Man oh man have the last twenty-four hours been something that a Lifetime movie could be made of! I just back home from spending the night at the Cullen's and I have no clue what I am going to do about what happened yesterday. Between Jacob and Edward, I am just so confused. I am very frustrated with Jacob and how he acted and I'm frustrated with myself in how I reacted to him. It's like I betrayed Jacob in how I reacted to him. I just never saw this coming but who really could see anything like this coming? Maybe that Seer lady from Harry Potter could have told me to watch out for this.

I feel myself getting all wound up and anxious. After my mama's death, I started to go to counseling to work through my grief. One of the things that my therapist taught me was to write things down. So, to try to clear my mind, I pull out my diary and just start writing everything that comes to my mind.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday and today has been quite the confusing day for me. It all started off as normal, well as normal as you could get.

Yesterday, I woke up in the hospital after a surfing accident. Ugh my damn uncoordinated self and me. Really, I should have warned Quil about how bad I am at all things other than running and cheerleading. When I got home is where all the craziness began. When I tried to talk to both Quil and Jacob, they both blew me off. I just really want to be friends with people here and we all seemed to be on the right track. Yes, I had a crush on Jacob and if he had asked me out I would have totally said yes, but now I'm not so sure I would say yes to a date. Sorry Diary, I'm getting ahead of myself.

When I went to blow off some steam, I ran into Doctor Cullen, the doctor who basically saved my life, and his family. They are all so nice! Alice reminds me of my two best girlfriend's back home combined together. She is the one who invited me to their house. Once there, all hell broke loose. Jacob and Bella showed up and it turns out the Jacob is a werewolf and the Cullen family are all vampires. Who the hell saw that one coming? I sure didn't. I mean I grew up under the understanding that werewolves and vampires are all made up in stories. Seriously! What next? Witches and warlocks are real, too?

When I left the house, after thinking that all things were on a good path, Jacob and I got into a huge argument. I know Diary, rule number one when dealing with werewolves, don't get into arguments with them; you can turn into werewolf bait. I called Edward at that time and spent the rest of the night at his house. I do really like his family. They are all so thoughtful and caring and protective of their family members. It reminds me a lot of my family.

Going into that day, I thought that I knew what I wanted, Jacob. But now, with all that has happened, I am not so sure that he is what is good for me. Of course, what I think is good for me now, Edward, is actually a vampire and is probably nothing but bad news too.

Oh Diary! How did things get so mixed up? When did life become a Forks, Washington episode of 'Sex and the City'? I just really wish I could go back in time and some how change things around so that they would be less complicated.

Got to go. There is someone at my door.

XXOO,

LK