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Chap 11

When we reach the hospital, I walk hand in hand with my husband. We don't have to wait long because we have the earliest appointment of the day.

The doctor introduces himself as a Dr. Bradley Lewis. He takes a tube of blood from me, weighs me, and asks for a urine sample.

Then he says with a smile on his face, "Would you like to meet your baby?"

I smile excitedly. "Can we?"

We walk down the hallway to a room called the Primrose Everdeen Ultrasound Center. I start to cry as I read the plaque above the door and Peeta squeezes my hand.

The doctor turns, assumedly to see why I'm crying, and then you see the light bulb go off in his head.

"Dr. Prim was your little sister, wasn't she?" he says with an apology written across his face.

I smile with tears rolling down my cheeks. "Yes, she was."

"I am so sorry for your loss, Mrs. Mellark. She was a great person to work with."

I laugh. "She made everyone fall in love with her."

We walk in and he asks me to pull up my shirt and pull down my pants. I do, and then he spreads some cold blue jelly on my stomach. I jump when it touches me.

He laughs. "I apologize for not warning you in advance. It is cold." Then he points to the screen.

Peeta kisses me, and I see my little baby for the first time.

The baby looks like the hand held version of a baby. It's really tiny, and you can just make out its little arms and legs. It's positively adorable. "Can you print me out a picture of the baby?"

He does. And I take it home with me and put it in a frame. I set it on the coffee table in front of the TV. Peeta leaves me with "I have to pull a shift at the bakery. I'll be back later." He kisses me.

I sit down on the couch and turn on the TV. I turn on the news and expect to see some boring editorial on teen drinking or something, like they usually run at this time of day. But then I see the one person in this world that I hate more than anything.

Gale Hawthorne.

I decide to TiVo this.

"I'm Glitter Ravens, here with Gale Hawthorne, the Mockingjay's best friend!" then she turns to Gale. "So, Gale, what's it like to see your best friend get married to her star-crossed lover?" she asks excitedly.

He whistles. "Well, Glitter, to be honest, it's horrifying." His eyes drop to the floor.

The audience understands what he's going through, they think.

"And why is that?" Glitter asks with a sad look on her face.

He sighs. "To be honest… even though I'm sure Katniss is watching this, I always wanted it to be more than just 'friends' between us. But she didn't feel the same way. And then Peeta comes into the picture, and she fell in love with him. Now she's married to him and pregnant with his baby, and I'll never have a chance with her."

The women in the audience sigh. Yes, I think. Because Gale is so brave coming on TV and telling the world about his secret love for me.

Glitter smiles. "But you have to be happy for her, right? I mean, if you really love her, then all you want is for her to be happy right?"

He smiles. "I'm screwed no matter what I say to this. If I tell the truth, people hate me. If I lie, the people whose opinions matter the most hate me." He pauses. "So I guess I'll go with the truth. No, it doesn't make me happy. It infuriates me. I'm always going to be the best friend. It's kind of like I play the pathetic ex boyfriend who just wants his one true love back. But I was never Katniss' boyfriend. I only got to be the jerk she never wanted. All I ever wanted was for her to know that everything I do, it's because I love her. But she loves me like a brother, not a lover. It's okay, but I miss her a lot. I was sort of banned for life from her home about a month, maybe two, ago."

The audience seems stunned. Good. I think. Now they'll know just what kind of monster he really is.

Glitter truly looks appalled. "Why?" she asks tentatively.

He frowns. "I… well… okay, so, I went over there and was mad. And brought a gun with me. Well, she answered the door and eventually pissed me off enough to make me kiss her without her permission. Then she slapped me. And I went to hit her, and then Peeta knocked me away from her. He kicked my ass pretty good. But I was screaming at him and I took out my gun and shot two bullets into her walls. Then she told me she never wanted to see me again. And banned me from her home… permanently."

Glitter laughs nervously. "Sounds like you had an eventful evening at the Mellark household, huh?"

"Yeah, you could say that." He says shame facedly.

"Well that's all the time we have today with Gale Hawthorne. But I enjoyed our interview, Gale. Thank you for doing this."

He smiles. "You're welcome, Glitter." Then cautiously he adds, "Can I say something?"

She hands him the microphone.

"Katniss, I'm really sorry about everything that has happened between us. I really am. I can understand completely if you and Peeta are still mad at me; you have every right to be. But I hope when your little Mellark is born, maybe I can meet him. I love you Katniss. And Peeta, man, I'm sorry. I hope you didn't get hurt at all, and if you are then I'm sorry."

The play the theme song for Glitters' segment, and it's off.

"Well, that was interesting, wasn't it, Katniss?" it was Peeta.

I frown and turn around. "How long have you been standing there?" I ask.

"Well, I forgot my keys, and I came back to get them and I saw this and I had to see what your 'best friend' had to say." He kisses me and says "I'll be back later. See you soon."

I decide to take a nap.

I dream of my baby, and what it will be like to be a mother. I miss having Prim here. She would've been so happy and caring. She would love meeting my baby.

"Oh Katniss that's wonderful! I'm so happy for you! What is it going to be?" she asks curiously.

"Well, they don't know yet, but either way, I'd be happy. But a baby that looks just like Peeta is what I'm aiming for."

She frowns. "Will you name it Primrose as its middle name if it's a girl?" she asks.

I smile. "Sure, little duck."

"Katniss, what if you're a horrible mom?" she asks.

It stings, hearing her question my parenting abilities. "I wonder that myself." I whisper.

She smiles. "Well, I think you'll be great."

I see blood on her white dress then. "Prim, you're bleeding!"

She smiles."No, Katniss, I'm not. That's me leaving." She now looks grim.

I cry. "No, Prim, when will I get to see you again?"

She smiles. "Whenever you doubt yourself. Then all you have to do is go to sleep. I'll visit you in your dreams."

And with that my little sister is gone again.

Ring! Ring! Ring!

"Hello?" I say groggily.

"Katniss? Oh thank God you finally answered the phone!" It's Gale. "Did you see me on TV today?"

I scoff. "Yes, I saw your little performance. And quite frankly I'm not sure why you called. I refuse to talk to you. Goodbye, Mr. Hawthorne."

"But Kat-"

And my end of the line goes dead.