I cannot believe how Jacob is acting! It's like what I say goes in one ear but out the other. It's ok for Bella to be friends with the Cullen family but for me it's wrong. Talk about a double standard. Granted, I haven't really been that much better and my bad thoughts of Bella. Ugh! Since when did things get so complicated?
"LK, what's wrong?" Edward asked. "You seem to have gone somewhere else. What happened between you and Jacob? When you left the house everything seemed to be going in the right direction."
"Bella is what happened, Edward! She is what always seems to happen. Anytime I get any where with Jacob she pops up somehow and ruins everything. She messed up our night, she messed up my friendship with Jacob, Mike and Jessica and Angelia and Eric are always talking about her and I am so sick and tired of being second fiddle. It's like I'm the consolation prize and she is the real deal. For once in my life I want to come first and I'm just tired of it." I screamed out crying.
There is no sense in trying to hide it now. I've been so sad since my mom has died and I put my dad first. Not that I blame him, but I did. And then I come out here and it's like 'Oh the new girl. She's cool but Bella …'.
"Edward, I'm sorry. I'm just not feeling very good right now. I think maybe I should be alone."
"No! I'm not leaving you alone. Not now and not ever. You are my friend, Lily Katherine. And for better or worse, that will always be the case. Now I'm going to take you back to my house and we are going to stay up and talk about things for as long as you need to. Do you hear me? You are MY friend!" He shouted back at me. I've never really had someone that cared so much as to yell at me other than my parents. With that, I just broke down in to tears.
"I am so sorry that I have ruined your night! The last thing that I wanted to do was to be a burden to anyone and that is what I have become."
"Lily Katherine! How many times do I need to tell you that you are not a burden? You are a good friend of mine. And I know that we just met but you are a beautiful person that I need to have around me. I know that you have been dealt some shitty cards as of late but thing will get better. They always do."
For the next ten minutes or so we drove back to his house in silence. It gave me a good amount of time to thing about something's that have been racing through my head. Did Jacob think the same way as Edward did? Am I going to be ok? It is times like this that I really do miss my mom. I wish I had her here to shed some light on the situation.
As we pull up to the Cullen house both Esme and Alice come running out of the house.
"LK! Are you ok? When Edward got your text and told us about the S.O.S I was so worried that the damned Mutt did something to you." Alice exclaimed.
"I'm fine Alice. Well mostly fine. I think the only thing that is hurt in this whole thing is my heart and my ego." I replied back trying to put on a brave face.
"Oh you sweet, sweet girl." Emse said putting both hands on the sides of my face. "You do not deserve to be treated that way."
"Really Jacob did nothing wrong. We are just two very opinionated people with two very different opinions on things. I just wish that things could have happened differently. I really did not want to get your family involved in this. It's just like Rosalie said earlier, I'm just going to cause problems for you and I really don't want to do that."
"You aren't causing problems for us, Lily Katherine." A new voice said. I turn around and see Rosalie standing there. "The fact that you are standing here and sympathizing with us and saying that you aren't wanting to cause problems for us is something that Bella never did. Edward, I'm sorry but it's true. This one here actually is here for the right reasons."
About half way through Rosalie talking I started crying again.
"I'm so sorry! I am such a mess right now and I can't stop crying. This is so not how I wanted to spend the first night with y'all. You have been so sweet to me and how do I repay you? I run out of your house scared and then when I come back, all I can do is burst in to tears. This is probably the most embarrassing night of my life."
"Please, sister!" Rosalie said with a half smile on her face. "The most embarrassing night of my life was back in 1933 when the man I loved turned out to be a monster. Not like a vampire monster but like a human one. He was something that I had never seen before and it still makes me sad to this day that I could have missed such a huge part of who he was. We all have judgment errors. We just have to move past them. You never know, maybe Jacob will come around."
"Yeah, maybe he will change his opinion about y'all but I don't know if I can change my opinion about him at this point. I mean I kind of understand that werewolves and vampires aren't exactly best friends in the supernatural world but to treat y'all like he did, I don't know if I can get past that. And further more, I don't know if I can get past him defending Bella all the time and never once stopping to think about how it makes me feel. I mean, I know it's selfish but I think we are all allowed to be selfish at some point in our lives."
"Oh honey! Of course you are allowed to be selfish when it comes to the boy you like." Esme said while hugging me. "Listen, why don't we get you some tea and call your father and let him know that you are going to be staying here tonight. I think you need some good ole fashioned girl time and it's been a long time since I've had a facial so it'll be good for all of us."
"That sounds like a really great idea. Thank you so much for doing this for me. You really didn't have to." I replied as Esme and I were walking off toward the phone.
In the other room Edward, Alice and Rosalie remained talking.
"What are you going to do Edward?" Alice asked.
"About what?"
"About Lily Katherine, dumbass!" Rosalie said. "I know I didn't really like Bella but it do really like LK and I don't want to see her get hurt by all of the guys in this town. She's a keeper!"
"I, for once, agree with Rosalie, Edward. I don't want to see Lily Katherine get hurt. What are you going to do?"
Edward stared off into the direction that I left with a dark and moody expression on his face. "I don't know what I'm going to do." He replied and walked off towards Esme and I.