After everyone had eaten, JJ took Henry upstairs to pack his clothes.
"Mommy, can you swim with me tomorrow?" He asked
"Umm, buddy I don't think I'll swim tomorrow but maybe we can play soccer or another game." JJ told him
"We can play without Mia." Henry
"Yes, but remember that mommy still has to feed Mia." JJ
"Okay, I miss playing with you." Henry
"Me too, I promise that you and I will play games alone again." JJ
"When Mia's belly doesn't hurt?" Henry
"Yes and maybe Daddy can stay with Mia for a little bit." JJ
"I love you" Henry
"I love you too" JJ
/
Back in the living room
Dave was holding Mia, making baby faces at her.
"I so need a picture of this. Morgan will never believe me." JJ laughing
"Kiddo, you're going to get in trouble." Rossi told her with a smile
"Where are mom and Will?" JJ asked
"Getting dessert, I told Will I would watch Mia." Rossi told her
"Who is coming tomorrow?" JJ
"The team, Hotch is bringing Jack; Alex is bringing her husband and kids. I even invited Strauss and left Em a message." Rossi
"She's undercover again, she still doesn't know about Mia." JJ
"Well, she did decide to come a month early." Rossi
"Right, but we both know she is going to blame me." JJ laughing
"Who is blaming you?" Sandy as she walked back in
"Emily when she finds out I had Mia." JJ answered
"She doesn't know yet." Sandy
"No, she went undercover the day before I went into labor. I've left her a message to call me but I know she can't until she's done." JJ
"Well, wait until she sees Mia. Will is cutting the pies, do you want apple or chocolate." Sandy asked JJ
"Actually neither I am still kind of stuffed." JJ
"You sure" Sandy, knowing they were her favorites
"Yeah, I might have some later." JJ forcing a smile
"Okay." Sandy trying not to press the subject
"Dave, what about you?" Sandy
"I'll take apple. Thank you." Dave, making faces at Mia
"Mommy, who is going to read me my story" Henry standing in front of JJ
"Nana can call me or daddy and we will or nana knows the story she can." JJ
"Nana does?" Henry asked
"Yes, she used to read me the same story." JJ told him
"She did." Henry
"Yes" JJ smiling at him, it was a forced smile, but a smile.
/
2 hours later
Henry, Sandy, and Rossi had left to go to Rossi's, Will was cleaning up and JJ was laying in their bed nursing Mia.
"Hey you need anything." Will asked as he walked into the room
"No, I am okay" JJ looking down at Mia
She wasn't nursing again, JJ knew she had to relax but she keep thinking about Henry not being here and him asking her if she was going swimming tomorrow.
"Will, could you come rub my back. Maybe it will help me relax." JJ
"Yes grand amour." Will smiling at her
JJ just stared at him, she was afraid she would start a fight if she said anything.
Will sat on the bed and started rubbing her back
"Tell me what's wrong" Will
JJ took a couple deep breaths; she could feel herself relax a little more.
"It's nothing, me being foolish." JJ looking down at Mia again she was starting to really nurse.
"Jen, you can still tell me." Will
"Henry asked me if I was going to go swimming with him tomorrow. I know that it was an innocent question, but I started getting self-conscious about my body and getting into a bathing suit. I told him I would play a game with him, but I wasn't going swimming." JJ trying to stay calm
"You are beautiful and for the record you can't tell you were even pregnant let alone had a baby two weeks ago. If you want to swim tomorrow do it and if it makes you more comfortable wear one of my shirts but I promise you that you don't need it." Will
"You are saying that because we are married and it's still your fault that I got fat anyway. Please tell me the truth." JJ trying to fight back the tears
"Jen, are you going to believe me." Will asked gently
"I'll try." JJ as she was moving the baby to her other breast watching her latch on
"I wasn't lying when I told you that you couldn't tell you were pregnant. You are beautiful and if I remember right you came home in the clothes that you were wearing before you got pregnant. Part of what you said earlier is true, I will always think you're the most beautiful women in the world." Will told her
JJ shook her head "Putting on a bathing suit is completely different than putting on my regular clothes and I don't think any bath suit I have will cover my boobs right now."
"I don't have a problem with you flashing me although I am not sure how I feel about you flashing Rossi or any other male on the team." Will smiling
"That's what I mean right there I can't get into a bathing suit and we haven't even got to my stomach yet." JJ crying a little
Will took Mia from JJ, she watched as he put her in the bassinet before he climbed back on the bed with her.
"Cher, tell me what you see when you look at yourself." Will asked
"You've seen me naked, you know how I look." JJ still crying
"You're right I have and if I stare at you to long while you're changing or getting into the shower. I forget that we can't be together for another month." Will told her
"You really still want me." She asked
"Yes, I want you." Will pulling her into his arm
"All I see is my stomach not being as flat as it was; my boobs are too big and hurt." JJ told him
"Jen, I wish you could see the way you look to everyone else." Will
"I'm being crazy, I know it. Mia's two weeks old and I know that I can't go right back to the shape I was in before I got pregnant. I wish I could get away from all these feelings." JJ trying to explain
"Does it help to talk about it?" Will asked
"A little, I miss Henry too. Probably not the best combination." JJ smiling at him
"And you're still tired. I'll make you a deal." Will
"What's the deal?" JJ
"Tonight Mia sleeps in here; when she gets up I'll get her so you can sleep." Will
"How are you planning on feeding her?" JJ asked
"I'll get a bottle or if you want I'll wake you up when she's actually hungry." Will
"I would prefer to nurse her, it helps me not hurt." JJ explaining
"Then we have a deal." Will asked
"Yes" JJ yawning.
"Go to sleep my love" Will as he kissed the top of her head
"I love you" JJ as she closed her eyes