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What's Done In The Dark: The King's Concubine
Dear Diary 13
Hotaru was going to kill me!
Darien's appearance in the house expectantly roused two feelings within me. the strongest at that moment was absolute joy. I wanted to jump into his arms, kiss him, laugh and exclaim over and over, "You found me."
A river of tears flooded me, like a tidal wave it broke through the wall of my eyes and coursed down my cheeks yet I wasn't certain if the tears were of happiness or hopelessness.
There was a small noise behind me and the spell of happiness I had felt in seeing Darien again dispelled. I turned my head as much as I could to see the family that had adopted me into their folds even though I was Hotaru's enemy and hopeless sadness wrenched through me like a spear. They were gagged and guarded like common criminals! For what? Lending a hand of protection to me? The sadness burned away and left in me an acid anger. I was glad, with sadness was the hidden fear but with anger, I cared not what he would do to me. I turned my head back to him to let him see the pain and hate my eyes.
"Let them go." The coldness of my voice surprised even me but I was not about to sit Idly and let him hurt them which I knew he would for keeping me away from him and for not reporting me when he demanded my capture.
"That my dear, I cannot do."
"They had nothing to do with this!" I almost yelled with a growl of frustration. He raised his left eye brow as if what I had just said was the understatement of the century.
"No, they took you away from me." Now his voice was the cold one and impressive enough, the tune sacred me.
"They did not take me away!" I said, stabbing a foot on the floor. "I came here own my own."
"With the help of their daughter."
"Their daughter is the queen, your legally wedded wife!" I threw the words slowly at him, half mocking and half hoping that it will bring him to his senses.
"No longer when we return." He said with a smirk and a gloating expression.
"What…" I licked my lips. "What did you do?" I squeaked out.
"I promised you that the two of us would be together forever did I not? I did whatever was necessary to have that promise and my wishes granted." I gulped; I hope he hadn't killed the queen!
"Darien, let me say this once and for all, I have no interest in marrying you!" His eyes darkened, and for a fraction of a fraction of a second, the madness resurfaced but disappeared as soon as it came.
"Do you think you have a choice now in escapade and for what you have put me through this month?" involuntarily, my body shuddered from the chill of his voice and barely contained rage in his eyes. Fear roused in my again, this time much stronger and real that I could not push it away. Back, I would be taken back into captivity for all my life. Why was the world so unfair, God why have you abandoned me so?
I heard a squeak from behind me and I turned my head and shifted my body. He let me turn in his arms but would not let me step out.
"Release the gag!" I demanded of the guard that was standing behind lady Heather whom the squeak had come from. No emotion registered on the guards face, it was as if I hadn't spoken at all. If I had no choice but to become Darien's wife…that guy would be out of duty!
"Now…I said release her from all bondage!" still he moved not. Growling, I turned back to Darien and glared at him.
"Will you please tell your statue of a guard to release them!?" I demanded and his brow roused again but this time, in amusement.
"I'm afraid not. They will be taken to the capital and face the full punishment of treason."
"Treason!" I squealed out loudly as once again rage boiled inside me. "Tell me, what treachery have they done?" his eyes narrowed at me.
"They betrayed my commands for your return."
"As far as I am concern, they found a lonely, almost dead red haired girl on the floor and they took me in, fed me and made me healthy and whole again. You searched for a blonde haired girl; do I look blond to you?"
"You will not change the truth." He hissed.
"Watch me." that was a mistake. His eyes lost all expression and he looked at his guard.
"Drag them to the carriage along with whatever servants you find." He said.
"Darien!" but my voice did not reach him. Tightening my two hands behind my back, he turned to drag me away.
"Darien please listen to me!" but he did not. One more step and I will be out of eye sight. What would happen to Hotaru's family? Could I really put them in danger after all they had done for me? After shielding and protecting me? After feeding me and listening to my stories? They were my friends….my family!
"Please, release them and I will go with you quietly and never leave again!" the words came out quickly in a plea. He stopped. For a second I was aware of the absolute silence that filled the entire house. My heart hammered in my ears and I felt my eyes fold in and out as if I was about to pass out. Suddenly I felt so tired. I needed to rest.
"Please Darien. Please, let them go." He stared at me with no emotion as if trying to read something. Whatever he read from my profile, his grip on me loosened a bit and we turned back into the room. We walked close to the family until we stood right in front of them.
"You promise that if I set them free you will never again escape from my side?" he demanded. I sighed, so this would be my fate.
"Yes."
"You promise that if I drop all charges against them, you will never leave my side ever again?"
"Yes."
"Mark my words Serena; should you ever break this promise to me, I will have this entire family buried in graves of shame." His words were cold and dangerous and the promise of vengeance if I ever broke my promise to him was real. He would slaughter this family, Hotaru's family, my family if ever I try to run away again. I felt like a canarian in a cage, in my minds eye I saw metal and brick cages surface all around me to the height of the sky. Is this what Rapunzel felt like when she was trapped in her tower? But no, Rapunzel had been saved by her prince; it was my prince who had locked me in the tower. What little light of hope I had vanished, my energy along with it and I sagged, surrendering to my fate.
"I will never leave your side again." I promised. He pulled me back against his body, holding me tighter than before.
"Release them!" He ordered and in unison, the guards untied the gags and the ropes around the others.
"Serena no child! You don't know what you're doing!" Lady heather said with wild panic eyes. I smiled sadly at him.
"You're right. I know not what I'm doing. I only know that I don't want you or anyone from this household hurt because of me." I said softly.
"Serena…" Kakyuu said miserably.
"It's alright. I'll be fine." I tried to assure them but even I did not believe my words. I was without a doubt that there was some sort of punishment waiting for me when I returned to the palace.
The last to be released was Jed. As soon as the ropes fell, he ran towards me and Dairen with his hand fisted as if to deliver a deadly blow.
"You bastard!" he cried, but several inches from us, he was intercepted by a guard whose shield slammed into him left should and he crippled to his floor as he gasped for air and holding his aching side.
"Jed!" I screamed and wiggled myself, trying to be free of Darien's grip but his grip only tightened.
"Oh Jed." I said softly as tears pooled down my face. Look at the suffering I had brought on these good people. Kayuu quickly ran to his side and helped him stand up.
"Your Majesty, why? Why do you do this to my daughter? What wrong has she done you?" Lady Heather asked softly, her tune that of a broken bird.
"You ask what your daughter has done me? As if you aren't already privy to that information. You watched as your daughter used me to get to my brother and once she succeeded, she cast me aside like a piece of garbage." His voice was raw with anger and…hurt.
"But that was not enough for her was it? Even married to my brother she unfaithfully slept with the head priest, a priest for goodness sake! And she begot a child, when my brother threatened to expose her, she killed him! She cold bloodedly murdered my brother with a poison your family is known for making! But what happened? She claimed innocent, the poison was not detected and she got away with it. And as I tried to live my life abroad, I was brought back here to marry that same bitch who cast me aside years ago! And you ask me what wrong she has done me? You will be very lucky if even a limb of her is returned to this household." The silence after that statement was shocking and long. Hotaru had killed King Diamond? This was something I did not know, when Darien told me before of Hotaru's wrongs, this information he had not shared.
I was certain I wasn't the only one in shock at the revelation. Looking at Hotaru's siblings, I saw their eyes wide with shock.
"Helios is not Diamond's son?" Kunzite asked I shock.
"No." Darien answered in short.
"And she murdered the late king?" Zoisite asked. But instead of answering, Darien turned her face to their mother.
"I have not the time to answer your questions but why don't you ask your mother. She knew everything from the start; she will provide you with all the answers you want." He said tightly.
"Mother is he telling the truth?" Nephrite asked. Lady Heather's body began to shake and she dropped to the floor with her hands covering her face as she cried.
"Yes." She answered softly but I knew everyone heard it. Her small frame shook with sob and tears snaked around the hands she had covering her face. she looked pitiful, defeated. My heart went out to her.
"Darien, please release me." I said softly.
"No!"
"Please, I will come straight back." He seemed to waver then he released his hold on me. I walked to the woman who had been like a mother to me in this short time I was with her and folded her in my embrace. I cradled her as she cried, whispering nonsensical words to her. After a while, she seemed to calm down.
"I failed as a mother."
"No." I said. "No you did not fail. If you had raised Hotaru in the same manner you have treated me this month in your household, then you have not failed as a mother. Our parents can only guide us to a certain stage in our lives but in the end, the choice of who we want to be and who we are is ultimately up to us. Remember, as much as we are influenced within the folds of our family, the world at large also influences us as well. The choice of who influence to adhere to lies with the child. You have not failed; she was the one who failed. Thank you so much for the warmth you all showered me with. Thank you for your acceptance of me. Thank you for loving me and for giving me something I lost so long ago. Thank you…mother." I added the last part as an after thought. She lifted her head and smiled a little at me.
"I really wish you had been born to me dearest child. I pray that our paths cross again." She said.
"I pray for that as well." We stood up and she drew me into a tight embrace, silent tears running down her face onto my skin. She kissed my forehead, my left cheek and my right.
"Whatever happens, know that you have a mother in me ok?" she said and my won tears surfaced.
"Thank you." I said breathlessly. I stepped back and walked to Kunzite who was nearest.
"The best medicine to calming a trouble heart is the beautiful melody your hands spin on the piano. That I will miss more than anything. I have never have a brother I could depend on to put me at ease, to take my troubles away but in you I found that and more. Thank you for the strength and the peace of mind you offered me in my stay here. I hope that someday I will be able to repay back the dept that I owe you." I said and bowed my head to him.
"I wish I had been able to do more. I wish I can prevent this fate of yours but alas, I am powerless to protect my little sister." He put his arms around me and hugged me. "Take care and know that we are just over the hills. Whenever you need us, we will always be there." I hugged him tightly before stepping back and moving on to the next person which was Kakyuu. I had barely approached her when she folded me tightly in a crashing embrace.
"When Hotaru was here, I always wanted to play with her. do dress up, be close. But she preferred to be with the daughters of the nobles and I was always left alone. In this month you've been here, I haven't felt that loneliness. You played with me no matter what time of day or night it was. You told me stories and you gave me the bond of sisterhood which felt so empty in my heart. I wish I could keep you here forever. I don't want you to go!" she cried and I held. I knew exactly how she felt.
"This will not be the last time we see each other or play together. Come visit me whenever it's ok with mother. My room is always open to you my little sister." I said and she drew back.
"I can come visit you anytime?" she asked, excitement starting to wash away the pain of departure.
"Anytime of the day or night."
"Thank you!" she said graciously as she beamed at me. I leaned up a little and kissed her forehead.
"Listen to mother and grow up as she will want you to, you will be much lucky in life that way."
"Ok!" she said, nodding her head as well. I smiled at her and walked to Nephrite who also pulled me into his embrace before I could speak.
"Thank you for all the recipes you taught me. I regret not being given the chance to teach you mine." He said.
"Nephrite, in all my life I've only ever known two people who cook better than you. my mother and my friend Lita. She is an excellent cook and someone you will get along great with. There is much she can teach you then I can, I am certain she would want to meet you and taste your exquisite food. Expect a visit from her when things have…settled down a bit more."
His eyes sparkled.
"Someone who can cook as great as you?" he asked, trying to see that someone in my image.
"Compared to her, I'm still a child learning."
"Well then, I can't wait to meet this friend of yours."
I walked next to Zoisite.
"I am definitely going to miss all the story books you gave me to read." I said with a little smile and he smiled back.
"The palace has a library too."
"Yes but it doesn't have you. How will I know which book is worth reading?" I asked.
"I guess it can't hurt to send you some books. But I will miss your story telling."
"If all goes well, you will hear my voice weaving a net of stories for you once me."
"Then I will pray twice as hard for things to go well and quickly." He said and we hugged. When I approached Jadeite, he turned his back on me.
"Don't say anything! Just go!" he shouted. I was uncertain how to proceed. Did he hate me now because of the trouble I had brought to his family? In the end I did all I could do. I hugged him from behind.
"Thank you and I'm sorry." I whispered. Drawing my hands back, I felt something wet land on it and brought it to my eyes. It was a tear. I would miss all of them but Jed most. The two of us had formed a very strong bond in my short stay here.
I drew back so I could look at all of them and Jed's turned back.
"Thank you so much all of you. You will always be a family to me and someday I hope to repay all of you back for your unconditional love for me."
"Take care daughter." Mother said.
"See you soon." Kakyuu waved and I nodded. I turned and walked past Darien. Out of the room I ran, not to get away from Darien as I knew he was chasing after me but to be alone where I could cry freely. As I rounded the corner, I collided with Ann who held me against her and the two of us cried.
"I'm glad to have known you Serena." She said as Darien's figure loomed over us.
"And I Ann. When Kakyuu comes to visit me, please come with her."
"I will. Thank you." she said and the two of us stood up. "May God protect you always Serena."
"And you too my friend." She bowed to Darien and ran off sobbing. I leaned against the building and sighed. I could feel his eye on me but I was too tired to care what sort of expression he wore.
"Well, lets go." I said tiredly. He took my hand and led the way to a coach that was waiting for us. I entered without protest, without looking back and sat quietly against the walls of the coach, paying no attention to the commotion outside. Freedom, I had escaped to be free but I had to be trapped inside to maintain that freedom, had I really ever been free?
I feel asleep and woke up when the coach began moving. Across from me he sat, watching me with absolutely no emotion. I looked at him for a moment and averted my gaze to the window of the moving coach.
"Did you enjoy your time here?" he asked.
"What do you care?" I answered back, still not looking at him. for a while none of us spoke.
"How long did you think you could hide from me?" he asked, I didn't say a word.
"Do you know how worried I've been? At first I thought Hotaru had done something to you! She kissed me for one second, I pushed her away and looked up but you were not there. I searched through the whole palace!" His voice roused with each word.
"To think you will stoop so low as to associate yourself with a woman with no morals, are you that desperate!?"
"What makes you think I'm not the same as her huh? What makes you think I'm going to be oh so loyal to you? What makes you so sure I have not lain with one of Hotaru's brothers? Did you not see how close we were?" I mocked. Without warning, I landed hard on my back on the chair of the coach and he hovered over me, his hands locking my shoulders to the chair.
"Say what you just said again!" he ordered. I was too scared, his eyes were wild and angry, shooting out sparks of rage I had never seen before.
"You're hurting me." I said but it came out like a squeak. It felt as if he was using all his strength to pin me down and I was having trouble breathing! Unexpectedly, his lips crashed on mine. I gasped for air and tried to breath but it wasn't happening. I wiggled my hand to get his attention, twisting my body in the process and then just let my body slump weakly. That seemed to stop him. He lifted his head and looked at me.
"Why do you always push me past my sanity?" he asked softly, I was too busy consuming air to reply.
Unexpectedly he asked. "Did you forget about your brother?" A chill ran through me at the reminder of the little brother I had seen in little over a month. He was right and I hated him for it.
"Did you forget I hold your brother's very life in my hand? That with one command I could have him attend the school your former master intended for him to go to?" he asked icily and I wanted to cry. I had forgotten, I had been thinking only of myself. I had completely forgotten that I agreed to be his for my brother's sake. Selfishly I had run and left my brother to a fate that would be decided by a madman! How could I have been so easily manipulated by an illusion of freedom that I would forfeit my brother's life to obtain it? I was the worst!
"I've had to go a whole month without touching you, do you know the torture my body has been in? What I did to you is like a double edge sword, the effect is both ways. Do you want to know what it felt like when I couldn't touch, I couldn't see you, I didn't know how you were doing and what was happening to you? I spent night lost in nightmares wondering about your where about!" he was screaming. Suddenly he growled and gripped my skirt and pushed it down. Next he gripped my underwear and ripped it out. my body buckled as his fingers grazed softly against me. I nearly cried out as he pulled his fingers away. The need my body felt tormented my mind and I wanted to cry from the release I craved for so badly. His hands returned but this time he did not pull away. He pushed inside me with one finger and my inside clenched tightly around his finger. My body bucked down as if to meet it though he stood still.
"Darien please!" the cry tore out of my mouth. Slowly his finger began to move and my body shook violently. He stopped and moved his finger until I begged again. This repeated several times then I understood his motive. This was my punishment for running away.
God he was a cruel man!
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We arrived at the capital at early morning. My body burned with feverish need and I was going in and out of consciousness. I was not even aware when Lita rushed to me, hugged me and took me to the room. For a long while I was lost in the pain of the desire that would not quench.
I was dimly aware of Darien removing his clothing and mine but all blurred away with a sigh when his body finally touched me. I gripped as if afraid he would retreat again, I'm sure my fingers must have been bruising but he said nothing, jut held me as tight as I was holding him. He was also at the end of his tolerance and no amount of punishment was worth another pain of the cravings our body demanded a cure for.
My lips fumbled on his blindingly, kissing wherever it landed and sucking on his mouth when I felt his soft lips. Our tongues rushed into each others mouth, battling not for power but to mold together. Like our tongues our bodies shuffled and wiggled as we both tried to meet each other's demand. All coherent thoughts were whipped out of my head and all I could think of was more, I need more.
The feel of his groin within me was painful. My body seemed to have forgotten the size of him but when he gently pushed in, the pain disappeared as he slowly eased in and out of me. With the pain gone, his slow pace was nearly driving me nuts. I wanted more, harder, faster, I wanted the need to satiate soon! I tried to deliver the pace faster but he would not have it, he dragged the slow pace on until finally even he sort more.
Giving into his need, he began a punishing pace within. Even the pain of his bruising strokes felt pleasurable after the month of chaste I've been through. but it was not enough, still my body craved more. If I had been in my right mind, I would have been scared at the extent my body demanded before it was satisfied but as I was, instinct, raw human instinct to have, to be satisfied was the only driving force in me.
I needed him, I needed more!
"Uh….ahn…mmm…Please….more…your majesty please….harder!" the pleading tore out of my lips in gasps of pleasure and pain.
"You little slut….god you feel so good." He groaned but his voice was lost to me. He pounded in me harder and faster and my body even in its hurting pain returned the pounding. His warm hands massaged my breasts in hard even strokes as his lips devoured mine. Our bodies blended together in ways that was just humanly impossible and these moments where we gave all we have to each other, our hearts are connected through a bond of absolute trust, love and devotion that surpasses all else. Ah, he feels so good; his strong body pressing against mine filled me with warmth that could never be achieved no matter how close I stand to a real fire. His strong and big groin filled me with ecstasy as they pressed to the deepest of my warmth, claiming me as his possession and together we rode on the waves of passionate love making.
He picked me up and put me on the center table and began tearing into me with his needs and demand for release that only I was capable of delivering. My juice slipped past his groin, making my opening a slippery road for him to enter and exit over and over. I cried out in both pain and pleasure, wanting it to stop but wanting it to go on forever. As if the extent we were going wasn't enough, he turned me around and I held the table as he took to my back and from behind began another round of love making. We had both cum more than ten times but he was not letting me rest, he was determined to instill in me that I was his possession and no one other than him would have me. This was my punishment from trying to free myself of him. It was nothing less than I deserved, what had started as an act of play to save my brother's life has turned me into a dog, barking at my master's command. I hated it; I wanted it to go on forever.
Finally he stopped, exhausted and we both collapsed to the floor in heavy breaths, fully and overly satiated. He was done, I could leave but my spine would not move. I did not have the strength to even keep my eyes fully opened.
His arms snaked around me and he pulled me close to his body, his hands still fumbling my breasts.
"Don't ever try that again. You belong to me and will always be mine. No one but me will have you." he whispered heatedly in my ears. But I was too exhausted to react. Taking this as an act of defiance, he swiftly swung my face to his and my body protested painfully with the move.
"Answer me! Say it! That you belong to me alone!" He demanded and even in my hazy gaze I could see the madness in his stormy eyes, the need, the lust, the absolute certainty that he would make me suffer if I ever tried to leave his side again. In that moment I knew I would be a slave of his needs and my own for the rest of my life. But it was ok wasn't it? If I could shield my heart and mind, I won't feel a thing; let him do what he wants. My body would be his forever but I could close my heart so it would no longer hurt.
"I belong to you alone." The words escaped my lips out of their own accords, whether it was the words of my heart or words to free me from the tight grasp he was holding my face with I know not, what I do know is that I am tired and want to sleep.
"Good, mark my words Serena, if this ever happens again, there will be hell to pay by all with your blood." The threat was real, as real as me and him, as real as these games that have become my life.
"Yes…your majesty." I assented and he finally let my head fall on his arm gently as he massaged my forehead.
"You belong to me, me alone." These words he kept repeating until I lost consciousness and in the last minute when sleep would claim me, I prayed for death to free me and for god to forgive my sins. But I knew it was too late, I could never be forgiven for all I've done. So my prayer is that someone, anyone, God please…protect my brother! Protect my brother for I lack the strength to do so myself…
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