting my first check-up the very next day. Reid and I were sitting on the couch watching TV, when I got a nauseous feeling. It was so sudden that I really had no time to hold it in, and just threw up all over Reid's pants. I felt so bad about It too.
"Oh my god Spencer I am so sorry!" I said to him and jumped up to get a towel.
"No no its okay you just sit down and I'll go change." he said and then left. I felt like crying I was so embarrassed. He came back our a few minutes later and I had been crying.
I guess he noticed because he said, "Chealsee It's okay I understand that you get sick. I'm not mad." I looked up and smiled at him. He took my hand and we went to bed being as it was 12:00am. I curled up next to him and put my head on his chest. I felt very safe when he slept next to me. It was a thing I'd had since we first got together. And now we were together forever.
The next day we got around and went to the doctor to get me a check-up. I laid on the table while The nurse did the ultra sound and Reid held my hand just because he knew I didn't really like doctors.
"Okay we should have results for you in just a little while if you'd wait in here for a little bit." She said. So we waited for about a half hour. It seemed to be a busy day for them so we were patient. The doctor and nurse came in and neither looked very happy. They both sat down in chairs in front of Reid and I. I gave Reid a worried look and he squeezed my hand a little for comfort.
"Mr. and Mrs. Reid. We have some very terrible news." The nurse started. I felt Reid squeeze my hand even tighter but this time it was in fear. "Sometimes, when something unfortunate happens during a woman's pregnancy, the baby may just stop growing and….well….just passes away." The doctor said. I felt a lump in my throat but held back the tears.
"You mean…that's what…" Reid began to ask but stopped mid sentence. The doctor nodded at him.
"We're so sorry." The Nurse said.
"We have no time today but tomorrow we've set up and appointment for you so we can do a c-section. Again we are so sorry." The doctor said and then they both left. I was frankly in shock. I didn't speak to Reid all the way home. I didn't even cry. When we got home I went straight to the shower and just stood in the warm water for about a half hour, then got out, wrapped a towel around myself, and sat on my side of the bed. That's when it all came pouring out. I laid down, the towel still wrapped around me, and bawled into my pillow. After a minute I felt Reid lay down beside me and put his arms around me.
"It's alright Chealsee." he said rubbing my back, but I could tell by his voice he was on the verge of tears as well. "Shh it's going to be alright." He said still hugging me and rubbing my back. I felt Spooky and Bailey jump up on the foot of the bed. Bailey whimpered and curled up against my legs, as did Spooky. I however just bawled my eyes out. And Reid spoke to me gently, as if I was a child who'd just gotten hurt.
"He could've been so good as a Daddy." I thought. "Why me…why me."
(Here's a song)
Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we're home with you…
Until we're home with you…
Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there's a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You'll kiss our tears away
When we're home to stay
Can't wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
'till mom and dad can hold you…
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little babies, it's hard to
understand it 'cause we're hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we're stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…
I can't imagine heaven's lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know…all you'll ever know…
Q~Q so how was that huh? Even though it was sad sis you like it? Did anyone but me shed a few tears? Please R&R I love hearing from readers...thats the reason I post them. Stay tuned for more! :D